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It has been many times Istighfar, but the anger of Binar has not
also reda. It was only after her husband had sealed her body and drowned her face
on the chest, Binar's emotions slowly faded.
“Honey, istighfar..” Said Pamungkas lirih.
Binar tried hard to control his emotions. It
crying in his arms. He felt very angry.
Suddenly the view of Binar turned blurry. Abdominal
it hurts amazing. He was no longer able to support his body. Glow
collapsing with still being held by Pamungkas.
“Bin!” Pekik Pamungkas who tried to hold the body
his wife did not fall to the floor.
“Aaahh!!!” The barar whimpered in pain while holding
her stomach. It hurts so much.
He immediately carried his wife and laid her down
to bed.
Binar was still rolling around while holding his stomach.
Cold sweat flooded his body. Immediately he called Doctor Sita
who immediately came after getting a phone call from Pamungkas.
Pamungkas and Doctor Sita work together to deal with Binar.
Putting aside all his grief and panic to save his wife.
After giving pain medication, slowly the pain
The bar started to decrease. And he started to fall asleep.
He was waiting for his wife on the edge of the bed. It
can not be separated holding the hand of Binar who is still asleep. His feelings are destroyed outside
I used to see how much his wife was in pain.
“What about the removal of the uterus, Doctor?” Ask Pamungkas
to Sita who was still there.
“What have you discussed with Binar?”
“He won't want to, Doc. I know how big he is
want to get pregnant.”
“Please discuss with Binar, Doctor Pam. Subsequent to
that, I can just make a decision.”
Over and over again breathing. Feel his heart
which is being destroyed. Even after Doctor Sita's departure, her tears were
melted without excuse.
“Mas?” Said Binar lirih. He just woke up.
She immediately wiped her tears. But Binar saw it all.
“You're awake? Still sore?” Ask Pamungkas. Both eyebrows
crinkling indicates that he is very worried.
Binar nodded. “Sorry I made you sad.”
“I'm not strong, Bin. I can't see you in pain like that
earlier. I swear I'm not strong.” Back to shed tears. It
bring himself closer and drown his face in the chest of Binar.
“But I need strength from you, Mas.”
“Let's let go of your womb. What matters is that you can
healed.”
“But later I can't get pregnant. I want to get pregnant, Mom. I
want to give birth to a normal woman's kayak out there. I want to be perfect as
a woman.”
“Who said perfection can be achieved by giving birth.
To me, you are more than perfect, Bin. You don't have to give birth to be
perfect. We have Chan. Kan Chan is our son, Bin.”
“But Mas...”.
“Sayang. I'm fine if I can't have the same child
ye. The important thing is that you heal, you can be healthy again. Pliss, Bin.” This time
I beg very much. He stared at the netra Binar for
submitting requests.
Binar closed her eyes to try to understand her husband. It
trying to explain if it is the path of his healing. Despite
his heart hurts so much. But she felt more pain when she saw her husband
shed tears for him.
A man's tears are a form of sincerity
his feelings. I really love Binar. And he doesn't want to
lost that woman.
Giving up the womb of Binar to be lifted is indeed
it was a difficult choice, but it was a path of effort for Binar's recovery. If
there was another option, he also did not want to choose that. But he better not
having a child with Binar rather than having to see Binar in pain and
even to the point of losing him.
“Assalamu’alaikum.” Ted heard Rukayah's voice from behind the door.
and immediately wipe away their tears.
Rukayah along with the Shuhada Ustads and Chan went inside
chamber. Chan immediately ran over to his mother who was sitting on the bed.
“Mama!!” Strangled the child . It immediately slid in
the mother's embrace.
Binar clenched Chan's body strongly. Spill everything
his longing for his son. He was trying not to show
his grief in front of Chan.
“Uuuh, Mama's son. Mama kangen tau.” seloroh twinkle while
keep smelling his son's cheek.
“How are you doing, Nduk?” Tanya Ustadz Syuhada
daughter's bed.
“Alhamdulilah, Yah.” Answer Binar.
He took a seat for his two parents-in-law.
Then he asked Chan to come out. He knew that Binar wanted to talk
with his parents.
“Chan, let's buy food outside.” Take Pamungkas again.
At first Chan did not. But after getting an appeal from
Finally with the lure will be bought toys, finally Chan want also in
gendong by Pamungkas.
Binar could only look at the backs of Pamungkas and Chan
it disappeared from behind the door.
He lowered his face deep. And finally can't either
to endure his sadness. Slowly her tears began to fall. And even more
torrential.
“Bukk..... Hu,, hu, hu,,” Binar can no longer hold back
her crying.
Rukayah immediately hugged her daughter's body. Shoveling shoulders
A light to calm him. He himself was also feeling broken
watching the trials and trials that approached his daughter seloah reluctant to
stop over.
“Sabar, Nduk.” Ustadz Syuhada also rubbed the back of Binar.
His heart also hurt to see the cries of Binar that sounded so bitterly slashing
hearts.
To both his parents, Binar was able to spill everything
his sadness and fear without having to feel burdened. He continued to wail without
stoppage. Even his parents were crying.
It feels so bad.
“Why, Dad, why didn't this ordeal stop coming? What
The less cautious sparkle? Is God jealous because Binar has a love that
another for husband Binar?”
“Bin, Istighfar Nduk's. Don't be so prejudiced. The pain is
one of the sins. I'm willing to face it, Nduk. Show me God if
you are strong. Make God proud until he raises your faith.”
Ustadz Shuhada tried to calm his daughter. Even though his own heart feels
seprti on iris.
“But I am sure God loves you this trial, because God loves you
same with you, Nduk. Patience.... May God love the way of healing for you.”
The bar could never stop his sadness in the arms
the mother. There he even cried so much that he bothered and
breath's choked.
Long time ago, Binar shed his sorrow. It seems like no
wanted to let go of his embrace. He wanted to take refuge in his mother and ask
all the power of his mother.
Honestly, the current fear of Binar can't even
expressed in words. Slowly the despair came to his mind.
Trying to take over all his power. Trying to beat the optimism
about the recovery from the illness he was suffering from. Destroying the whole
his confidence just like that. So that leaves the sadness, fear, and,
and so great despair.
The light needs strength. And that can only be him
get from her family and people who love her sincerely.
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