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The ultimate feeling is really happy. He always took the time to glance at Chan who was busy with his toy motorcycle. The boy made the dashboard as his track. Making the ultimate laugh many times made.
“Chan want to phone Mama, no?” Tawar Pamungkas's.
“Bby.” Enthusiastic answer.
After all, Pamungkas had not had time to tell Binar that he was on his way home to his parents. Because yesterday they had agreed that he would pick Chan up from school.
When the car stopped at a red light, Pamungkas pulled out his phone and contacted Binar. First dingan not connected. It was only on the second ring, that Binar lifted him up.
The phone is in Chan's hand. He gave it to the boy.
“Chan?” Ask Binar over a video call. “This hape who, dear?”
“Hape Papa.” Answer Chan. “Mama where?”
“Mama again lunch break. Would you like to go to Grandma's house with Grandpa?”
“Iya.”
“Do not be naughty yes. Fine there.” Binar Message.
“Okee..”
“Where is it?”
Chan turned the camera phone to Pamungkas who was focusing on driving. “Do not worry. I'll take care of him.” Pamungkas.
“I'm not worried about Chan, mas. I'm more worried about you. Chan likes to be uncomfortable when sleeping in a new place. Usually he likes to cry suddenly and ask to go home. Fear of ngerepotin aja.” Clear Binar.
His face turned all red. Hearing Binar worry about her made her heart flower.
“It is impossible. Chan is a pinter's son. Maybe he was crying. He is comfortable with me.” Speak with confidence. As if convincing Binar that it would not happen.
“Yaudah, later if there is any phone call me yes, Mas.” Binar Message.
“Quiet aja. Nothing will happen. You relax aja.”
Binar just smiled hearing a very convincing answer from Pamungkas.
“Chan promise don't be naughty, yes. The important thing is to not forget.”
“Iya, Mama darling.”
Chan closed the video link by peeping the phone screen for his mother. Makes the whole person just chuckle.
After closing the phone, Chan gave the phone to Pamungkas again.
“Chan very dear yes same Mama?”
“Iya, dong. Chan loves Mama, Kakung, and Uty.”
“Then Papa?”
“Eemmmmm...” Chan thought for a long time. He did not answer it directly. He only looked at the leader who was waiting for his answer.
“Why?”
“Testing. The problem is that Papa does not live with Chan, same Mama.”
The answer that immediately ignited a smile on his lips. “So Chan would not stay with Papa and Mama?” Finally still reluctant to end the small talk. It was a small talk that made her heart flower.
“Mau!” Chan replied directly.
“Totally?”
“Iya. Because Papa is a good man. I bought Chan toys, buyin satay, picked up at school. Mama must be seneng if stay with Papa.”
For some reason, Chan's speech made his heart glee instead of braids. He kept smiling broadly at the thought of him, Binar, and Chan, living together as a family.
“Papa why smile for yourself?” Tanya Chan looked at the Endungkas strangely.
“Against.” Answer's relaxed.
“Wiiihhh... Cool kid Papa.” He said while rubbing Chan's head.
“Chan isn't Papa's son.” Chan. He kept his head away from his hands and then busy back with his toys.
That sentence made the leader flinch. He knew it would definitely take some time for him to tell Chan the truth. After all, the child does not necessarily understand what he will explain later. It would not be easy for Chan to take his presence for granted. He did not want to make Chan Confused by his status as Chan's biological father.
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Ubay held his hands while staring at Binar who was making a video call to Chan. His gaze showed that he was strengthening his heart at this moment. Again, he must be defeated by the leader.
When Binar was done, he hurriedly spooned the chicken noodles into his mouth. Avoiding meeting the eyes with the Bar.
“Sorry yes, Mas.” Binar said because he felt he was ignoring the man in front of him.
“Chan have gone the same Pam?” Ask Ubay.
“Iya, Mas.”
“Ooo..”
Binar could read the situation that Ubay was feeling uncomfortable with the situation. He knows that his relationship with Pamungkas is not good.
“Why fight with Mas Pam, Mas?” Baron asked carefully.
“Yes because he hurt you.” Ubay answered it straightforwardly.
“So I root the problem here.”
“Not what I mean, Bin.”
“Iya, I know, Mas. Thank you so much for all your attention so far. You always stand beside me and continue to support me.”
“But I don't think I can do that anymore, Bin. I'm nyerah. I can't fight your destiny with Pam.”
The words that made Binar very surprised. “What do you mean, Mas?”
“I intend to let my feelings go to you, Bin.”
And again, Binar was late to tell Ubay his plans.
But indeed, no matter how much he forced his feelings on Ubay, the man was nothing more than an older brother to him. And now Ubay says so. I don't know what he should react to.
Binar lowered his head. He did not put the chicken in his mouth. “I'm sorry, Mas.”
“Nothing, Bin. Don't take it dizzy. I'm just ordinary.” Ubay tried to melt the atmosphere. Expel his sadness. “Partially I don't want to keep you going. After I thought about it, maybe my feelings even become a burden for you. And I don't want to burden you any further. So I'm gonna take you off. Be happy, Binar Sabitah.”
Smiles at both corners of Ubay's lips appear forced. Binar knows that. But it can not be denied also if he was relieved by Ubay's decision.
Honestly, Ubay's feelings and concern have been a burden to him. The feeling is not good because the man is always there to help him, while he himself is not able to repay the goodness of Ubayy, certainly a clumsiness.
“Thanks, Mas. Because I want to let go of that feeling. I do’akan, may God bring Mas Ubay with someone better than me.”
Ubay smiled as he looked at Binar. Then lean his back. “Aaaahhh... Relieved it. It was as if the burden on my shoulders had been lifted. Light weight once.” Seloroh Ubay while sipping his iced tea.
The meeting ended when the two had finished their meal and Binar got a new order to pick up passengers.
Ubay could only stare at the scarf of Binar that was swaying in the wind that was starting to move away from him.
“Hopefully I can really express my feelings huh, Bin. Hopefully it's not hard. Thank you for letting my feelings go to you all these years. May there be a replacement for a Binar Sabitah in my heart later.” Ubay murmured at the shadow of Binar who had begun to advance his motorcycle.
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