Missing And Self-Esteem

Please get Cindy

"Cindy" cried Dita as she cried after just entering Cindy's room which was still lying weak there

"Cindy ......." Seated and crying after receiving word from Jeffri that Cindy's parents had an accident and died

Even Mama Kanya who was there also cried "Oh my God. What am I supposed to do to atone for my son's sins?" his mind is so crowded

Cindy slowly opened her eyes. Dita was directly in front of Cindy's face without stopping crying for a second. After all, the girl had already considered Cindy's parents like her parents as well. Now Cindy is really going to live alone

"Dita" Cindy said slowly. Even her tears did not stop flowing

Cindy then remembered her parents "Where? Where're they? Papi's? Mommy?" he got up quickly and looked left and right at "Dita, where is my Mami Papi? Where's?" he shook Dita's arm

Dita was completely powerless to hold back her tears until her tears immediately spilled while hugging the body of her best friend who had just lost both her parents who she had long awaited her arrival

"Cindy ...... Papi Sama Mami already does not exist" Dita said with a so bitter cry "They have gone Cin. They're gone"

Cindy's body immediately felt squeezed to hear it. He had hoped it was all a dream for him. How could he really lose his parents? He did not even have much time with his parents as long as he sat on the Junior High School bench

"Ngga Dit's. They're not going. They won't leave me before they do" Cindy still assures herself "They haven't come home from Canada Dit. You heard yourself, didn't Mami say what yesterday? Mami's with Papi going home tomorrow. They're just coming home tomorrow. Not tonight"

Cindy rebelled and ran out of the room. He looked for the IGD room, where he had seen his parents. He slowly approached the room and opened it. But he found no one in the room. Because both of her parents have been transferred to the morgue. Arsya herself was moved to the hospital room

"Cindy" Dita was finally able to reach Cindy with Mama Kanya for so long she continued to pursue Cindy

"That ...... Where are they Dit? Ta ..... I saw them here" Cindy pointed to the bed her parents had used

Because they have no power to answer. Dita hugged her best friend's body while crying a mouthful. He was confused as to how to explain it to Cindy. That girl is really very lost

"Son" Mama Kanya held Cindy's shoulder "Now your parents are in the morgue" she said with a heavy heart

Cindy's body went straight to the floor "Cindy" cried Dita and held the girl's body "Cindy. Please don't go to the gini Cin" he was crying so much that he saw his best friend's blank stare

Mama Kanya was not stopping to cry to see the two. Especially seeing the look of Cindy's face is very alarming. Since then she told her husband to take care of her son, and he will take care of the poor girl whose parents' lives were taken by her son in the accident that night

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Cindy sat quietly staring at her parents when they arrived at her house. Dita and Jeffri faithfully accompany Cindy at that time. Even Mama Kanya was present in the house. That morning, all the neighbors came to visit Cindy's house and her family

"Cindy?" She was not ceaselessly crying. Especially when I see Cindy who is silent

Cindy did not wail. But from the look in her eyes, it seemed that the girl's soul was not being together with her body at the moment. His mind was empty and did not respond to anything or anyone. Even until the funeral was over

Guilt is increasingly emanated from the look on Mama Kanya's face. He wiped his tears and hugged Cindy's body "Im sorry Aunt Nak" he whispered and took off his embrace "Tante came home first huh? Aunty will come again" she said to Dita and Jeffri who nodded

That afternoon, all those who had come home bidding. All that remains is Bi Imah, Jeffri and also Dita. Although Cindy had repeatedly told the two to go home, but they still insisted they did not want to go home and preferred to accompany her there

"You go home" Cindy pinta with a pale face

Dita rejects "Ngga Cin. I'll stay here nemenin lo"

"Gue too. I'm not going home. I will stay here nemenin lo" Jeffri also chimed in

"As far as you guys. I want to go to the room" Cindy did not want to argue and chose to go into her room on the 2nd floor "And I want to be alone" he said again before leaving his two friends and Bi Imah there

Dita and Jeffri no longer say. The two of them just watched Cindy pass by leaving them. And also they realize, if at this time Cindy just want to be alone. Perhaps to stretch his heart over the sudden departure of both parents

Cindy leaned behind the bedroom door after locking it. Tears that were originally trying hard he could bear finally spilled. He was crying so much. Spilling all his sadness. The sudden departure of his parents still leaves a scar that is too deep in his mind

It was enough he tried to endure his loneliness all this time when his parents were going back to Canada. But he is quite happy because he can still communicate via cell phone. Or if Mami and Papinya have free time, they will come to visit their daughter who he lives in Indonesia with a domestic assistant, Bi Imah

But now? They actually left Cindy alone. And he will forever no longer be able to hear his mother's scolding if he is late to eat. Heard his Papi's reprimand if carrying a car at high speed. He will no longer be able to feel that. Given all that, Cindy was crying

"Mommy? Papi's? Why are you leaving Cindy alone? Cindy's not strong"

Cindy saw a glass on the nightstand. He wiped his tears, then approached the glass. He threw water in it at the window. Her tears spilled so hard

"Cindy wants to meet Mami with Papi" he broke the glass into the wall until the sound hit so hard

The glass was spread everywhere. Even the glass fragments did not slightly hit Cindy's hand until it was injured and scratched. But the girl did not feel the slightest pain

Downstairs. Jeffri and Dita were so surprised to hear the sound of a slamming object so loud upstairs. The two looked at each other "Cindy?" they immediately ran up the stairs and banged on Cindy's locked room

"Cindy? Open the door Cin" Dita became panicked and kept knocking on the door of the room

"Cindy? What's going on inside? Open the door" Jeffri was no less panicked than Dita

"Oh my God, Neng Cindy?" even Bi Imah was in front of Cindy's room crying

Cindy paid no heed to the screams of those outside her room "Mommy? Papi's? Please pick up Cindy? Cindy is no longer strong. Please get Cindy. Cindy please" she closed her eyes and brought some of the glass to her wrist. Slowly but surely, he scratched the glass into his hand

" Please get Cindy. Cindy please"