LIFEWEAR

DIARY THE GOLDEN FAIRY

first sheet

"rainwater spot

has long wet me

spread cold through my whole rib cage

eve intoxicates me who increasingly infiltrates the soul

I was poisoned by your love

I'm intoxicated for your attention

and now it's all gone

all destroyed

the wall blocked my view

you who have been with her bury my love

my lotus is I'm I'm sorry you're happy"

Sheet to two

"I've been through the day

without you and without your shadow

not that I ran

but I hope to find destiny

because your shadow is so

never missed in my second

all because I love you

and love you so much"

Sheet to three

"May I ask

about the meaning of life

of all stories

and meaningless complicated steps

Is all just a word

it is written in a lantern

never touched again

like a piece of shabby paper not replaced

life should be understood

all are unable to overcome

I fell down and had to get up again

life is this way"

Sheet to four

"It's twilight has changed the night

buried me with memories

until I felt the loneliness

the deep wounds

the quiet of kuratapi himself

breaking the pseudo-time limit

and the heart must let go

your body is no longer beside me

it hurts

I hold full wound

torn to pieces

I feel alone

I want to run

remove all these wounds

until I can

go through it all without you"

Sheet to five

"I am the one who is treating the wound

I wish no one felt it

and no one experienced it

let me and I

become a figure of focus

smiling over the wound

and laugh over the sorrow

I don't know when

let time answer"

Sheet six

"My string

calm down you're there

I will soon catch up with you

and trust me, this heart is yours

even though love has brought me to freeze

even though love has killed my race

only one of them kept me standing

your smile at the door of heaven is waving waiting for me

just calm down there

my lotus"

The goddess stopped for a moment. His mind soared deciphering the last stanza he read. "Peace there my lotus, you mean?" Guma Dewi is alone.

"Maybe all this time Rifky mas consider Kak Ningsih is gone" Dewi still membatin to mean the last sentence.

"Your love turned out so great mas, I did not expect it turned out that all this time you did not open your heart because you have buried it yourself. You're torturing yourself." Lirih the goddess then closed the book because there was no more writing.

Then he took her diary covered in gold paper. On the first page, it says the date and year. If you remember that year must be the beginning of Rifky's work. And at that time certainly Dewi still occupied class 2 bc.

First sheet

"I didn't think I'd put my heart on the wrong person despite the pain, but it was all a lesson. First love is painful. But I'm lucky to have two best friends who care and always cheer me up. Cahyo, Ningsih ah maybe they are already in a relationship . May you always be happy."

For a moment the Goddess stopped reading. His mind guessed about the story of the man who soon became her husband.

"So Ningsih was her lover mas Cahyo. Hehehe's funny too." The goddess smiled to herself as she opened the next page.

On the second page, Dewi understood that Cahyo and Ningsih had never been in a relationship. And it turns out that Ningsih put her heart into Rifky and Until the story of Rifky's relationship all written and read by the Goddess.

Finally Dewi knows the strange story in Rifky's life. About Nani and Ningsih's marriage all written in the diary.

"It's like the path of destiny. I know it's all your time that might be traumatizing you. I will take care of you. I'll try to be a good wife to you." Lirih Dewi while hugging the diary book as if the one in the hug was the owner of the diary.

Meanwhile, Rifky looks looking for something in his bag. Repeatedly in opening and researching the whole bag and it seems that he did not find the thing in his car.

"Where are you my golden elf. As I remember I put it in a hadeuh bag." Rifky's grunt is still looking for something he calls a golden fairy.

Rifky did not know that the thing he was looking for was now in the hands of the Goddess. Enjoyed and read by the Goddess.

"Hadeuh, I think I put the bag in. Time is left behind." Rifky complained while scratching his own head.

Back to the Goddess. The person who was busy reading the diary called the golden repi earlier.

Sheet to the two golden elves

"Why should he choose me, and why should he consider me more than a sister. I really can't and honestly I can't. This fear of loss is always haunting."

The goddess thought for a moment. In his mind flew over the sentence written by Rifky. He began to understand, all this time Ningsih first liked Rifky.

"Indeed your charisma makes us women fascinated." The Goddess smiled to herself.

The sheet to the three golden elves.

"Today and tonight I'm trying to open my heart to her. I am ready with all the risks. Isn't pleasing her sister nice too. So today I tried to accept it. The golden elf thank you for all this time has been a place for me to complain."

The four golden fairies

"Today, everything I feared happened. I didn't expect him to trust the talk of someone he just met. And chose to go to another heart without waiting for an explanation from me. Golden elf why all this happened to me again."

The goddess tries to remember the events Rifky wrote about. And he remembered that time Ningsih had confided in him. Ningsih told me everything in nature. Ningsih made up her mind without asking the truth first. Although he had tried to remind Ningsih, but his jealousy destroyed everything.

The five golden fairies

"Golden girl, after all this time I haven't touched you, tonight I want to write down a bit of hurt feelings even though I'm happy. He's getting married, even if it's not me. I already liked him, but at a time like this he was gone from my life forever. Crushed my heart tastes.

Golden elf, let this love I keep for her which is not for me now."

No tears melted down the Goddess' cheeks. He seemed to feel what the heart of a Rifky felt like back then. When true to love but in staying away.

The six golden fairies

"Hi golden elf, today I feel better. After many days in Jogja to witness the happiness of people I love and go home with a beautiful woman but unfortunate fate. Honestly my heart was moved to help him. My hope is that the woman is happy and soon better her life.

One more thing, it looks like I've seen it but somewhere.it might just be a coincidence."

"Haaa, Rifky actually remembered and met me." Said the Goddess back smiling thinly.

The seven golden fairies

"Golden gold, tonight please help me.How shall I take a stand? I didn't think he had any taste in me. I honestly confused doing. My little heart churned when I was close to her. But this thought has always been in the ghost of the mass.always how should I take a stance. Do I have to let this heart go for him, or vice versa.

ahh let all go. let time be answered."

"You're so depressed, but why didn't you ever tell me? you're all self-absorbed and everyone else is just enjoying your smile wrapped in that wound." Lirih dewi closed the diary, because there was no writing after that.

"Mas, I'll wait for you to be right for me. I will never force you. My love remains for you." Said the Goddess while staring out the window.

The stars seemed to be scattering as if they were smiling at him.