LIFEWEAR

IN THE SHADOW OF THE TIDAR VALLEY

Have you ever been ignored? Your explanation is only considered a meaningless reason.

You know what it's like? It hurts! It hurts!

The pain is in the heart.

I've tried to contact Gama many times. But still no answer.

I sent a message...

You where? I'm gonna talk.

Still no reply.

I decided to go to Tuta's gas station. He must be there. I am sure and very sure.

"He's not here." Tuta explained as soon as I got there.

"Tomorrow?! Lied!" I really can't believe it.

"It's nothing in my favor. What's the problem?"

"Later to tell me. Pliss call him first.." Whiney.

"Yeee..jadian or diem! The turn has a problem coming!!"

"Yes! Let me find it for myself!" Ketus.

"It's a crank! I'm just kidding!" Tuta also grabbed my shoulder. Tuta asked me to sit in the canteen.

"Not appointed Ris. Let it go first. Later if it's already adem, it must be nongol also tuh son."

I'm getting riled up. I don't want to fail again. Moreover, this relationship is still new.

Maybe for most women, I have no self-esteem or as cheap as possible. But that's how I am when I'm a baby.

Gama.pliss....My order's sweet tea. I sit down restlessly. I checked my phone many times, hoping for a reply. Naughtiness!

"Ris.relax. He's not going anywhere. Relax..."

"You don't know the problem!"

"Who said!? That was...." Tuta reflex closed his mouth.

"Oooo...means you know where Gama is?!"

"Ti.no. Her...He told me on the phone." Clearly Tuta with a horse-dry face and restless.

"Lied!! Get him here now! or don't have to see me till the end!" My threat.

"okay.oke..Don't go berserk."

A few moments later, a red luxury car stopped in front of the cafeteria. Tuta pulled my hand towards there.

"Where are you going?" Ask wonder.

"He's waiting in that car."

Kutepis his hand grip. Tuta looked at me with a frown.

"Why isn't he the only one who came down?" Anxiety began to come to me. Egoku began to appear.

"You need to talk to both of you. Understand."

Tuta pulled me back, he quickly opened the car door and sat me there.

"Depart." He waved his hand and smiled.

We stopped at a lake precisely in front of a stall on the edge of the lake. Day starts at dusk. Light lamps from the lakeside stalls add to the charm of twilight.

We chose a place facing the lake. More precisely I follow behind Gama. For forty minutes we were silent.

"Cochere?" I try to break the silence. I can't stand this silence anymore.

"Let's calm. No noise." Said cold.

"Still angry?"

Gama looked at me with a look that I could hardly understand. There is anger, sadness and..Uh! There are all kinds of emotions there.

"My feelings for you aren't kidding."

"I knew. My feelings are like that too. That's why...."

"But you broke my trust!" Say Gama without waiting for my sentence to finish.

"Well, imagine how shocked I was when I heard that you were making a proposal! I want to give you a surprise. I mustered my courage to meet your parents. Because I'm serious about this relationship!" His face flushed withstanding the turmoil he had on his chest.

"But even I got an amazing surprise." He said with a slight turn of his face away from me.

He must be very disappointed and hurt.

"Eat him horrified me first. I know you're angry." I said softly and held her hand.

"Maybe the news you heard from the neighbors is a bit exaggerated. I admit it was a proposal. But I refuse."

"But the people said that..."

"I'm married to pay the debt?" Fast Sahutku.

Gama just nodded.

"My parents weren't that petty as Gama. The story is too long and.... I don't know where to start. For sure I won't marry the old man."

"OKAY. But explain to me the sitting up. To make everything clear."

"Later..Something will be the day?" I don't know why I wasn't ready to open up my family. There was shame coming over me.

"Why?"

"There's no excuse." I said half down. I wasn't ready to open up my life so winding for her.

Am I a hypocrite? Am I jaim?

Wasn't it!Wasn't it!

I just don't want to be pitied by him. I don't want him to be with me out of pity.

"alright. I accept it despite not being satisfied with your explanation." Gama grabbed my shoulder.

"I'm a little possessive and jealous of Ris. I hope you can handle it." She stroked my hair gently.

No answer from me. I just enjoy such a beautiful atmosphere. Comfortable and quiet leaning on someone like this. The heavy weight I carried seemed to be lifted. It was like I was recharging my energy. So that tomorrow I can fight again.

Will this man be my back?

Be my place back when I'm tired of fighting.

To be the most comfortable place in my life.

I don't know...