Kiss Me Or Kill Me (Kiss Me Or Kill Me)

Chapter 9: Your place is with me

I felt someone yelling my name, as I remembered I was asleep, was this a dream?

"Eleele.. Eleya!"

Ah, a very familiar voice, but who? I try to remember with my eyes closed.

"DIDDLE!"

I flinched and immediately opened my eyes.

"Well, you're finally up too, take a shower, I got a job for you, too,"

What task does he mean? I was forced to move my body to the bathroom. It's been almost a month my legs feel can be moved even if only a little. Honestly, Yohan took good care of my wounds even though the main culprit for my injuries was her. Slowly I moved my hands and body to reach the bathroom, actually I was still sleepy, it felt like my condition was not fully aware. Like her seeing me move slowly this makes Yohan upset. Quickly, he immediately held me rough and put me in the bathtub. He doused me with water, then put shampoo in my hair.

"Well, you can do it yourself,"

He walked away after that. I thought he'd wash me until it was over. Ah, what I was thinking, I think I'm the only one here who's perverted. While rubbing my hair, I was immersed in my own thoughts.

"Hey, aren't you done yet?"

"Aah?"

I was daydreaming earlier, was I taking too long? I haven't even finished shampooing my hair. Yohan walked over and splashed water on my head, she also thrust a toothbrush for me and I did what she told me to do without speaking anything. When he finished he threw the towel at me with the clothes.

"Dry yourself and wear it!"

I just nodded and looked at these clothes. It's like a negligee? Yohan used to give me her unused clothes, obviously it's different men's clothes to this one. Without thinking about it, I wear it.

I stumbled out of the bathroom and found Yohan waiting for me.

"Woah, look at this!" said Yohan folding both her hands and staring at my appearance.

"..."

"You're like****** village,"

"****** village?"

"I thought you fit in that outfit. You look exactly like that woman, I like her,"

Who's the woman he meant? Her mom? I don't know, all I see now is Yohan expressing a relieved face. I don't know what made her so happy at the time. With a smile, Yohan hugged my waist.

"I really miss you,"

"Eh?"

Does she consider me her mother? I hate this thing. But, his behavior like this makes me a little happy. I ventured to rub his head, while struggling on my waist I think he enjoyed it too. After a while, he took me to the kitchen. What should I do here I thought.

"Well, now your job is to cook for me,"

How can I cook, I can't even fully stand on my feet like this. I looked at him confused, while he shifted his eyes.

"Oh right, I just remembered."

Yohan seemed to remember something and then suddenly she just left. I sat in the kitchen and thought about what to do. Soon Yohan arrives with something hidden behind her body.

"I have something for you El, tara..."

Eagerly Yohan brought out something she had just hidden. And it turned out to be a walking stick for me. Yohan had been thinking about me all along. He helped me stand up and put on that stick, then back he looked at me as if he wanted to judge my current appearance.

"..."

"Now you're ready to cook us lunch,"

I just nodded my head, while I was cooking, Yohan waited at the dinner table and looked at me with a smile, but that smile was scary to me. With trembling I continued my work, until finally a cooking was finished. I served the dish to the dining table where Yohan was waiting.

"Woah, this looks good. Come on you'll have to eat with me, too,"

At first I doubted if I was allowed to eat one table with her, but since she had said so, I would not want to sit down and enjoy lunch with her. The atmosphere was very awkward, we both stayed quiet until the end of lunch.

"Ah, I'm full. Your cooking is so good, you're so fit to be my wife,"

Yohan's words made my face hot, I became embarrassed because of that statement.

"Your face is flushed again, is that all you can do?"

Ah, it's always like this. Why does my face turn red when I feel ashamed, I feel sad.

"All right, I'm going to college. As always, take care of the house,"

I nodded my head without answering, it seemed like I was getting used to living here, that's what I'm thinking right now. My routine during my stay here was to clean every room here except his room, and now my job is to cook. From now on I can walk slowly helped by this Yohan gift stick, without me having to be stumbling on the floor again. Every day when I'm alone, I always think about running away from here, but it's not possible. And now that it's different, Yohan gave me this walking stick, maybe I can run for real now. I sat a meter away from the door, this was the distance that Yohan had set at that time, and I could not pass through it. It's been about an hour I've been sitting here thinking about it, Yohan was already two hours ago going to college, and in two hours she's just coming back here.

I took a deep breath and took it out.

This is my chance, if I miss it then don't know when I'll get another chance like this. I slowly approached the door, and opened it.

My eyes glistened at dusk, the sun shining brightly and the wind blowing, I had not breathed this air of freedom for a long time. Excitedly I stepped my feet, heard the sound of birds chirping and whistling? Whose whistling? A whistling sound that resembles the tune of a Queen song. A song I often hear in this house.

My feelings are not good, I look sideways and right my guess. Yohan was sitting enjoying her cigarette while whistling. He doesn't seem to care about me, but I know it's not good for me even if I move a little. It looks like Yohan enjoyed the last suction in her cigarette and stepped on it.

"Well, in the end you want me to die, too,"

"Yo.han's."

I said his name in stammering, it felt like I was going to pee on his pants so scared of this situation.

"So how are you going to account for what you said about loving me El?"

"..."

I stood with my whole body shaking, did I have to go back inside that house, but this is my chance to escape, I've got here, I'll die if I go back inside. With a giant step I went away from Yohan, Yohan looked only at me confused. I have to go, I have to go. A little more, and at the end I came out of the courtyard of the house. I saw Yohan following me, but I worked hard to put all my strength into escaping as far away from Yohan as possible, until I stumbled and fell. I cried when Yohan tried to carry me and bring me back.

"No, let go of me! Please, please help me, whoever help me!"

I screamed with all my might, hoping someone would hear me and help me, but there was no one there, quiet, desolate like an abandoned place. I thrashed until I finally fell out of his trunk. I was stumbling on the ground with a feeling of wanting to run away that ripped my mind.

"Huh, come on, you're so troublesome, you're done yet?"

"PLEASE! PLEASE, HIKS."

I was still screaming for help, even though I knew it would be worth it. Tears flooded my whole pitiful face.

"YYYYYYY!!!" Yohan grabbed my hair rough. Not enough to get there, he slapped me in the face so hard that I fell down with fresh blood coming out of my nose. The end of my futile struggle is over, my energy is up now.

"Well, is it over? Then let's go home El, your place is with me," Yohan said, chuckling as she held me back to her house.

I who no longer have the energy just resigned in his arms, can only say goodbye to the freedom that I just wanted to meet.