Kiss Me Or Kill Me (Kiss Me Or Kill Me)

Chapter 2: Love and the Past

I got into my class, these subjects were far from my interest, but the reason I followed this maple was the man who was there. In the corner there is a handsome man. Ah no, he was very handsome, jet black hair, a nice body, and a charming smile. He's the BEM chairman here. Besides being handsome, he was also smart, he was friendly and always surrounded by many people, very inversely proportional to me. He is my only spirit on this campus, just thinking about it I am very happy.

Her name is Yohan, believe it or not, every night I think about her, but like her there are many girlfriends, the girls here always cling to her like parasites. Just thinking about it makes me want to vomit. If I were beautiful and popular, Yohan would be mine. I always fantasized about dating Yohan, walking with her, eating with her and maybe sleeping with her. Yes, it will definitely be a beautiful day in my gloomy life.

Without realizing it I became giggled after thinking about all those things. I became unfocused on the lesson because Yohan, as honest as every thought of her, it always excites me.

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"Huh..."

"The end of today is the same as ordinary days" I murmured with a sigh.

Seen at the end there the brown-haired curl waving his hand to me. I then returned the wave of his hand and ran small towards him.

"You want to go straight home? Or do you want to eat first?"

Honestly, Rui's offer to take me to eat was very tempting, I was also reluctant to go home now.

"Can we eat first?" ask me with shame. The smile on her lips expands, which makes her eyes disappear, and then rubs my head.

"Of course I can" he answered.

Soon we arrived at one of the dining areas in the city.

"Choose whatever you want" he said. I picked up the menu book, and was a bit embarrassed, even though Rui was this kind of person, I was still a bit awkward when I was with her.

"I am this one," I said after deciding. I chose macaroni and cheese after being confused thinking about what I should eat today.

"This only?" ask her with a less sure face.

"Can I add more?" I asked innocently.

This time Rui's sister widened her smile, like her she was going to laugh. "Gts,"

"..."

My face is warming, I'm so ashamed. But I'm hungry, I have to take advantage of this opportunity. And in the end, I ordered a lot of food today. I glanced at Brother Rui, his face like he was about to say something. Before he speaks, it is as good as I speak first.

"Ah Kak Rui, did your test exam to enter the police academy go well?" As much as possible I am looking for topics so that Rui cannot ask things like that. Seen he sighed.

"The test will be next week, will you pray for me?"

Yes, Rui's sister always did that if she was going to do something, and I used to smile while answering, "Of course," And that's what I'm doing right now.

"Unfortunately, we can't see each other often later" I said.

"I'll come by here often."

"..."

My face now turned flat, finally Brother Rui asked that, I don't want to discuss it, but he will always ask, he will always ask, then he would not believe me if I answered no.

"Eleeya, I'm asking you!"

At the end of it I nodded my head.

"You can't lie very well,"

"..."

"Your powder is finished, it's very clear."

I was aghast, I forgot something important enough, my face must look very sad right now. I glanced in front of me, seen Brother Rui sighing several times, he holds his head now, as if he is very depressed because of this.

"What did they do to you?"

I hesitated to tell you this, and in the end I didn't say it.

"You don't want to tell me?"

Now Rui's tone of speech was quite pressing, like she was holding back her vexation. The truth is for what he is like that, anyway that experiencing it I am not him.

"Two days ago I made a mistake and my uncle beat me up, after which I had a high fever so I couldn't go to college" I explained.

"Geez, that crazy old man really is."

Of course that's not the real story, I can't possibly say that I was raped by my uncle's son, right?

Flashback on*

I remember very well, my life was not this bad. My mom and dad loved me very much. My first friend was Rui's sister, when I was 5 years old, our family lived happily. But it wasn't long ago, because my father and mother died in an accident, and then I lived with my grandmother. Grandma was too old to take care of a child like me, and at the age of 7, my grandmother died.

Inevitably, I went with my aunt and stayed with her, but the 7-year-old I had to feel the work of an adult. Once I made a mistake and got a sentence not to eat all day, as a result I was sick for a few days and had to take care of myself.

Then, at the age of 12, for the first time I was abused by my uncle. He raped me once at that time, and my aunt didn't know that, I couldn't complain about it to my aunt because I was too scared, then from then on uncle avoided me and ignored me, maybe he regretted doing that to me, and that was my stupidest thought for as long as I lived. I always have hard days in that house, every day I am always angry with aunts and uncles, they also do not hesitate to beat me if I make a mistake.

They have a son who is 5 years older than me, he often helps treat my bruises that are used up in beating the old man. I thought he was a good man, but again I thought foolishly. Everyone in this family is mentally ill. Then, right at the age of 17, I was harassed again, this time not my uncle, but his son who abused and tortured me. My mentality was so bad back then, that's why I became what I am today. I could go to college because of money from my late parents, fortunately the crazy family still let me go to college.

Exactly two days ago I was beaten to the ground by my uncle's son, and he wiggled under me to vent his disgusting lust. I couldn't stand it anymore, that day when the whole crazy family was not home, I ran away with my savings, I rented an ordinary apartment for me to live in now.

Sometimes I want to laugh, laugh at myself so stupid, why don't I run away from the old days. Yeah, it's because I'm too scared of them. Therefore I said that I understand my friend's feelings when he was subjected to violence and sexual abuse from his stepfather, it's not just to comfort him, it's not just to comfort him, but because I've been through it.

Flashback off*