Kiss Me Or Kill Me (Kiss Me Or Kill Me)

Chapter 16: The Garden

I looked at Yohan's face devouring the food I was serving.

"What's wrong?" tanyakanya.

"Ah, there's nothing."

I was surprised when he suddenly asked, I didn't realize because I was so excited to look at his face earlier, I was so embarrassed.

"You're very good at cooking, my mom used to cook me a lot and the food was really good, too,"

"Really?"

Yohan nodded her head while wiping her lips, I think she had finished eating. I also tried to clean the dirty dishes, but because I was careless I accidentally stumbled on something and made the plate I was holding so it fell and broke all. Oh no, I made a mistake now, I turned my face slowly just to make sure of the situation, I saw Yohan's face just staring at the plate expressionlessly.

I tried to clean the broken plate, with trembling hands I took the fragments of the plate, so afraid of me, my hands were scratched by the fragments of the plate. "Aah!" I held onto my index finger, blood came out from his tip, I saw Yohan was already standing and she was coming closer, she must have been upset that I was acting recklessly. I closed my eyes for fear that he might hit me. However, what I felt was not the pain of the blow, but a warm touch on my index finger, my finger became wet and I felt my blood being sucked. I opened my eyes slowly, and I was surprised to see Yohan crouching in front of me while sucking on the wound on my index finger.

"Be careful, let me clean it up."

Am I dreaming? I'm still silent, not believing in Yohan's attitude right now. He did not scold and beat me, even what I see now Yohan is cleaning the fragments of the plate that I dropped.

"You just sit there, you'll get it again."

I regained my senses, then nodded my head. I went and sat as he told me. I just sat down and saw him clean it all up.

"It's over."

"..."

"You coming with me?"

"Come? Where's where?"

"Didn't I promise to show my mother's beloved garden?"

Oh right, I just remembered. He promised to show me the garden behind his house. Without thinking much, I nodded and stood up. I followed him from behind, it turns out that this house has some kind of side door, because unlike the door I didn't notice. Yohan opened the door, and then I went in afterwards. And sure enough, it's a garden. Very beautiful, embedded here a variety of flowers, I think his mother was very fond of flowers. This garden is also very well maintained, I think Yohan is the one who takes care of it.

"This garden is so beautiful" I said.

"Yes, I also thought like that first."

"Have you?"

Why first? Now also still beautiful, this is more like a flower garden when viewed. I also walked around, looking at what flowers were planted here. Ah he also planted fruit here, it's beautiful. My eyes lit up to see the contents of Yohan's garden, it was unexpected, people with personalities like her also like to garden like this. In the corner there is a very lush apple tree, the fruit is plentiful but not yet reddened. Shady, I tried to stand under the tree, and then, "Kyaaa!" Yohan pushed me from behind until I fell down, I felt a pain in my palm and also in the corner of my knee. I tried to stand up and clean both my hands, I glanced at him. What's wrong? His expression was very flat, there was no smile or anything, it scared me so much.

"Ah, sorry I'm sorry."

"Huh?"

Now his face is smiling again. She couldn't predict, she was so good at changing her facial expression so quickly that I didn't know her true mood.

"Did I push you too hard?"

"..." - ".I just kept quiet because I was confused as to what to answer.

"I'm just surprised that you're standing right there."

I turned my eyes towards the tree. I was a little surprised and confused, so what if I was standing there? Is it a restricted area or something. At least if it was a forbidden area, he could speak well. Hah, I want to be upset, but it's Yohan.

"What's with your expression? It's just natural, isn't it? Someone must be angry that someone else trampled on their father,"

"El, what's wrong? Why are you daydreaming? I'm daritadi speaking to you."

Yohan broke my daydream. "Ah, what's wrong?"

"I asked if you like flowers?"

"flower? Oh y-yeah, I like it."

"really?"

I nodded my head.

"My mother loved flowers, too, and I looked after and cared for this garden in her memory."

"..."

"It was just me and my mom who came here. Now that you've also come here, even Dad and the others have come, it's really nice. Don't you?"

He laughed, his face as if he were happy. Although I do not understand what he meant, I still try to smile and say his words. And instead of that, I can't stand being here, I want to go inside the house, but Yohan hasn't invited me in. The wind was blowing hard, making my hair fly in all directions, and I saw Yohan smiling at me. I looked down at me in shame.

Ah he's approaching. I kept my eyes down because I didn't dare look him in the face.

"El, do you really love me?"

"Huh?" I looked up my face and our eyes met. He surprised me with just a sudden question, and of course the answer was correct. His fingers down my hair that was messed with by the wind, his eyes glaring, and the look in his eyes could not be confirmed with words.

"That's right" I replied.

I saw him smile. "Then you don't leave me!"

"Not going to."

"Yes, that's good."

Does that make her happy? To be honest I was very happy when she was this gentle, but would it be alright if I also questioned her feelings for me? I also want to know how she feels about me, it would be painful if only I loved her instead.

"Yohan, w-do you love me too?"

"..."

Why is the response like that? He looked surprised and then silent. Did I miss questioning this to her?

"Ste, hahahaha."

Why did he laugh, I felt humiliated, I put my eyes back on him as he laughed out loud.

"My answer doesn't matter, so you don't have to question it anymore, okay El."

"Step, I want-"

"El.. I told you not to question it anymore. You're smart enough to understand that, aren't you?"

"..."

Whatisthis? My heart hurts so much, out of all the treatment he has for me, it is even the most painful. I wanted to cry but I held him back, because I knew this guy would be really upset if I cried here right now.