It is written in my Imam

Eps 27 Asking.

Rendy and Nayra were in the car. They were silent without any chatter and the rain had stopped. Maybe they don't know where to talk from.

Rania may still remember the words ustadz that made her heart touched and feel much better after listening to the lecture. He never got enlightenment from anywhere.

" O God what a man like me. Still have a chance to face you. Do I deserve to ask you, will you accept what I say whether you will listen to her," Rania inwardly worried her heart.

" Will you accept a human like me. He never thanked me and always complained. I always feel wrong with everything I get. What exactly is the matter that keeps coming to me is a rebuke so that I can get closer to you. But do I deserve forgiveness from you. Does someone like me still have that hope?" asked Raina in her heart who seemed to want to change a glimmer of her life in her feelings there was something that made her not peaceful.

" O Allah, do I deserve to say your name" his mind again with its teary eyes that may be moved when calling the name of his Lord which he did not know when he last mentioned that name.

" I want to live happily. I want to be like those who are always at peace and happy. I want to be like that. But maybe you will give me that chance. Would I feel that," his mind that was completely troubled by the anxiety of his heart.

Rania continued to grumble in her heart the inner war that was going on in her heart while Rendy was driving in focus and even they were at a red light.

Raina sees the people around her seeing children whose lives are so difficult but look calm and peaceful even with their parents who embrace each other and look happy with their shortcomings very different from himself even though it is enough even more. But never get happiness.

" They are not rich, their clothes are not beautiful, even eating them is very simple. Why are their faces smiling. Their faces were so calm. There is no burden they face. Your hands will only be extended to people like them and while I don't deserve all of that," her inner self is aware of her.

Rania continued to watch those people with her teary eyes. And there were even drops of tears that ended up falling as well.

" Where do you want to go?" asked Rendy turned her head towards Rania and Rania was still silent because there was still a war inside. And Rendy again found Rania with her tears.

" What's wrong with him. Why she cries so easily. What really happened to him," Rendy's inner self felt that Rania had a lot of problems.

" Rania?" reprimanding Rendy who did not get any response and made Rania jerk in shock and look like a dazed person.

" Ayeah, you ask what?" rania asked nervously and immediately wiped her tears.

" I said. Where are you going to take you?" ask Rendy again.

" My car is parked in the park so just take me there," replied Rania slowly.

" Alright then" said Rendy.

" Are you okay?" asked Rendy without looking at Rania and focus on driving forward and instead of answering Rania even bengong see Rendy. It seems like every word Rendy says makes a vibration in there that can't be understood.

" Am I wrong to ask," said Rendy turned to look at Rania and again Rania would be shocked.

" no. Not at all," answered Rania nervously and was seen breathing out slowly ahead.

" Hmmm, there's something I want to ask," Rania said suddenly.

" What's the matter saying?" sahut Raihan who seems to have no problem hearing what Rania wants to ask.

" Does God forgive?" rania asked, making Rendy look straight at her and they stared at each other with very deep gazes.

Rania's question knocked Rendy's heart out. If Rendy felt the woman beside her this was really lonely because it might not be close to its creator.

" Is my question wrong?" rania and Rendy asked, turning her eyes back to stare straight that she could hit people if she focused on Rania.

" Your question is not wrong and the answer is clearly God is forgiving" said Rendy who all answered the question.

" Well what kind of person would still get forgiveness?" ask Rania again.

" Don't be prejudiced against your Lord. For indeed he always gives, loves and forgives every fault of his servant and surely gives opportunity to those who confess his guilt," continued Rendy who seemed to take out her lecture and really entered into Rania's heart even Rania had to hold back her tears to not come out.

" But why do I feel so inappropriate" Rania said.

Just a short soothing words from Rendy and Rania did not ask anymore and Rendy was driving back focus.

Not long ago Rania and Rendy finally reached the place where Rania was taken by Rendy and they both got out of the car and both approached Rania's car.

" Thank you for driving me," said Rania with a gloomy face. But I can tell if he is okay. Rendy just nodded.

" Hmmm, yes already then I'm sorry first," said Rendy pampit who did not want to talk again.

" Wait!" call Rania hold Rendy's hand and make Rendy see her arm held by Rania.

" I'm sorry" said Rania who immediately released her hand. Which may not be unusual for Rendy.

" What's up?" ask Rendy.

" How can I repay your kindness?" ask Rania gently. Rendy let out a faint smile.

" You don't need to think of a way to repay my kindness. Because I feel like I'm not doing anything" said Rendy.

" Silphah! what about the clothes you gave me. How do I return it" said Rania.

" Tania is my sister, and Zahra is bigger than you. There is no point in you returning it. That's for you," said Rendy.

" Oh, so it seems," said Rania who became very nervous in front of Rendy.

" Yes already. Then I come back first," said Rendy back saying goodbye.

Rania nodded and Rendy immediately left. Rania is still glued to see the departure of Rendy. Rania seemed to be slowly breathing forward.

" *Why he's so good, why does Rendy like never to zass people. He knows how my family is. But still he's very kind and looks so caring,"

" His words are so soft and so easy to digest," Rania's inner self who had never met before with someone like Rendy who gave her comfort*.

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After finishing all her work today more precisely Rania did nothing and was busy confused with what happened today. Pretty much what he got when only 1 day.

But Rania feels like real life. Rania gets a lot of comfort from someone she just met. He felt a comfort he could not speak of.

Rania stepped into her house with her face that could be said not to be as poor as the first time she had come out of her house earlier.

" danie!" reprimand Faridah who was in the living room and immediately approached Rania.

" Have you gone home, son? ask Faridah.

" Yes mah" answered Rania, "what is it?" rania asked astonished to see the face of Rania who saw her mother so happy and even Farida hugged Rania which made Rania surprised.

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