It is written in my Imam

Episode 205 Try sincerely.

Rania was so waiting for Rendy's reply that she looked at him deeply. Rendy's face was so moody and even so sad, the eyes were pooled which made Rania's premonition even more uneasy.

" Dear did something happen?" asked Rania again who kept waiting for that answer. Rendy nodded her eyes and hugged Rania tightly which made Rania wonder at the meaning of her husband's embrace. Rendy's trembling body made Rania full of confusion.

" What's going on?" rania asked who took off the hug and looked at her husband.

" God is testing us. You can definitely get through all this. Believe me dear you can pass it," said Rendy by rubbing Rania's cheek.

" Went past what?" asked Rania with a hoarse voice.

" Dear, you have uterine cancer" said Rendy who could not lie to Rania. Rania's tears drip along with Rendy's tears falling back. Hearing the illness present in her body made Rania shock and felt it was impossible.

" Hiks, hiks, hisk," The sobs rang out from Rania which made Rendy hug her tightly.

" Why can? you're not lying. Why can everything happen like this? it's not like the doctor said I'm okay. You also said everything was fine. Then why is it suddenly like this?" rania asked in a hoarse voice, Rendy was unable to answer anything and just hugged his wife tightly.

" Rendy this must be a mistake no, this must be a mistake," Rania must not have been easy to accept that fact. Rendy understands very well and just hugs Rania to give Rania strength.

" Am I going to get well?" rania asked in the embrace who was still hoping, if she was just a nightmare.

" You can heal, baby, you'll get well, I'll stay by your side. I will accompany you" said Rendy who continues to encourage his wife.

Rania kept crying in that embrace. Rendy let him cry. Rania indeed had to spill her anger with the disease she suffered. God gave them the greatest test of their marriage, and only strength will make them face all the greatest trials.

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After feeling calm, Rania who was on the bed with lying the same as Rendy who was also lying next to him with his wife holding her arms. Rendy's hand rubbed the head of Rania. Rania is no longer hysterical. But the tears flowed little by little.

" You forgot what you used to say to me. When we were on the ship," said Rendy.

" What?" asked Rania with a hoarse voice.

" You asked me that moment. If we have children. Do you think my love will be divided with our child and I say. We have children whose affection will not be divided at all. Rania I don't want to make our child jealous if all my love is only for you, so I choose for the next few years both of us continue" said Rendy. Tears of Rania dripping hearing that.

Rania understood Rendy's intentions. Rendy just gave him the strength to not mind others and previously Rendy had also said if the fetus in the womb Rania should be lifted.

" I don't want to make you suffer, feel any pain. What else to lose you. If only having offspring only torments you. Better not Rania. If Allah wills, the easiest way is to entrust a child. Without torturing you," said Rendy who continues to strengthen Rania. Rania simply continued to shed tears by hugging her husband tightly.

" Your womb is not lifted up by Rania and nothing is impossible. But for when I'm your husband who didn't give you permission to conceive before you recover. I don't want to see you tormented" Rendy said.

" It's not that a husband's desire is just the presence of children in their lives. If I delay getting pregnant. It's the same way I didn't consummate our marriage" Rania said.

" Our marriage is perfect and the child is just a daycare. If this happens it means that God has not trusted us yet" said Rendy who continues to make Rania understand.

" Rania I love you so much. There are and are no descendants that you have given me. I will not change my love for you. Don't be afraid of something you don't need to think about. I will not replace your position with someone else's. And if I want a child it's just a child in my wife's womb. That you're a nobody. So do not think that far," said Rendy who knows what Rania is afraid of.

" Dear you understand what I mean?"ask Rendy. Rania nodded and increasingly hugged Rendy tightly. Rendy kissed Rania's head.

" We will both fight for your healing. I will be by your side with you at all times. We'll keep going like this. Just the two without sharing our love for anyone" said Rendy. Rania just nodded.

" O God, my wife is strong to face all this. Give him to Ikhlasan to receive everything. Give him healing and take his pain. Servant doesn't want her to suffer, "the inner Rendy who kissed Rania several times on the head.

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After talking to Rania softly, who persuaded Rania that made Rania understand and understand. Finally Rania agreed to the removal of the fetus they had dreamed of. Rendy and Rania try to be sincere in the exam given to the small family.

Accompanied the mother to see Doctor Anggi to sign the file for the appointment of the fetus. It was very hard for Rendy to sign the paper in front of him.

Ratih who was sitting next to Rendy rubbed Rendy's shoulder to give strength to his son who took the heavy decision.

" Bismilah son, God willing everything will be fine. Come on boy," said Ratih with teary eyes that tried to convince Rendy.

" Please Doctor Rendy" said Doctor Anggi. Rendy nodded.

" Will nothing happen to Rania after this?" ask Rendy who wants to make sure the condition of his wife.

" We use operating methods and not normal spending. It does not affect his health. The pain will also not be severe" replied the doctor.

" I'm sorry, son. I don't want you to be born into this world. Your mother and I are waiting for your presence. But God has not trusted us your parents to raise you. Forgive papa son. You'll still be our first child" Rendy's inner self signed the letter of approval.

" O God, give my son and my son-in-law the strength to pass all these trials. I am sure there will be the most beautiful wisdom implied in it," the inner Ratih who shed his tears.

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