It is written in my Imam

Episode 219 Feeling guilty.

Rendy looked towards Rania who remained in her position. Rendy took a deep breath and threw it away slowly then directly hugged Rania tightly.

" I hurt your feelings, Rania. Trust me, Rania, I did it for you. Never feel less like a wife. You are perfect for me, Rania. You are so perfect Rania in my eyes" said Rendy with a hoarse voice that hugged Rania tightly.

Reading the letter from Rania makes Rendy feel guilty about what happened how not what she did actually offended Rania and made Rania feel imperfect which seemed useless as a wife.

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The sound of chicken kokokan is typical at dawn where Rania and Rendy are performing congregational Fajr prayers as usual.

Rendy and Rania both said their regards and both rubbed their faces with their hands. After praying as usual and saying Amen.

Rendy turned around and Rania immediately kissed the back of her husband's hand and Rendy as usual kissed his forehead and the faces of his wife.

After all that looks Rania who wants to stand up. But Rendy held her hand which held her back from going anywhere.

" We'll talk for a minute" said Rendy, who had already crossed her legs. Rania nodded and went nowhere.

" I've read your letter" said Rendy. Rania's face looks sad to hear it.

" I'm sorry if we didn't talk about this and I acted without telling you that ended up making you feel unsettled, questionable, disappointed, sad and when you knew what was going on. Why don't I do that. You feel yourself useless feeling guilty and so on" said Rendy softly speaking to Rania. Rania just kept quiet with her eyes that could not be separated staring at the face of her husband who felt guilty.

" Rania I've told you a few times. I love you and the greater love is not due to sexual intercourse alone. But we are growing older and more understanding. If my satisfaction only torments you. I can't do it" said Rendy, who spoke seriously. Very gentle for his wife to understand.

" But this is not about hurting or not. Sick or not. I also do not want to do my duty as a wife" said Rania who was holding back tears.

" Rendy I know you did it just for me. So that I don't get pregnant and what I'm afraid of doesn't happen. Then until when it's all gonna be like that. Will be healed in this month. What if a year, 2 years, even a few years, and I'm gone. Have you not thought of so many sins that I could not serve her husband. She can give children and not even serve her husband. I clearly feel like a useless woman. My feelings every day will get more turbulent. Why continue the marriage. If I'm your wife, you can't do anything" said Rania, who can't control herself.

" danie!" lirih Rendy who was so shocked listened to the unsuitable words coming out of Rania's mouth. Rania who felt she was talkative went straight to turn her body and cry by covering her face with her 2 hands.

Rendy took a deep breath and threw it slowly forward and hugged Rania from behind to give Rania some calm.

" What are you talking about Rania," Rendy said softly. Rania turned her body and hugged Rendy tightly with a cry of excitement.

" I'm sorry. I can't control myself. I'm sorry" said Rania, who felt guilty.

" I was wrong. I made you like this. I was wrong, Rania. I shouldn't make you feel less. We will find a solution to this problem" said Rendy who rubbed Rania's hair.

He is a husband to blame. Because it makes his wife's feelings become shaky like that, to the extent that Rania said words that should not need to be said. Rendy continues to hug his wife to give his wife a sigh to understand what happened do not think only with emotions.

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Rania and Rendy see Doctor Anggi Doctor Rania. Doctor Anggi seemed serious about talking to Rania or Rendy as if making Rania understand. Indeed, Rania should be brought in consultation so that her emotions are reduced and better understand what Rendy did to her.

Many things are done by the couple all day to find positive problems in their relationship, read many books about the condition of Rania and also other tranquilizing Islamic books to open their minds and others they do.

After doing all that, they went home at night until home.

" Do you feel calmer?" ask Rendy. Rania nodded and immediately hugged Rendy.

" I'm sorry for what I said this morning. Sorry," said Rania who still remembers the words that are not worth saying.

" I'm sorry, I don't understand anything and understand only one side. So I was wrong. I must apologize" Rendy said, gently kissing Rania's head. Rania raised her head and kissed her husband's cheek.

" We go in, I want to eat" said Rania. Rendy nodded smilingly and both got out of the car. But they stopped their steps when they saw there was a car in front parked in front of them.

" Whose car is this?" ask Rania wonder.

" I don't know, baby. Are there any guests?" ask Rendy wonder.

" Hmmm, yes it is possible" said Rania.

" Yes, let's go in" said Rendy, who invited his wife in. Nia had not entered suddenly out of the house.

" Rendy's sister Rania is home?" ask Nia. Rendy and Rania both nodded.

" Where are you going?" ask Rania.

" Hmmm, want to go to the front store. I want to buy some college tools," replied Nia.

" So apparently," said Rania.

" Oh yes, are there any guests in the house?" ask Rendy.

" Oh yeah. The family of her future husband Anisa's sister again silaturahmi," replied Nia. Rendy and Rania heard him startled.

" Prospective husband," her 2nd cry together. Nia nodded.

" Kaka was shocked, just as I was shocked earlier. I also can't believe Anisa's sister is getting married" Nia said. Rendy and Rania were shocked to hear that.

" Yes Nia has left first yes" said Nia. Rendy and Rania just nodded.

" Let's love, let's go in" asked Rendy. Rania nodded her head.

Seriate