Is I In Your Heart

3.The Heart is Not Easy to Direct (Khaira N.S)

After finishing the Khaira prayer and Silvia decided to have lunch they chose to eat at their favorite place to eat. A minimalist cafe is designed with full of creations so that it displays warmth and comfort for its visitors. Khaira and Silvia chose to sit by a wall made of glass so that they could see the traffic of the streets and passers-by.After sitting a short time later a servant came to them

" What do you want to order, brother??" asked the waiter was friendly.khaira and Silvia who was staring at the street turned her eyes to the waiter

" What do you want to order ra?? " ask Silvia to khaira

" Cappucino Cincau and French fries" the word khaira mentions his order

" I Ice chocolate 1 equals french fries too" said silvia mentioning his order while smiling towards the waiter

" It's good then wait a minute we will deliver it" The waiter smiled at khaira and Silvia and went to take their order.

Silvia looked at the khaira who was again looking at the street, she wanted to ask the khaira something hesitantly she began to open her voice

" Khaira "call for Silvia

" Hmmm" answered the short khaira without taking his eyes off the street

" You really don't want to try to open your heart to others ?" silvia asked carefully

Khaira breathed out harshly at the question Silvia asked

" Why are you still discussing this matter? " tanya khaira returned without answering a question from Silvia

khaira turned her eyes towards silvia

" I just don't want you to be disappointed later when all those expectations don't materialize I know you're going to recapitulate that, but all of that will definitely hurt you won't be that easy you can accept when you see him with someone else"

silvia said while looking at Khaira

Khaira just silently heard what Silvia said, everything his best friend said was true no matter how she was still an ordinary woman who would feel sick and disappointed when seeing loved ones with others.

Khaira breathed a rough breath while lowering her head down and trying to relieve the pain she felt when imagining everything her friend said.

Just imagining it has been this painful what else if this reality will definitely be more painful muttered khaira in the heart

" why don't you try to forget it "ask Silvia again after a moment of silence

" I've tried to forget it even often I do but the feeling never goes away even I have had time to forget it when for the first time we separated after graduating from elementary school.

I really didn't expect him to come to our study so I looked back at his face the feeling that started to disappear was back when I saw the look in his eyes " khaira replied still in a downcast state then he turned his eyes towards the streets trying to brush off the pain as well as longing for people who in the future so far.

For a moment everything was silent without any conversation between them only the sound of vehicles and people in the cafe while khaira and Silvia chose to be quiet.

Silvia stared fixedly at the face of her best friend who was directing his gaze towards the street shortly after a waiter came to them delivering the food they had ordered.

The waiter arranged the food on the table

" Congratulations Enjoy " said the waiter after he finished putting food on the table.

Silvia turned her gaze towards the servant and thanked him and the servant left.

Silvia directed her gaze towards the khaira who was still focused on looking towards the street

" Let's eat Ra "take silvia, khaira turned her eyes towards Silvia and was surprised when she saw the food was neatly arranged on the table

" When did this come ? " take khaira to Silvia

" Us from yesterday " replied Silvia origin and then drank the drink that was in her message

" hehehe "khaira was just a crybaby hearing the answer from her friend

" Emang you why did you just look at the streets until you realize the food has come, daydream?? " ask Silvia

" hehehe ngak just pondered again " replied khaira with a crybaby

" it's the same thing" said silvia

" Are you daydreaming what?? " ask Silvia again

" Hemmm no "answer khaira then drank his drink and ate a piece of french fries

" Where may there be no papa from earlier you dream on until the food comes ngak realized" said Silvia

" Truly vi ngac there is nothing "answer khaira again then go back to eating his food

" Just thinking about that? " ask Silvia

" have no need to be discussed "a short answer as if reluctant to answer the question of his friend

" If there is anything to talk about, speak, I am ready to hear it rather than you yourself" said Silvia trying to convince khaira to express what he felt

" There's nothing I want to talk about, ' he said, saying he was back drinking his cappuccino.

" Come Ra talk I will listen to whatever you say and will try to give good advice if you really need advice from me" said Silvia trying to force khaira to open her voice.

Nun khaira just kept quiet and was busy enjoying her food not responding to what silvia said

" yes it is If you do not want to talk I do not matter" said Silvia after a moment of silence looking at her friend who did not respond to her words. Silvia returned to eating

" If I can choose I prefer to forget it because this feeling really makes me tormented" said khaira after a long silence

Silvia turned her gaze towards Khaira and smiled when she heard her best friend speak

Khaira looked at Silvia for a moment and then turned her eyes back towards the street

" If I can I want to throw this feeling as far away as possible but I'm powerless, I never blame this feeling present in my heart because love is true and it comes from God just how we respond to it " said khaira he stopped his speech for a moment exhaling his breath as if he wanted to keep himself calm and did not want the clear details to fall down his cheeks because of the pain he felt

Silvia clasped her hand as if giving strength to her khaira turned towards Silvia and smiled as if saying I was okay

" I prefer to be alone and wait for him here without expressing my feelings to him because I'm afraid that when I express it there will be a different sense of what else if he doesn't love me he'll definitely move away " said khaira for a moment he fell silent while staring fixedly at Silvia who was still holding his hand

" I chose myself and did not try to find a lover also have a reason and of course you must know what my reason is because I also told you when we were in the park earlier " khaira continued, Silvia only nodded her head to hear the words of her best friend

" What if someone comes to you someday and wants to have a serious relationship with you, will you stay faithful waiting for him? " Silvia opened her voice after a long silence hearing khaira express what she felt.

"I will try to open my heart if the intention of the person is good and depends on the person" Khaira replied

" you mean? " ask Silvia again he did not understand what was meant because it was impossible for his friend to look at the physical and material that someone has?

Khaira smiled as Silvia asked like that she knew what her best friend was thinking.

" I don't look at the physical or the material that he has "Speech khaira Silvia release his breath was relieved it turns out what he thought was wrong where maybe his friend saw someone in terms of physical and material thought then he smiled towards khaira

" I saw in terms of his religion how he loved his creator if he could love God with all his heart of course he knew where he would put me in his heart if he loved me for God and his faith strong of course he can lead me to the right path our life will certainly be happy even in simplicity " He looked at Silvia and smiled his eyes glazed over if what he said had really happened.

Silvia also smiles at the words khaira what is said is true physical and property is not all useless if we have a rich husband and have a lot of property if we are not happy.

" But I also want a husband who has at least enough work for our daily lives" Khaira said

" yes you are right even if you are not handsome and not rich at least he has a job to be able to support us properly" Silvia said confirming the khaira speech

" Aish, however, I want to have a handsome husband to improve the offspring yes even though not handsome-looking very but at least his face is standard " the khaira and this time the khaira speech caused laughter among them

" ah, you can say "Silvia said while hitting khaira's arm slowly because she was furious to hear his words just now, this friend is always able to change the atmosphere that was sad again as before full of laughter.

" But I heard that Rizwan is now in the big city to continue his studies there, do you know? " ask Silvia

" yes I know that he went to college there even I already know when we just graduated school " replied khaira

" do you know where? " ask Silvia

" I know from their friends that Rizwan went to college there" replied khaira again

" keep your opinion on how" asked Silvia again

" yes no how - how, good if he wants to go to college there that means he wants to learn to be a successful person education is planned better " he said he felt strange about his best friend's question

" that's not what I meant by "silvia again

" what do you mean to ask that? " ask khaira

Silvia let go of her hand that held the khaira's hand and directed her gaze towards the street

" I mean do you still wait for him here while you don't know how he's there who knows he's there already has a lover, there are a lot of pretty girls " silvia asked, his gaze still pointing towards the street

" Hemm was again "silvia said the same thing always asked her friend until she was tired of hearing it then she returned to eating her food

because Silvia did not get an answer, she turned back to Khaira

" Khaira "call for silvia

" Hmmm" he murmured he was reluctant to answer the same question posed by silvia

" How?? " ask Silvia again for not getting a response from khaira

" How is what? " tanya khaira relaxed from her tone can be read if she is reluctant to answer Silvia's question

Silvia snorted annoyedly at the response from the khaira

" about what I asked how if it turns out Rizwan already has a lover there what you will do "ask Silvia furiously

" ah ah you from earlier it was mulu I will have given the answer time in the garden to ask again "said khaira no less upset while glaring at Silvia

While Silvia just silently got a response from khaira

" we finish the food we go home" said Khaira

" yes yes" said Silvia he continued eating with a sullen face khaira no matter with Silvia he continued to eat his food until it was finished

after they finished eating and paying for their food, they decided to go home

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