Is I In Your Heart

Early Suffering

***I left and I was my first love for you but how much you betrayed me just for her...

And broke my heart when you no longer believed me..***

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It has been two months since Alfi's return to the city, he has never contacted khaira even once.if khaira who contacted Alfi, he said, Alfi always refused his calls and did not answer him despite having repeatedly contacted him.

Like this morning khaira had more than five times contacted Alfi but Alfi never answered the phone from him.

" ut. tut... "

again the voice of the operator he heard, khaira tried to contact Alfi again and this time missed.

" Tutt's. tut... "

" yes what's up? " alfi's voice sounded over there.

" big brother why is it so hard to call? "ask khaira without further ado.

" get busy again " replied Alfi flatly.

" that busy session to answer my phone just can't " said khaira.

" i do a lot of work anyway why do you call me? " ask Alfi again still in a flat voice.

" is it wrong for a wife to call her husband? " khaira answered Alfi's question by asking him back.

" i've said that I don't need to be as attentive as me" said Alfi with a loud voice. haven't had time to speak heard the voice of a woman across there.

" it's a shame you call the same who really long call "

" lef. tut.... "

Alfi immediately turned off his phone when he heard the woman calling his name.khaira away from his HP when he heard the sound of the phone connection interrupted.

" i was like hearing a woman's voice calling Alfi's name with a call of love, who is that woman? " tanya khaira in heart.

Khaira tries to contact Alfi again his first call is rejected by Alfi and when he tries to contact Alfi again his HP instead dies.

khaira becomes more agitated he worries about what Alfi has been doing so far that he is very difficult to contact.khaira tries to send a message to Alfi hoping he will read it.

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" please pick me up tomorrow, mama asks me to go back there "

this morning Alfi's mother called khaira asking him to return to the city immediately.

no reply to the message sent khaira even in react was not by alfi, khaira tried to put his mind lying on the bed until he fell asleep .

" Tingg's.. "

incoming message voice

khaira woke up when she heard HP sound, she smiled when she saw a message coming from alfi.

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" get ready tomorrow I'll pick you up at 10 in the morning "

only that the message that Alfi sent was very short but he was quite happy because Alfi would pick him up tomorrow morning.

khaira immediately tidied up her belongings to be brought there. When khaira was cleaning her stuff, there was a knock on the door from outside.

" nl. tok.. "

the sound of knocking on the door from outside made khaira turn to him.

" just enter the lock" said khaira from the inside, khaira of course know if it's his mama because they only live alone at home, if khaira's father is still in the field.

that is the work of Father khaira a farmer who works rice fields for daily food.There is a sense of sadness in the heart of khaira when he saw his father who is not young anymore still have to work for daily life.

early khaira wanted to work to help his father meet the needs of the family, but because the khaira was married at this time he had to get permission first from Alfi.

" your deck again why are you cleaning up? " ask mama khaira as she has opened the room door and sees khaira putting her clothes in the suitcase.

" tomorrow bang Alfi invite khaira to return to the city of ma" said khaira while staring at a glance towards khaira and then return to continue his activities.

" tomorrow? why don't you tell me first with mom if you want to go to town tomorrow? " ask mama khaira again now he steps closer to khaira.

" I'm sorry ma ma was mama Alfi call he asked khaira to go back there tomorrow" said khaira now he has finished making all his preparations.

" well if you go home there mama will be alone dong" said mama sad.

khaira who saw her mama sadly approached her and hugged her mama.

" khaira khaira promise will often - often come back here" said khaira in his mama's arms.

" the deck now that you have married your mother and father there is no right for us to forbid you to come with your husband, because now you are his responsibility. mama just told you to take care of yourself there, be nice to anyone " said mama khaira.

khaira cried in her real mama's arms she also felt heavy if she had to leave her father and mama, her, but what power now she has become the wife of people and it has become her obligation to come wherever her husband goes.

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<~ Next Morning ~>

khaira was ready to join her husband to the city just to wait for the man to come pick her up.

at 10:15 am Alfi arrived at the khaira house, after talking long enough late they decided to immediately start his journey to the city.

" ma, father khaira go first yes, take care of health insya Allah every month khaira will definitely come back here to visit mommy same father " said khaira to both parents.

" yes be careful in the street you also take care of your health and obey whatever your husband says " said father khaira to khaira who answered with a nod of his head.

after saying goodbye to both khaira parents they also began their journey passed away khaira birthplace.

in the journey of khaira just silent he still thinks about the state of his parents who are now only two.

the sound of the adhan rumbles makes Alfi and khaira stop their journey for a moment to perform the prayer of the Zuhr. after finishing their prayers again continue their journey until they arrive at the house of Alfi at 14:40.

upon arrival there he was greeted warmly by mama Alfi who had been waiting for their arrival. after talking for a while khaira passed to his room to rest.

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After the magrib prayer and evening meal the khaira returned to their rooms upon arrival in Alfi's room and the khaira conversed lightly.

" if for example, I want to work brother, my permission does not make me "khaira speech makes alfi raise his eyebrows.

" for what do you work is not enough monthly money that I give you? " ask Alfi while looking towards khaira.

Alfi always gives a living in the form of material to khaira every month, but not with an inner living, his heart seems frozen to give an inner living to khaira even though there is only a little affection for khaira.

" it's not that I just want to help mom and dad meet the needs of the family" said khaira he also looked at Alfi who was now staring at him.

" just love the monthly money that I give to you, later I will increase the amount again if you want " said Alfi now he turned his gaze to the HP screen that had been in his grasp since.

" no need, I want to give money to my mother and father from my own efforts" said khaira again, he rose from his seat turned towards the suitcase containing his clothes, he said, then move them one by one into the closet.

" yes it's up to you, if indeed you want to work I will not forbid you to make work" said Alfi while rising from his seat.

" i'm going to go tonight and sleep in my bed because I might not come home tonight " alfi's speech made the khaira who was moving her clothes stop her activities and turn to look at Alfi who was stepping outside.

" where are you going, why not go home? " Alfi only glanced at the khaira when he heard his question, but instead of answering Alfi instead continued his steps leaving khaira who was still covered by a thousand questions.

after finishing the prayer 'isya khaira immediately lay his body on the bed, enveloping his body with a thick blanket that was there. for some reason he felt since the trip to here he was not feeling well, and now he feels very cold, his head also feels dizzy.

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The night has passed now began to sound the sound of adhan roaring and the sound of a crowing chicken signifying the morning is coming soon.

khaira opened her eyes to see her bed that was next to her empty and neatly marked if Alfi last night did not come home.

khaira was still wondering where Alfi went last night until he did not come home.khaira did not want to drag on thinking about the departure of Alfi he decided to wake up to the bathroom to clean himself and pray dawn.

after the dawn prayer khaira chant some holy verses of the Quran, without him realizing if the Alfi had come home from earlier and observed himself who was teaching. there is peace in the heart of Alfi when he heard the khaira teaching, a beautiful voice makes the verses he chanted feel Peace in the recesses of his soul.

" sadaqalla.... "

khaira said after he finished reciting some verses of the Quran.he closed the Quran and put it on the nightstand.

khaira is still not aware of the existence of Alfi there, after finishing storing the prayer equipment at the place of his khaira step his feet want to go out of the room, but his steps came to a halt when he saw Alfi sitting on the bed while continuing to stare at him.

" when are you coming home? " tanya khaira to Alfi while raising her next to her eyebrows.

" from yesterday gie came home with loe again, you forget that we went home together yesterday" he replied, staring at khaira with a smile.

" what the hell is a serious nanya also " said khaira while turning his eyes lazy.

" anyways brother last night where why not go home? " tanya khaira again.

" oe why not say that overtime makes people worry aja "say khaira again.

" why do I have to report to you first if I want to overtime? you didn't wait for me to come home last night, did you? "

khaira just shook her head in response.

" it's good that " said Alfi and then went to the bathroom.

khaira waited for Alfi to finish bathing so they could get out together.he sat on the sofa where he used to sleep. After Alfi finished bathing they rushed outside the room to go downstairs.

As they descend as usual the whole family has gathered, but this time it is a little different there is no sister Zuhra and her husband and her two adorable children.

they sit at the table eating khaira whose condition has not improved feeling nauseous when smelling food on the table.

" yes now we just start his breakfast, Alfi you please lead his prayer" said mama Alfi who was answered with a nod by Alfi.

after they finished reading the prayer one by one they were at the dinner table filling his food into the plate. After mama, papa and zuhdi had filled his plate, he filled the plate, now it's khaira's turn to fill the plate Alfi is still empty.

khaira took the rice and side dishes into Alfi's plate after he finished taking them for himself.

khaira's first mouthful managed to swallow her food though with great difficulty, but at the second feed she was no longer able to swallow it. Khaira ran towards the bathroom while covering her mouth.

everyone who was there looked at each other when they saw Khaira running away from the dining table towards the bathroom.

mama Alfi immediately woke up from her sitting following khaira to the bathroom to see the khaira.

once there he knocked on the bathroom door to ask if she was okay.

" to. tok..... "

" khaira are you all right, son ?"

mama Alfi asked but there was no answer from khaira, not how long Alfi and his papa followed khaira and mama Alfi to the bathroom.

" how is khaira ? "

not Alfi who asked like that but his papa who is beside alfi, while the man stood casually without regard to the state of khaira.

in fact, he also felt anxious when he saw the pale face khaira since yesterday when they had just arrived at the house of Alfi. but his ego is too big can defeat his common sense so he ignores the state of khaira that looks not okay.

khaira came out of the bathroom with her pale face.

" dear you don't want your face why can it be about that, what happens to you? " ask mama Alfie.

" no tau ma but from yesterday khaira felt less well continued also a little nausea maybe khaira again in the wind "reply khaira with a weak voice.

" did you say you weren't feeling well, dizzy, nauseous? " ask mama Alfi he began to smile when he asked khaira.

His smile grew even more when he got a nod of the head from khaira, mama Alfi looked at papa Alfi while smiling and raising - lower his eyebrows, for a moment papa Alfi looks like he is thinking something, he said,

But then his smile expands when he finds out what his wife is thinking until she smiles.

then Alfi's mama stared at Alfi and khaira in turn.

" mama is equally papa why smile so? " alfi asked her mama while raising her next to her eyebrows.

" hehehe "

his mother's speech made Alfi confused why his mother was so happy, earlier he was very anxious when looking into the presence of khaira, but now even smiled.

" pleased why not her earlier mama was so anxious the same state of khaira but why now even happy" said Alfi again he looked at his mama who was still developing a smile.

" wait a minute there is something you want to do, you don't go anywhere until you come back again" said mama Alfi as he passed away heading towards his room.

the three people who were there looked at each other. khaira went back into the bathroom when he felt his stomach again churned.now papa Alfi who even developed a smile. Alfi twitched his shoulders as he saw his smiling papa feeling strange with the attitude of his two parents.

it has been 20 minutes passed but mama Alfi has not returned to meet them even khaira has repeatedly back and forth the bathroom to remove his entrails.

Alfi felt careless waiting for his mama to come, his end he decided to return to his room, just now Alfi turned his mama came running from the direction of the main door of his house towards them.

Alfi frowned at his forehead when he saw his mama coming from the direction of the front door "

" wasn't Mama running towards the room why was she coming from the front door? " alpha muttered in heart.

" you try this !! " said mama khaira while thrusting a plastic bag towards khaira.

" what is this, ma? " tanya khaira to mama Alfi, he took the plastic bag and flipped the bag without seeing the contents.

" eum.. that's the content..." mama Alfi stopped her speech to make Alfi feel furious.

" that's what ma? what is the plastic bag you brought? " Alfi asked as gently as possible to cover up her growling sense.

" it's the contents of his tespack "the speech of mama Alfi makes the eyes of Alfi and khaira equally widened.

" AAAA.". said Alfi and khaira simultaneously. mama Alfi rewind his head when he saw the reaction of the two people in front of him.

" for what mama gave it to khaira "this time Alfi spoke a bit loudly.

" yes to check the state of khaira is to make him nauseous and his usual nausea tan. "had not finished his mama spoke Alfi had already interrupted him first.

" there will be no sign of any ma, khaira only enter the wind because of a long trip like yesterday, in addition to uncertain weather like this makes people susceptible to disease " alfi interrupted her mother's words.

" we will not know the results if you do not want to try ready to know later the results are positive, already khaira now you go to the bathroom and do the test ". said mama alfi while pushing slowly khaira body into the bathroom.

" ma khaira. "khaira speech stopped because interrupted by mama alfi.

" you have just done the test do not be afraid, whatever the reason mama is equally papa will sincerely accept her" said mama alfi while smiling towards khaira.

khaira stared at alfi but the man turned his face in the other direction.The end khaira decided to do what he asked his in-laws.

5 Minutes passed the end of his khaira out by carrying the flat object in his hands.

" how do you get positive reasoning, right? " ask mama alfi to khaira when she sees khaira coming out of the bathroom.

" khaira has not seen ma, mama aja who saw the results of her "khaira gave up the flat object to her in-laws. he deliberately did not see the results because he already knew the results without having to see the mark on the object.

" Alhamdulilah pa positive "alfi and khaira widened his eyes when he heard what mama alfi said.

" NGAK MAY "say alfi and khaira together

" loh why not maybe this is a really positive result, congratulations ya want to be a father again, and you are afraid will be a mother "

Alfi grabbed a flat object in his mama's hand, no matter what his mama said.His jaw hardened when he saw the flat object that showed two red lines.

Alfi stared intently at the khaira grabbed his hand khaira and gripped his wrist firmly until khaira grimaced in pain.

" tell me who is the father of the child you are carrying, let's say, SAY KHAIRA !!!! " alfi said with a voice that echoed throughout the room as well as an eye gaze that implied a flash of emotion.

Khaira just silently did not answer Alfi's question, her eyes continued to let out a clear liquid that soaked her cheeks.

" why do you shut up let's talk, tell me who is the father of the baby you are carrying" said Alfi again now he even gripped the jaw khaira cooking the girl to talk to her.

emotions have taken hold of him, he feels pain and is disappointed when he finds out his wife contains the seeds of someone else, even he does not know who the father of the child in the bladder of his wife.

that disappointment is what he feels now, I don't know what feeling is now entering the recesses of his heart he felt tightness in his chest and as if he was not willing if his wife belonged to someone else. Maybe he's already starting to love khaira??

I don't know whether he also does not know but his heart always beats fast when he is close to khaira. What else When seeing the gaze of his eyes makes Alfi can not resist the turmoil in his heart.

" JUST ANSWER ME!!!, YOU DO NOT SHUT UP, ANSWERED MY QUESTION, WHOSE CHILD IS IN THE LOE??? " ask Alfi with the hunting breath holding the anger in him so that he does not let go.

his hand continued to grip the rahanb khaira stronger to make khaira unable to withstand his pain.

mama alfi who saw Alfi began to be rude to Alfi and also the emotions that had mastered him to try to appease him.

" it's gonna take your grip off it's kasian khaira he's been so in pain, if there's a problem talk well not with emotions " Alfi released a grip on his arm and on his jaw as he heard his mama's speech.

" why are you so angry when you find out khaira is pregnant not her should you be happy because soon you will be a father " mama alfi asked in a soft voice as she looked at the alfi starting to look calmer.

" BECAUSE THAT CHILD IS NOT MY SON MA" said alfi with a voice that echoed throughout the room he stared intently at khaira who was still crying.

mama alfi was shocked when she heard what alfi said just now.

" why are you so sure, it could be your son ? " tanya again while observing the face of alfi who reddened because it held his anger.

" NOT MA "answe alfi

" DIDN'T YOU??? " mama alfi looked at alfi with question marks.Alfi lowered his head then he answered his mother's curiosity.

" Since Alfi Has Never Touched Her Once Since We First Married "

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