Ineffable Life (P. Mafia and Mr. Idol)
Chapter 150: What is Happy?
"Happy?? I don't even know what happiness is." Ana muttered.
"You laugh, you feel comfortable, you feel safe, you always miss someone with a bad feeling." Lucas said.
"I don't even feel bad about taking out my enemies." - timpal Ana.
Lucas patted Ana's arm slowly trying to resuscitate her.
"Jaga whatyou say.. People can misunderstand." exclaimed Lucas softly.
"I don't care about the judgment of others.. I only care about my family's judgment.. Because I will live and die for them.."
"Therefore you must also have your own family Ana.. You should get married and have children.. It'll feel a lot happier and a lot more real.."
"Am I not real now to you?" timpal Ana looked at Lucas with a sad look.
"That's not what I meant.. I mean it.. You're.."
"I know.. I-i know.. But I never imagined it.. I don't even have time to imagine it.. I'm too busy with more important matters.."
"take your time to think about yourself.. Don't think about your problems when you do.. Just think happiness for yourself.." Lucas held Ana's hand warmly.
"And you have to leave your life in that dark world Ana.. You have to leave everything with nothing left to start a new light." Lucas added.
Ana took off the grip slowly.
"I'll think about it." nodded Ana approving of Lucas' advice.
Ana reached into her pocket, pulled out her phone from there.
"Do I have to call her?" muttered Ana stared at the screen of her phone.
"Your boyfriend??" guess Lucas is confused.
"He's not my girlfriend.. He's the guy I like.. And he likes me.. But he's not my girlfriend.. And I'm not his girlfriend.. We just like each other.. Hihihihi.." Ana giggles so cutely, even her flushed face makes her look so adorable.
"Call him. Tell him everything.."
"really?? Maybe he's too busy.."
"Aishis.. Even he had time to make up his fucking drama scandal.. I shouldn't have let him take the role there.. It sucks.." Ana grumbled with a staggering body.
Ana appears to be making a call on her phone.
Tutt's.. Tutttt.. Tutt's..
"Look.. He didn't lift it.." cried Ana turned on her loudspeaker.
Clik..
"Hello.." replied someone across the street in a soft voice
"He lifted.. Quickly answer.." exclaimed Lucas whispering pushing Ana's hand towards his face.
"Lou?? This you?? Hehe.. Even your voice is so sweet.."
"You drunk?? Where are you." she asked across the street.
"Don't ask much.. Just listen to me.." Ana snapped.
"All right.."
"Do you think I'll be able to live a normal life? You know, I've been killing a lot of people for a long time. I don't even appreciate my own life.. I'm just an empty body with no feelings." said Ana loudly.
"Do you think I'll be okay in the future?? I can't even find the answer.. I'm really tormented.. Even now I can't breathe well.. My greed, selfishness and anger shut down all the airways in my body.." Ana was silent for a moment, her eyes looked teary, even her face was very sad showing deep sadness.
"I'm even afraid to say if I miss you.. Those are very scary words for me.. I could and without hesitation fire a hot bullet into the head of my enemy.. But why am I having trouble saying that I miss you so much.."Ana again breathed.
"I feel like I want to shoot myself in the head, rather than say I miss you so much.." (She took a deep breath.)
"Lou.. Do you know what? I'm so good and good at talking to you because of this good cheap beer.. Brother Lucas took me out to drink this cheap beer and got me drunk like this.. Even this cheap beer is so much better than my expensive whiskey.. I'll report it to the police station tomorrow because he's been taking me drunk.. Ah.. But he is a cop.. Then I will send my complaint about him, then send the complaint to him.. Haha.. Isn't that funny??" ana's babbling started to slur. He laughed and laughed at the same time.
