If you were Tau Rasaku

Memories Of The Post

" I love you Yank, a long time ago but I'm too cowardly to reveal it."

" I told Aa Vin to take care of you and comfort you but I never counted on the taste that will grow in your hearts. I was selfish and careless, making you feel the same hurt for the second time. Sorry, baby, sorry for me."

The Navy was getting closer and closer to me, suddenly the world stopped spinning. My heart stopped beating no more

This fact surprised me, the fact that the AL also knew the taste that ever alighted for Brother Andra. While I still doubt myself, is that feeling love or affection? because it's different, the pain is different.

" After Aa Vin got engaged, I thought hard about meeting you. I can't play behind the scenes continuously, which is why I'm determined to start."

" My message is never wrong address Yank, all the messages are for you. I can't go straight to you and talk directly. I'm sorry I yank, I'm confusing you."

I could feel AL's body shaking, the emotional outburst was getting worse. I was astonished by all these facts, this is still a small part. There are a lot of things I don't know.

There were no words I could say, slowly I returned his embrace. Trying to say I'm okay.

AL didn't look at me, he just hugged me while telling stories. There might be something painful behind his story that he has not been able to share.

" A-L, it's okay. I'm not mad at you."

" If there is something impossible to share, do not need to tell AL. Instead of opening old wounds, I don't want to."

Slowly I unraveled his embrace which wrapped around my body like a snake.

" I just want to share it with you yank, I want to tell you everything."

The wound, yes the wound was clearly visible in his black eyes.

" I'll always be ready to be a good listener to you, whenever you want to come. So don't force yourself to tell a heavy story today, just tell me the core of what I really want to know."

" So the point is that you, Rio and Brother Andra are not such brothers?." AL nodded in response

" You also know my story and Rio's?." I asked hesitantly, but the nod of the head came back as the answer .

" Do you know Al?"

Huff, is there still a secret I don't know?

" I know everything Yank, even your heartache and your efforts to rise up against that pain I know. I know the wound is too deep because you've been braiding it for a long time." Heavy breathing sounds again

" Sometimes even now I still think if there's still a sense of it in both of you're hearts."

The look was like asking for an explanation, but I was confused as to how to say it. That sense had gone with my increasingly eroded wounds, but the split word that still hung between Me and Rio became the ballast. Until now the word break up has not been spoken .

" AL, I'm ."

" You still love him yank?." AL cut my words fast.

" AL, give me a chance to talk. How can I explain everything if it's not okay you cut it first AL." My protest

" Huu, I just don't want to hear it spoken from your mouth yank."

God, I was stunned to see the figure sitting in front of me. He looked down and was silent as if he had lost his spirit. The always smiling AL turns heartily, is it true that the AL in front of me is still the same AL?

" AL, I don't know how much your problem weighs. But I'm sure you can get through it. As for my feelings towards Rio, that sense had already gone along with the wound he had made"

" What is that? what is unresolved between you?"

" The word is broken, the word has not been spoken among us AL. In the past we only agreed to split temporarily while waiting for things to improve between our families"

" Is that also your reason for not being in a relationship all this time?"

" It's not so AL, all this time I had trouble opening my heart. The pain was too deep, not the pain of the loss I felt but the pain of humiliation"

" Confidence and trust for others disappear, all that remains is a sense of disappointment. Then under those conditions do you think I can be in a relationship? can I trust anyone who is a stranger to me? while the people closest to me doubt me?."

The pain I felt again, back all the events that for 2 years trying to bury me again dancing beautifully in my image. Menagis? yes these tears fell without me preventing, I told her as if I was going back to the most painful time I had ever experienced.

AL again grabbed me into his arms, trying to muffle the wounds that re-absorbed my calmness, ripping my pride back completely covered in wounds.

" I'm sorry I yank, I'm sorry because I you have to go back to remembering the painful things I'm sorry ."

" It's not your fault, this pain will continue to unfold even though I have sincerely accepted all. I was just trying to get my emotions out. Because that's the only way I have."

" AL, do I need to remove all. I mean what breaking up is necessary to say? because it's been two years. Is it still necessary?" I cried next to sobs in his arms

" It may be necessary only as an affirmation, for the calmness of your own heart yank. although it has long passed but your relationship has not been clear break up or continue".

" I have to do it?"

" If you don't do it, then who? Rio's? are you sure he will do it?. If Rio had any intention of doing it, he should have done it, right?."

What the AL said was true, because Rio himself some time ago there was an offence to this.

" It's better to calm down now, find a good time to finish it"

" Whatever happens next, remember that there is me beside you, who will always support you"

I smiled sweetly at the words of AL, very cold as the wind that blows on my face. The beautiful scenery of the tourist forest of The Jawat made my mood that had gone down again shine.

There is still a story that has not been revealed, but at least my curiosity has been slightly treated.

The rejection and humiliation of the Rio family was enough to smash all my pride, and that was what I feared the first time I found out they were brothers

" Now answer me Yank, do you love me? is that for me, Yank?". AL looked at me gently but it made me nervous

" AL, I .."

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