I'M SINCERE 1

Episode 188's

In the morning when arriving at An Najah, Syaif went straight to the pendopo where Kiai used to meet all his guests, There is already Kiai Jakfar waiting because before leaving Ibu nafisah already called first, if Syaif will come.

" Assalamualaikum "

" Greetings waalaikum "Answer Kiai Jakfar, and Shayf shakes hands with Kiai Jakfar.

" Sit is "Kiai Jakfar said, allowing Syaif to sit.

Syaif sat down in front of Kiai Jakfar.

" Kiai apologizes for disturbing Kiai " Said Syaif slowly

" It's okay, I already know your arrival son, your mama had called "

" I don't deserve Kiai to come here looking for Sandy, but I'm aware that my mistake with Sandy made it all hurt each other and became a mind burden for Zidan and Raesa "

" nothing should be wrong, man will all meet with what his name is a problem, but everything God gives us will be different, different, it's just that many people do not realize that with the trials and trials of God, it will elevate our degrees and there will be extraordinary wisdom" explained Kiai Jakfar

" Maybe it is with the incident of Zidan being sick until like this that I am aware of Kiai now where is Sandy Kiai ?"

" I promised Sandy I wouldn't tell anyone where she lived, even when Abdullah's son Kiai Malik left, I didn't tell him because Sandy really wanted to get out of the lives of the two of you ,now that Sandy's in City C she's staying with my son to help take care of the boarding school. As soon as you get home, I'll tell him to go see Zidan "

" Thank you Kiai, I will return today also to the hospital due to Zidan's critical condition "

" I'm sorry about whatever's going to happen in your life, you must be patient and sincere in accepting the fact that what God sent into this world is only a deposit where the deposit will be taken again by the owner "

" Thank you Kiai I have understood.The true meaning of Raesa is the one who won all this, he who is always sincere with every test from God "

" Go away, son "

" Good Kiai Assalamualaikum "

" Greetings waalaikum "

After shaking hands with Kiai , Syaif immediately left the boarding school.

Syaif cried feeling a lot of things done to Raesa, The woman he loved so much has hurt her sick , with the harsh treatment that Shayf had done and the inner torture that Shayf had given him, making Syaif constantly confess, his feelings felt very guilty.

" If time can be reworked, I want to fix it all, so that Raesa is not tormented with all this" he cried in his heart

Pak Yono looked from the glass of Spion, so could not bear to see his master crying like a child who was angry with his parents.

" Sorry sir, patient God willing everything will be easy "

" Thank you Mr. Yono, but all this time I have always hurt Raesa sir, he was so thin that I am very sorry sir, maybe Raesa hated me "

" I know sir, so I'm very sorry about what I did "

" Mister, mend your relationship, I'm sure you're happy again as before "

" Yes sir pray like that "

" Amiin may all be better sir "

Finally, Pak Yono let Syaif rest, considering that Pak Yono's long journey drove his car so fast, After a few hours later they arrived, Pak Yono woke up Syaif who was sleeping, After Syaif woke up they got out of the car and went straight into the hospital, headed to the front of the ICU room there Raesa, Mother Nafisah, Nando, and also Fatma was sitting waiting.

" How is Zidan ma "

" Zidan's fine, son, the doctor said wait for the next examination but the trial has not been able to get out of the ICU room waiting until it really improves "

" But Zidan hasn't noticed lan ma "

" Zidan was not aware, but the situation was better that the doctor said, meet Raesa persuaded him to eat because he started yesterday not to eat "

Then Shayf approached Raesa, who was sitting on the hospital floor, seeing Raesa's condition was very Mother she was struck by the state of Zidan, who had not yet awakened, Syaif sat near Raesa and hugged her, Raesa just stared at him saying nothing.

" I'm sorry maybe all this time I've always hurt you, I've always hurt Zidan even I've always been rude to you, I'm so very sorry about everything I did to you, I know I'm very guilty I know I hurt a lot of hearts, but am I wrong if I want to turn into a better father for Zidan, I'm sorry, I beg you to forget all my cruelty to you, it is hard to forget it but I only ask your kindness to me to forgive me for being rude to you Come eat ,Mama says you haven't eaten at all Zidan wouldn't be happy if his mama was like this, you're the strong woman I know Come wake up, I'm sure you can get through this all "Shaif said slowly, while shedding tears seeing the state of Raesa who was very sad.

" I've never been as angry as any of your treatment of me I accept mas, I just want to be happy with you and Zidan, I'm tired of all this, I'm tired of all this, because I cannot be the wife you want, I am guilty of all this, I hurt a lot, this is all because I "Raesa said sadly in the arms of Syaif.

" No, you are innocent, you are always hurt by my treatment, all this time I did not give happiness to you and Zidan, Zidan, I'm selfish I don't want to accept the fact that God is testing me and you, I beg you to forgive me, forget everything I want to live a better life not to hurt you and not to hurt Zidan "

Shortly after, Sandy arrived.

" Assalamualaikum " Sapa Sandy

" Walaikum salam "Reply all

" Sandy you've come "Task Mother Nafisah surprised, because Syaif really brought Sandy to Zidan

" How is Zidan doing ? "

" Not realized until now, sorry I Sandy has been hostile to you "Shaif said and hugged Sandy

" There's nothing to forgive because you're innocent, I'm the guilty one in your relationship I'm the third one among you, now I hope everything is better I don't want to hurt a lot of hearts again, both you and Raesa are also others Come I meet Zidan maybe with my arrival Zidan will quickly realize "

While Raesa was still sitting on the floor, her head bowed unconcerned about the arrival of Sandy, who was already nearby that Raesa thought at this time was Zidan's recovery.