I Finally Chose to Go

Kavita's Deep Disappointment

I was pensive in front of the mirror, staring at the reflection of my face that looked awful. Not because it's ugly, or there's a wrinkle there. But because of my face that these beautiful people say, but still unable to captivate the heart of Adrian, my husband.

Husband? if you think of that person, it feels like my heart hurts like it was pierced by thousands of thorns. Hownot? After making love to me, he hasn't even come down from above my body. The sweat is still dripping on my chest. But he could have mentioned another woman's name.

"I love you, Vara... " That one deadly sentence came back to my ear.

A sentence that was able to make my heart that was originally flowery, my smile that was originally like a flower blooming in the morning, suddenly disappeared for a moment. Replaced with the feeling of being smashed into pieces, even the dead water was no longer able to hold me. He just left without me asking.

Pain, pain. The destruction of my heart I can no longer describe in words. I turned the other way, and asked him with a stifled heartache.

"Who, Vara? "

He just fell silent not answering, even immediately moved, then put on his pants that were originally scattered and passed to the bathroom.

I cried in silence after her death. I was stunned, and to my regret, why I only found out after our union happened. If that had not happened, I might have preferred to be a widow even though we had just made a sacred promise one day ago.

At least I'm still a saint, and it won't be hard to find a replacement. But now, I've lost my precious crown and I just found out that my husband isn't mine, he belongs to another woman. Only her body is with me, but her heart and mind are with other women.

Can I call that woman an actor, if that woman was already in Adrian's life first?

Or am I the actor here?

Huh, Miris!

My face was puffy, my eyes were big round like they were finished in a bee sting, and my nose was red, as red as a cherry tomato, all because I cried too long.

I smiled bitterly, a smile that looked very heartbreaking. Smile in tears.

What can I tell my parents later? Can I keep pretending to be happy in front of them?

"Aaaaaaaaarggghhh.." I shouted with all my might and threw everything on the dressing table in front of me until it was all scattered.

I closed my face and cried again. It hurts so much to remember how he treated me, so soft that it lulled me. Until I didn't realize that the one in her shadow was another woman, not me, but she was making love to me.

My body went loose and fell to the floor, I stared at the view of our bridal room. The decoration is still intact, the original flowers are diverse arranged in such a way, very beautiful.

Our wedding photos that I don't know since when they were attached to the wall, I just realized it. And it makes me feel more guilty.

"This isn't a dream? It must be a dream, right? "

"Yes, this must be just a nightmare, "my monologue.

"Please, Lord.I want to wake up from this nightmare, "I plead with my eyes closed.

My eyes opened slowly, the same sight I had a few moments ago made me realize that if this was true, this was all a bitter reality that I had to swallow. I couldn't break the hearts of my parents.

I can't possibly tell this to mom and dad, can I? They won't believe it either because I don't have any proof, it's all just Adrian's reflexes that he probably didn't expect to talk himself out.

By the way, where's that accursed man? Don't you know I'm sick here?

It hurts because he just took my chastity, plus my heart aches because he said the name of another woman at the end of our romance.

"Adrian fuck! " yet yelling again.

°°°°

The atmosphere that some time ago was hot by the air of two human children who made love, now turned silent, gloomy like an uninhabited. The two people who have just done their husband and wife activities for the first time, are currently in a state of turmoil with their respective minds.

It was only because of a short sentence that accidentally came out of Adrian's lips. However, it was very successful in breaking their relationship. In addition, Adrian is able to explain and play a role as a husband who loves Kavita very much.

Yes, he must do that in the woman he loves. It is cruel indeed, but it is love, which is capable of making people do anything, including destroying the future of another girl.

Adrian was silent contemplating in front of the bathroom mirror, he did not expect if he would say the name while being with Vita. Everything is out of his logical control. It seemed like he was indeed being overpowered by the lust earlier, so what he said was all reflex as he was accustomed to, perhaps.

"Stupid aldrian! Lo moron! You can say Vara's name in front of Vita. Not that I care about the girl, but this is all I do for Vara. And now? I made everything messy" Adrian said in the mirror.

"Only a day have I performed, it has made a mess. If it wasn't for Vara, I wouldn't have done all this, "Adrian snorted, his breathing deflated.

The man restored his hair and rubbed his face violently over and over again. He walked back and forth thinking about how he should explain to Vita. He still had to keep playing in front of his wife for the sake of his lover, Vara.

His mind was filled with the look of Vita's face that was filled with deep disappointment towards him. He was also still very much in the shadow of the hot thing he had just done with Kavita. But with all his energy Adrian tried to brush off the shadow of Kavita with the figure of the girl he loved, namely Vara.

"Okay, Adrian. breathe out, let it out. Do it a few times until your breath is normal again, and start your skit again, " Adrian told himself.

'Lets go! This is not difficult, even my acting has exceeded the akator-actors of this country, "he said proudly.

"Kavita, you're going to keep bending your knees with me. Look at it, what I will do soon will definitely make you re-flowering and forget the same reflex speech earlier, " Adrian washed his face in the sink and stared at the reflection of his face in the mirror.

"Lo is handsome, Adrian. So do not be surprised if the girl is crazy about the same lo, "

The man held his jaw, turned right and left while looking at the reflection of his face on the glass.

Then he came out of the bathroom, but before that he sucked a rose arranged in the corner of the sink vase.

"Vita darling... "