I Finally Chose to Go

ANNOUNCEMENT of Novel Excerpt What's Wrong with Me, Mother-in-Law?

It turns out that dying is not that easy.

My life is worse now than in prison. After Rega pulled me over and saved me that time until I missed the suicide attempt.

I thought it was because he believed in me, but no, he saved me just because he didn't want his house to be stained with my blood.

"If you want to die, on the road or the railroad tracks! Not in my house, which I think I killed you, "

Rega's words at that time really broke my heart.

The pain of being tormented by my mother-in-law, abused by Raka at all times, and now still coupled with the look of hatred from my own husband.

I really want to die rather than live like this. But why they never let me, they're just happy to torture me.

What's my fault, mother-in-law?

Why do you hate me so much?

My body was weak because I was just pregnant, I knew it because I felt nausea and dizziness were prolonged and I also had no appetite at all.

But not one bit my mother-in-law feel pity, she still gives me hard work every day. Even he did not hesitate to torture me if I was caught resting because I felt very weak.

Even he only fed me when Rega at home, even then he would immediately take and throw it even though I had not finished eating, if Rega had been hunted to go to work.

As for Rega, he was indifferent and seemed to care less for me. He didn't ask me to leave his room or decide to sleep apart, but he always turned his back on me and never touched me. Moreover, greeting his baby who he believes is the son of someone else.

I was in pain, I was hungry, I was lonely, I was tormented.

Lord...

What was my sin in the past, until You tested me this hard.

When I was sleeping in my bed shed when Rega was out of town, exhausted from work and crying out for my fate, Raka was always present and harassing me, even if only to seduce me, but I feel so humiliated. After all, the mother-in-law would never be willing to either if her favorite child touched me, she would call and scold Raka.

Until tonight was the same, either where Rega was also my mother-in-law who always could never see me sleep well. she would disturb me all the time, not knowing morning, day or night. As long as Rega is not home, he feels it is time for action.

He always woke me up by dousing me with a bucket of water until I was soaked. Without giving me time to change clothes, he immediately told me this and that as he pleased.

He even woke me up by sticking a hot iron on my back until I squealed and screamed in pain. Rega did not know if all over my body this flat was full of cuts and bruises. Because my mother-in-law gives me a negligee every day, so I look more like a maid than a Rega wife.

If Rega was at home, he told me to wear a long robe until my whole body was covered, that was his attempt not to be suspected by Rega and Papa Refan.

I screamed and thrashed as Raka tried to touch me, I fought her with the rest of my strength. He laughed and acted increasingly.

"According to Brother-in-law, who told you to tease me. Your new two-bodied body looks even more seductive in my eyes, "

The glint of Raka's eyes made me shudder in horror, am I going to be completely raped by her at this moment?

Raka pulled my shirt, I slapped her, but she hit back with a harder blow until I fell down.

My stomach ached, I grimaced in pain to the point that my tears spilled unstoppably.

"God! Dare to slap me, ya lo! I have been very patient with you all this time, even I always remember you in front of my nyokap, but this is your reply for me? huh uh?!" Raka was wrathful, her face was flushed red and her eyes were glaring, it seemed like she was going to completely force her will this time around.

Raka forced a kiss on me, and squeezed my breasts until the pain I felt increased. My stomach still feels pain, as well as my face that was hit by it, now coupled with the bite and squeeze.

Until Raka took my clothes off, I still tried to defend my honor, I fought him, and grabbed whatever I could. I found a dagger that was out of nowhere, and it just happened.

I stabbed him, right in his left chest. Whether exposed to what, clearly, Raka immediately fell down without a word, only blood began to seep, then flowed rapidly to fill the floor around him.

I was confused not knowing what to do, I was dazed and scared. I could only cry without a sound. I want to get out of this place right now, but where do I have to go? while the only window in this warehouse has been fitted with an iron trellis.

I tried banging on the locked door, but the pain in my stomach became and suddenly it was all dark, if I didn't remember anything.

The room with the pungent smell of medicine greeted my sense of smell.

I thought I was dead, but I was in the hospital. What the hell's been going on?

What about my son?

How's Raka doing?

I don't know why even though he's been so mean to me, but I'm still worried about him. No, I don't want to be considered a murderer a second time.

But the sudden screams of my mother-in-law shocked me so much, she said she was going to sue me. He reported me to the authorities.

I saw Rega just keeping quiet next to her mother-in-law. Only Papa Refan seemed to sympathize with me, he comforted me and believed that I could not have accidentally killed Raka, even if either the man was dead or not, no one said.

As soon as I saw Robin with both eyes glazed over, maybe he felt sorry for me, he stood behind his father holding his wheelchair.

The arrival of the doctor made me know that I had lost my two-month-old fetus. I cried feeling bad for looking after my son, I'm not a good mother-to-be.

Papa Refan strengthened me, he comforted me. Rega looked away and rubbed her, did she cry too? is he sad too?

Not to mention my grief ended, the police came with my arrest warrant. It turns out that the speech of the mother-in-law the other day was real, not just mere words of threat.

Papa Refan denied it, and he hired a lawyer for me with Robin's help. And enmity did not occur between mother-in-law and me, but the father-in-law who was also on my side made mama Siska blatantly fight against her.

Will I be thrown in jail after this?

Or is this indeed the answer from God to my suffering, so that I can be freed from all the torments of my mother-in-law.

I can only give up my next fate. Because my hope to feel happiness is now gone.