I Finally Chose to Go

Bitter Reality

I woke up in the middle of the night feeling like I wanted to pee, but Adrian wasn't there next to me.

"Where is he, what's in the bathroom? " murm while shaking the blanket.

Outside the rain is still faithfully flushed since this afternoon, the cold slipped through the skin even though I turned off the AC. I walked into the bathroom, when I opened the door it turned out to be an empty bathroom, there was no Adrian in it.

After my business in the bathroom, I intend to take mineral water in the kitchen and check Adrian who may be in the workspace. According to Vara's explanation earlier, the workspace is only limited to the dong with the room I occupy.

"No, where is Adrian? "

I looked back and forth, the whole room seemed dimly lit because it had been replaced by night incandescent lights. And I didn't find anyone wandering around in the middle of the night and raining like this.

"There's no way he's playing sports or watching, right, cold gini. If it means a lack of work really dong, "I filled the mineral water from the gallon into the bottle, because the bottled mineral water has been put all into the refrigerator.

"It can be bloated or even in the wind to drink cold water, "it feels like I am drinking something warm or hot to warm the body, but lazy it feels because my eyes are still very sleepy.

I'm still trying to figure out Adrian's whereabouts, just wondering where he is and what he is doing.

While passing through the guest room occupied by Vara, I heard the voice of the person who was talking.

"Who's talking to you? " my mind kepo.

Actually I am not a person who wants to know the affairs and problems of others, but Vara is an exception for me, because he is very suspicious.

I stepped closer, wanting to ask why he was still awake in the hour that had passed from twelve nights, this was even almost early in the morning.

"I miss you, baby.. "

Deg.

That voice, I know that voice.

"Mas Adrian? " murmurm.

I was sure it was my husband's voice. I may have misidentified my husband's own voice.

"I'm really excited about you, too, but now it's impossible. There's Vita in this house right now, "I heard Vara say.

My heart is heating up, my eyes are flowing. My heart feels like it's being hit with a very sharp dagger. My body trembled, wanting me to open the door in front of me violently and then shout loudly at the two people who had betrayed behind me.

So this is the meaning of my suspicions all along?

Are they really in a relationship?

What am I supposed to do now? I crumpled the bottle I held with both hands.

"But I've missed you so much, Vara. We haven't seen each other in a week. Your condition is also fit, right now? "

"Hmm, "

"Come on, Vara Darling.cook you the same I'm already convinced, "

"You can ask Vita, Adrian, "

"But I want you, Vara. Not Vita! " nearby Adrian's voice slightly raised, he sounded annoyed.

My tears escaped and fell to my cheeks, what the hell is all this?

With the rest of my strength, I tried to push the door that was not closed tightly, I peeked out from the gap, and what I saw really broke my heart into pieces.

"Aaaaa, "I cried out in my heart. My throat felt choked, the slightest word was unable to be spoken, the pain I could no longer express with words let alone deeds. My logic is gone somewhere.

The bottle that was originally clasped tightly, just released until it made a sound. Along with that, I ran with all my might towards my room. I faintly heard the sound of panicked people who were also followed by footsteps.

But like a marathon runner, I was able to run fast even though I was climbing stairs. Pain is also an emotion that arouses like giving strength to my body.

Arriving in the room I slammed the door and locked it from the inside. I leaned against the door and slid to the floor.

"No way, I must have seen it wrong, "I shook my head trying to shake off something I had really seen with my own eyes.

I hit my chest that felt tight, my tears started to break. I shouted at Adrian and Vara. They did that behind my back.

Why the damn shadow won't go out of my mind. It all felt even more vivid in my eyes.

Two men who were my husband and the woman who claimed to be his cousin, turned out to be lovers. Even they seem to have been used to having a husband and wife relationship from their conversation that I had arrested earlier.

Are they a couple? Then I'm the honey? I'm grabbing people's husbands?

"You guys! "

"You're evil! " i scream like an infidelity man.

I went berserk, brushed off all the shadows of him being the man whose energy had been blushing out of my mind.

The shadow when the two people were making out friendly, Adrian's treatment was very sweet and gentle. A spoiled welcome from Vara who was smiling happily. The friendly pagutan accompanied by the longing embrace really hurt my heart.

Even Adrian almost took off his last protector. As for Vara, that woman already is, already..

"Aaaaaaaakh...! go shadow asshole! " if this continues I'll go crazy.

It was the first time I felt love, felt the caress of a man, not the year of a jerk. Why would papa match me up with a jerk like Adrian. And stupidly again why I accept it, even I was crazy about him before papa asked me to marry the man.

I never thought if my originally beautiful married life in my imagination, would be decorated by a third person, or even me who became the third person here?

If they were already in a relationship before our marriage, then I'm the third person, then am I the bad guy?

Am I the actor?

Am I ruining their happiness?

All thoughts and conjectures kept swirling in my brain.

"No! I'm not the bad guy here, but Adrian. He who betrayed Vara, he who deceived me, not me, "I said denying to myself.

"Adrian is a fraud, but the woman is also a fraud. He's hypocritical!"

I felt disgusted and disgusted at the thought of Vara's innocent-looking face, how clever she was to perform in front of me. Are those two guys soap operas?

Whatever the circumstances and reality, I'm still the one who's hurt here. I am a victim of their selfishness. Actually, their purpose was to do all this to me.

My weak body was forced to walk towards the bed. I opened the nightstand drawer, looking for a bottle that contained something that would calm me down.

Seriate...