I Finally Chose to Go

Convince Yourself

Pov Kavita's

Oh yeah, I almost forgot one thing that made me even more sure about staying apart from that guy was...

Plaque...!

The slap on my cheek was hot and painful as he slapped the blow just at my left cheek, as I felt angry and emotional because he always put Vara, who was apparently my honey. Yes, at that time Vara had gone from the house that was out of nowhere, I did not care about him. I would feel very happy if the woman had gone away from our lives, which means I would have been the only woman and would have been completely by Adrian. That is how selfish love is.

However, all the wishful thinking to be queen in Adrian's heart is not that easy to realize, because after a month of the woman's departure, Adrian still often looked at the picture secretly. I don't know, it's just that I'd rather be quiet than be a fuss. I was blinded by love, not caring at all about hurt. All I want is to have it. Until that day that somehow I felt so jealous when he made a vidoe call with Vara, I thought he had let go of the woman, apparently not.

I who felt angry, hit him just like a legitimate wife found her husband cheating, even though I was the second for him. I was the one for Adrian was a destroyer of his household who was happy with Vara at that time. But again I am controlled by anger, no matter what else and just scold him.

"You're still in touch with that woman, are you? It is not that you have promised to love me, and will not turn away from me. Where's your promise, Mom? " I cried to him.

"But I never told you to leave him or divorce him, did I? Did you hear, there are such words coming out of my mouth? The answer is clearly no! Because at any moment, I'll never divorce Vara, you know." He said so firmly to me.

I was getting emotional hearing that hurtful statement, apparently I misinterpreted his words when apologizing to me at that time. I think Adrian will always be there for me, and only me.

"Why Mas? What is my lack in your eyes? Wasn't I the perfect woman, even I could quickly give a descendant to your family. Isn't that your family's goal to match you up to me?" my yelling. Those words came from my lips because I already knew their purpose, especially her parents betrothed Adrian to me.

Adrian glared, his gaze so sharp at me. Actually my guts shrieked a little, but I don't want to lose again, I don't want him to be pierced again and he can do anything to hurt my heart. I also re-spoken a bad word that made Adrian even more angry.

"What's? Isn't it true, you were married to me because the Vara could not have children, because he was disabled! That's what mommy said to you papi! " Once again, I shouted out loud in front of him. It's all because I'm tired of holding anger in my chest that is now exploding in the crown.

Adrian did not accept, he still defended Vara who is indeed the woman of his pride. The woman who was his first love.

His hand was raised, and landed on my cheek.

"You have no right to say anything about Vara! "

My tears flowed profusely, I turned around leaving her with pain in the heart. Actually at that time I had wanted to leave him, but I was still thinking about the baby in my womb who could not have been born without a father. I can't bear to just imagine it.

We kept quiet for a long time, maybe a week or so. And in that period of time I used to rethink what I would do in the future, whether I should leave Adrian, or give my husband another chance. After weighing and also the results of my consultation with someone, he gave me advice so that I would give Adrian a chance once again.

"If Adrian can get better, then hang on. But if otherwise, then leave it. "the advice of the man is so wise.

I also agree. So when Adrian got back on his knees apologizing to me, I forgave him. On the same condition as before, he hurt me. The man responded, whether it was because of the good intentions of his heart, or because there was coercion from others I did not know. What is clear, I try positive thingking alone for the good of my baby candidate.

Yes, I've given him opportunities many times. If you say I'm a woman, it's true.

Because sometimes sincere love does not use logic, but uses the heart, and prioritizes feelings.

Therefore, I was always touched and heartless when Adrian apologized, with tears breaking and a sad face slashing.

But since that painful incident, there will never be another chance for him.

There will never be another word of apology for her.

I will no longer be lulled by her sweet promise.

My heart was closed by disappointment.

My love has disappeared and changed with hate for him.

I hope I will never falter again.

I have to be firm!

I have to look forward and step forward for my future and for Kava.

I'm sure, we can be happy even if it's just the two of us without Adrian anymore between us.

I'll make sure there won't be any more of our word between me and him. There will be no more family with him.

"It's over, Adrian!

Our future is different, we are no longer one goal."

"I hope you'll never be in my life again that's starting to get better."

Have you ever been in my position? It hurts so much to stay with our partner, but it feels so hard to leave. Maybe because of my deep love for her. That was what had been a doubt in my heart. Whether I can survive without him, whether I can live without him. Questions like that are always present when I want to decide.

But my resolve is now unanimous, especially with the support of my loved ones. I can definitely manage my future well without him.

I see one by one these good people around me, all of them smiling sincerely and always supporting me to move on quickly.

"Make the past an experience and a learning in the future, "recommend me.

I nodded in agreement.

"The future is bright waiting for you, be excited! "

The Pov Kavita End

A flash of the painful day's shadow flashed within Kavita's memory. It was shaped like a series of videos and revolved around the memory of his brain. Making him even more confident if his decision to leave Adrian is a very appropriate decision.