High School Autobiography (Hero Generation)
CHAPTER 39: CULMINATION IS THIRD. (Part 2)
”Fear is just wishful thinking about the future impact, when it is excessive and does not secure you from destruction, then, fear is the beginning of your accident ..“ sela Harfa.
”... the future, the past, the present, the awareness of it comes together with fear, ambition, desire, desire, hope, but, when that fear is gone, when that hope is granted, when that hope is granted, but never ending your desire, and returning to your fear, or in other words, during your life, you will be shackled by your other desires, the question is only two, the question is two, are you enslaved by all of that? Or rather, it is the driver of your self?“ revealed.
I fell silent to the important message from my beloved husband.
“Truly Laisa, the environment, principles, lies and everything that is evil, is among the greatest influences of your mindset, but back, to your true character, to your point of view,” my husband's feline.
”Laisa .. he who manages to know his self, will the conquest of millions of passions is the way to the highest enjoyment, but alas, to get there, to get there, you will be plagued by millions of other pleasures in plain sight,“.
”I believe, my wife the young girl, who was formed by suffering today, has learned about love and hatred, that it is just a mere tool, you came here for support, right 'right?“ added ensure.
”Iya, and ... I drowned in it, a dilemma, even wanting to die,“ lamented I justify.
”Stop fantasizing, this city will be full of carcasses that die of wishful thinking, if you want to kill yourself, not in this city,“ Harfa quipped.
”No, I .. hik, really need support,“ my rebuttal.
”You always get my support Laisa, but it's for your success, not for your complacency.
”Yes, I fight to always be perfect,“ my hands.
” Perfection is achieved correctly, straight without intervening or being interrupted, perfection you will get Laisa, as long as you are able to know your true self, but remember, from millions of perfect humans, he said, rarely does one know God exactly, therefore, the spirit alone, the focus on what can be changed, the conscious of the present, the good man seeks with his good, the evil man seeks with his evil. My wife, focus on the field you're in, learn the knowledge, remember! You will be brilliant not because you successfully compete, you will be brilliant, because you master the field.“ A message so steady from my husband, it has been echoed to make me enlightened.
So I wiped my tears with the back of my hand, slowly I began to be enlightened, and began to come back strong.
”Laisa, if I'm not around, do you want to kill yourself?“ tanya Harfa made sure.
”I've been dead since I failed to stop Loze, I've been dead since my best friend died,“.
”Laisa, kill your bad attitude, kill your hard thoughts, kill your evil nature, kill your ego, and let the living side of your brilliance that is, the opposite of badness ..“ my husband said hanging up his sentence. Even though his mouth was bandaged, he could still talk to the tedas.
”... Laisa, the world is full of lies, but, it is intended that our souls reach the maturity of culmination, or instead we are lied to and become humiliated, well, you have a chance to rise ...“
“Hurt Laisa, be disappointed, fall down, feel every second of dying, so that you know suffering, and not drown in it, and with that introduction, you will know, what your life is like, and what life is like, because of what is called independence, achieved through struggle,” he added.
I fell silent, and began to contemplate.
“Hate the world, take it only to make fun of the world, conquer your suffering, you are indeed an ordinary human being, but you can determine the culmination of your own soul, Laisa, it all depends on you, because, once again, it depends on you, you who experienced it,” my husband.
In the end, when the tears had stopped, when my atelophobia had been set aside, yes, leaving only my husband alone, and when I had been enlightened, my lips began to develop a smile full of pride, I was proud, I was proud, that, I am still alive to be able to choose, and be helped by the people I love.
Smiling with my dimples, I addressed them only for the sake of my beloved husband, in this case, I looked into his eyes fixedly. Harfa, he really knows me, but, baby, I don't know him enough. Therefore, I will be strong, make my own strength, so that, I can fully cultivate.
“It seems, with this incident, your soul and mind have developed,” flatter my husband who seems to be smiling in his bandage.
“Yes, this time, thanks to you, I am not willing to submit to my despair, I do not want me to be a babu of my own desires, I, will be grateful for life, maybe destiny inherits this feeling, but, but, I began to think, that indeed I should try to stay focused, and not be affected by any intervention,” I have been inspired.
But along with that, even a bad thought was stirred.
”Oh yes, if you pee the same defecate how, are you bandaged?“ ask me curious and automatically change the topic of conversation.
”Ya, then why not go home?“ my wonder.
”Loh, far away, time if you want boker must go home first,“ reply Harfa.
”Eh, meaning why not be treated at home?“ my clear.
”Better far apart, so that later we can bring up longing,“ kelakar Harfa.
”Ahk, stale,“ ketusku.
”HAHAHAHAHA ..“ Harfa laughs instead.
”Do you want me to read poetry?“ proposal Harfa.
”What a poem, your poem is weird and scary,“.
”Oh, yes udah.“
After that, the silence came again, I was still standing with my heart beginning to grow back, developing to become a stronger girl, slowly but surely, my weak soul began to rise again, right, earlier, I was 'dead' but now, I'm 'living back', there's something hard to explain, but for sure, I was stupid, I was weak, I was desperate, but, uh, at least it was, I formed history, but I also shaped history. Replacing the dead with the living, turning towards absolute consciousness, This is the evolved soul.
So I sighed, prepared myself for a harder life, prepared to crash into trouble, if I could, I would solve it. The solution is just an introduction. Then, thankfully, I said,
”I want to go home, thank you for giving me a life introduction.“
”Hmmm ... yes may be, but, do not forget to keep stronger.“ My husband allowed and encouraged me.
So I nodded, then leaned closer, on my husband's forehead, until I kissed my husband's forehead full of love, hoping that Harfa would recover quickly. Then I stood up again, smiling happily.
”Laisa, if anything, just report to your BK teacher, Guru Sukada is very good,“ Anjur Harfa who seems to know Guru Sukada, who is indeed Guru Sukada very well.
”You, don't know yet, I want to change schools?“ my dug.
”Already, Farka told me, I just gave you a second option, if you do not have anyone to ask for help, even that time, Mr. Sukada, did ask me to be able to rely on him,“ beber Harfa.
“Hmmm ... only women understand women, but .. yes, may also.” I accepted his proposal.
Then, I again took a deep breath, then took a breath with the negative energy that began to dim, because, I had been 'born again'.
“Harfa my husband, I love you, I really love you, that's why, I never sacrificed anything to you! Once again! Ilove you! That's why I never felt like I was sacrificing for you! Therefore, I love you so much!” I said to Harfa, full of confidence, loud and dynamic.
“Yes, I know, that's why anyway, you dared to come here, beat yourself up, and I'm grateful for that,” Harfa replied.
And with the new mental strength, I turned my body back, and stepped towards the exit, I would go to face the legacy of destiny, that is, the reality of life, I gave up, because I can only be patient now.
I will continue to live, there is no true reason to kill myself, after all, death will be beautiful, when I have reached self-perfection.
Out there, there are still many people who need life support, there are still people who are alone, so, today, this second, I will be his friend, even if I have to go into his suffering, he said, I will know him, know him, so that those who are lonely, have hope and shape his happiness.
