High School Autobiography (Hero Generation)
CHAPTER 36: ANTIMATTER IS ME. (Part 1)
If apologies don't bring love, if apologies don't bring peace, and if war doesn't change the world, then I'm here to give you hell.
On my way to my house, my friends and I laughed, laughing at Cludy's phobia of clouds, so he ran down and joined hands with Anka, the funny thing is, Anka does not want her hand held by Cludy, and Anka always avoids her, especially, Anka had time to do her jail hobby. And somehow, for us it was funny.
In the end, we arrived at my house. We continued to run for breath, running towards the porch of my house.
”Haah-haah-haah ..“ We have stood in front of my porch, standing breathlessly.
“The formula is true ... The inner bond does exist, even though you are a new child, even you often do not go to school,” said Loze.
Aye! Loze had been standing alone while holding a gun in his right hand, his appearance was now somewhat different, he was wearing his school trousers, bare-chested, his stomach was also a six pack, but he is still bald.
His aura, his body gesture has now been different, now he is standing in front of us in a distance of 4 meters, Loze, a man with brown brown sapodilla fruit with a tapered oval face, the only bald-headed man in Lily Kasih's school, the atazagoraphobia sufferer, has become a completely different young man! He has grown!
And we had been standing lined up looking at Loze who was standing in front of us within 4 meters, standing in a tense atmosphere.
“Haah .. I came ... yes! I came Loze!” I said with pride.
“I should have said so ... class president.” Loze said casually.
“No! You were the first to come here.” I said out loud.
“Then what did you bring here? I have a gun, you can die in an instant,” Loze quipped by brandishing his gun.
“My own life,” reply me earnestly.
Loze just nodded without a smile, he appreciated my courage, which of course, took my words very seriously. One second later, his gaze was directed at my friends who were standing beside me.
“Why are you here? You had a chance to escape .. But, you wasted the opportunity instead?" tanya Loze stared one by one my friends in turn.
“Are you not ashamed to have killed your friends! haah-haah ...,” jolt Anka still panting.
“Hiks hiks ...,” Wisty is still cringing, mentally battered.
“Give me an answer, I want to be taken seriously!” cetus Loze's.
We were stunned, still looking at Loze strangely. I don't know why he's like this, but I'm sure he's been shaped by his past.
“Haah-haah-haah-haah ...,” I'm still panting trying to catch my breath.
“WHY ARE YOU LIKE THISIII?” wisty shouted in annoyance and asked.
The wind was blowing slowly, the atmosphere in front of my porch now felt serious, quite serious, because what was in front of me, was a killer and that was my classmate.
Loze's face looked seriously at us, he played his black pistol to his thigh by gently banging, then he said, “Males should always bear the heaviest burden of life.” even his serious gaze is directed forward.
“I, when I was a child, my parents divorced .. Then my friends often told me, that, I would be forgotten, forgotten and neglected ... I don't want to be forgotten, then, with death, I won't be forgotten .. so .. today, I'm going to make history, so that I don't get forgotten ..” Loze added.
“YOU'VE GONE CRAZY!” snarled Wisty who was indifferent to Loze's attitude. "Hiks-hiks ...," and then back to sting.
“No, I am not crazy .. what I will do is for the sake of all of us and for the sake of the next generation ... Oteda was not crazy either, because, the pain drove him to find his life purpose.” Loze defended himself.
“So, have you come to stop someone fighting for heroism?” the insinuations that I still do not know the raiding.
“What heroism! A madman like you is a criminal!” sergeant Tozka.
“Nah ... You guys immediately accused me, without knowing my destination,” Loze said.
“Laisa .. do you want to be considered a hero?” the question turned to me.
So I sighed, took a good breath so as not to gasp for breath, then said, “If you want to be considered a hero, I am ready to die, but if your reason is not deceived, I will stop you, I will stop you, and you'll die as a villain!”
But Loze just smiled in a slant, as if appreciating my expression, or maybe mocking. A moment after his eyes were down in contemplation, he looked at me so intensely. We were also silent for a moment, enjoying the silence of a few seconds. Moreover, I continued to look seriously at Loze. Ten seconds later, Loze said, “When parents don't know their child, when parents are eager for their child's future! When humans only give hatred to a child! The child will understand something precious .. that love and compassion, feel worthless, when pain is only experienced by yourself, I give you suffering, I give you, in order for you to break that bad mindset of mine, by showing that love and mercy, it is indeed very precious .
“Yes, I've been let down by my parents, I'm let down by my family, they think I'm different, they compare me to other children, they compare me to demean me, even, they compare me to other children, when I tried to demand justice on my family, they scolded me instead, and when the people I trusted betrayed me, that's where my heart was formed, my soul was formed .
”... and with this incident, the people of the city of Artana will think and reflect on this event. Therefore, I hurt innocent people, so that they understand, that knowing themselves, and knowing the human heart, is very important, and for this, will be an example, he said, for people who have empathy to be able to appreciate and help others. I don't want to compete, I don't like being compared, because it's just a sign that they don't know my soul.
”Jadi ... do you want to help me, help to open the hearts and minds of the people of Artana city?“ ask her by asking.
But we just fell silent, pondering over Loze's confusing-sounding words.
”Your words are not deacons! Your actions are not logical!“ jolt Cludy.
”You just haven't understood my words and purpose, you don't know me yet. So stop mocking and start thinking,“ refutes Loze.
”Why don't you spread love to everyone? Killing each other is not the best way,“ I satirize with a serious look.
”You do not understand my talk, mercy is not appreciated in this sad city, only with violence will new humans listen ..“ Loze said.
”Money, enjoyment and heaven, or perhaps God, that is the essential goal of every human being, wherever you go, whether elite school or school in general, still, if it is pain, you will stay away from it, so my goal .. is to set an example for those who have been lulled in pleasure, in order to feel suffering, in order to, they can understand and share happiness in order to form perfection,“.
“Loze, there is nothing wrong if we avoid pain, it is a natural thing,” my protest.
“I want, if one class suffers, then everything suffers, unless you have an absolute way to make our lives happy, forever,” Loze said casually.
“You're doing wrong stupidly! Don't seek justification for your crimes!” tozka snaps inflamed irritated.
“THEN SHOW ME! THAT THIS CITY CAN LIVE IN PEACE AND LOVE CAN BE APPRECIATED ..!” reply Loze with a defiant shout.
We sting, looking at Loze vigilantly.
“Life is not as easy as your bacots! The formalities of the world always point to the poor and the rich! The noble achiever, and the one who is asking for a pack of rice is despicable .. show me that your speech is as easy as it does!” challenge Loze.
“QUICK SHOW BEDEBAH!” the hardic.
“AAAAARRGGGHHHHHHH ...,” Tozka shouted with a run full of anger at Loze.
'DOOOR', it was a firearm explosion, right, Loze's gun firearm.
But thankfully, his shot to the ground, not hitting Tozka, even so, Tozka immediately shook in shock, especially he immediately dropped in the grass. It was as if it had lost its life.
“Unlike that Loze, it all depends on each person, look! We can't judge things from one point of view alone, but we're the fools! Because human perspectives are different!” my exposition.
“But .. pain is still pain, anyone who drowns in suffering, he will cry too,” Loze sangkal.
“You just need to enjoy life! You don't have to be overwhelmed by your suffering! Life will continue to flow when you relax in responding to life!” sela Anka's.
“A lot of fools have said that! All they see is selfishness! Always want to win by yourself! It's just nonsense, and not wanting to understand the meaning behind evil, therefore, whatever the reason, evil is still formed, because, someone always has a desire" Loze critiques.
”Do you know, the definition of human feelings is different? Do you know, that bad guys are more desirable to get rid of?“ insinuations.
”WHATEVER THE REASON FOR HIS CRIME! STILL CAN'T BE DONE!“ anka's jolt was upset.
”Yes! That's my point! We are just would-be criminals, criminals will only be hated, then humiliated! And with this death, this city will only be inhabited by good men! There's no place for bad guys!“
”I DON'T WANT TO DIE! I'M NOT A VILLAIN!“ jakak Wisty protested.
”I ... I still want to survive .. because I still want to be proud of my parents! I hiks .. want to continue my education to college ... I STILL HAVE MY AMBITIONS!“ wisty complained loudly.
