Festive Collection

54 EPS. RETURN THAT FEELING?

Love in the past is easily forgotten. But what if the love of the past came back? A little something like that?… That question always rings in my head.

When the break arrived, I took the time to open my facebook account. And when I opened the notice, I found her account name like in the photo that I uploaded yesterday with Jihan, my comrade in arms when Junior High. Looking at her profile picture, I remembered the senior figure of Junior High who I used to like while still following the extracurricular Hizbul Wathan. He was a nice-haired man and looked ordinary. The reason I like him, is because he's a very unique person. Although his face is not as handsome as One Direction personnel, but he has a trait that is difficult to find in other men.

He's Andik Athfala, who will probably never be able to understand my feelings and just think of me as a friend, nothing more. Honestly, I'm still waiting for him.

One day, I visited the Regional Library, taking a Saturday off. I'm looking for fluff about Multimedia Tools knowledge. When I found the book I was looking for, I reached my feet and reached for the top shelf but my efforts were free.

Suddenly a pair of hands touched my waist and lifted me up easily. When I came down, I looked at him.

“Kak Andik's. Brother Andik how are you?” I covered half my face with a book. The one who lifted me up earlier, it turned out Andik. He's getting taller and.. thin mustachioed! Hahaha.I laughed in my heart. Funny for him now.

“Good news, Lya. Long time no see. Tumben is getting easier. You used to be stamped. Hahaha..” his candanya started our conversation. Although a little painful to say like that, but yes it's okay. ‘Count-count, make join roll movie memories.’ thought I.

“By the way, now brother of work or college? How does it seem to relax aja.” my question. “Currently still idle, Ly. Wait for a call from PT Mataram Sakti.” Answer while opening the book “Antology of Poetry: Pertama” Love that he took from the shelf. We talked for a long time and when the clock showed at 11:30, I said goodbye because I had to work with a group and took my bag at the table. And I forgot that my diary crashed when I picked up the phone to record her phone number.

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Andik saw my diary lying on the table. He picked it up and read the name in the right corner of the caver. His eyes widened and then ran out carrying my diary. He chased the taxi that took me away, but in vain. He finally decided to bring home my diary.

He read every detail of my diary. He laughed at times when he read it, and when he opened the next page, he was stunned when he read my writing about it.

August 23, 2013, My first sight

I don't think I like people who don't love me. It's useless if I give myself up for him if he doesn't love me. It is impossible when love comes and sensitizes itself without effort. But, in my heart I was fully convinced, one day I would have it another way.

Andik Athfala, the man who until now always filled my mind room and made it difficult for me to sleep. His smile made me happy half to death. The song “Heavy Rotation” makes me unable to forget it for a second. I had to suppress this feeling so that God could plan something I would never expect. I don't want it if I'm a pussy, but God doesn't plan it all. And I hope he is my next life.

Lord, let me suppress this feeling until he truly understands my feelings. Although I was never sure if this feeling would persist and come back or not. I give and give everything to You. Because I'm just a little girl who's getting to know first sight love (love at first sight).

For Brother Andik, even if brother is not destined to have, but at least we can have a friendship that will be forever remembered. Just being your best friend I'm lucky enough, especially if it's more than that? I don't want to expect too much to have you, so I can be with you, all the while…

Lyana Tsary Fathun's

It turned out that he realized that he was really late to understand how I felt about him, first. Her tears were dripping and she regretted something. If only, he had followed his friend's advice to open his heart to me, maybe he and I were now more than just friends.

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On his Sunday, I restlessly paced in front of the gate of the Regional Library. ‘How about he laughs while reading that?’ my thinking. Now my brain is as chaotic as thinking of my diary that was held by him.

When I saw her coming, she suddenly hugged me and I felt my shoulders wet. She was crying. I know she was crying. ‘But, what makes her cry?’ my question is in my heart.

“Lya, I'm sorry I wasted you. I'm sorry, Lya.” The moaning, the more he tightened his embrace and my shoulder got wet. “Sorry? Sorry why, brother? What does sister mean?” many confused. He stretched his arms and looked at me with his crooked eyes.

“I'm sorry I wasted your feelings on me first. I'm sorry I never understood your love for me. I'm sorry, Lya.” regretted it.

My tears fell slowly, then the beautiful lines of my lips formed a happy smile. “So, brother now understands how I feel? From my diary?” my many. He nodded, then took my hand.

“Honest, Ly. I used to like you too. But, I think that feeling was just passing by, for a second. It turns out my guess was wrong. Until now, I still have that feeling in my heart, so deep as you harbored your feelings for me.” she explained in a gentle tone.

“Akupun hopes that the feeling will again fill the emptiness of my heart. And I also hope, that feeling back you remember and you fight.. With me.” he continued. I got late in this atmosphere, no matter the vehicles that passed by on the road saw us confused.

“I have graduated SMK, and you just occupied the 2nd class of SMK. Our majors are different, I'm automotive, you're multimedia. But at least our hearts both feel this feeling, equally tormented with this longing.” he said again. I'm speechless. Only tears kept dripping nonstop.

“So, return that feeling of love to your little heart? Return the feelings of your love that I used to always ignore and I consider a ‘lejoke’ it?” askinya.

I smile. I whispered a series of words that he did not expect and he was amazed.

“Yes, that feeling came back to the surface of my little heart and was like a rose. The feeling is still there, because this heart I will present to you later.” Whisper as I close my face to her ear. I also kissed her cheeks.

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