Festive Collection

EPS 34'S. I'M SORRY

I feel like screaming! But everything is real in front of the eyes. It felt like rebelling and protesting against all the really compelling decisions. I'm not ready yet. Ready for all this shock to hear the news about you. News of you having an accident at that time. I'm here waiting for you because of your promise.

Now you are lying stiff. With your little smile your eyes are closed helplessly to all your circumstances. I think I'm going to chase all your souls. It feels like I'm going to find your spirit that's been taken flying WHO HAS you all. And I'm just a temporary stopover in your life story. In fact, you have no power to reject all your destiny. Your destiny requires stopping through the winding paths of life. Deciding the story along with me in beautiful plans to create a history of love.

Just this you're done before you stir up conflict in our household. Before we begin everything in that sacred kabul. You've already ended it.

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" What does all this mean?" ask me to weep with sobs and pain because now you are gone.

" Patience Dina! Eza has to go home." said Fanny while stroking my shoulder that still shakes because of my crying.

" This is unfair! Why should God give precedence to the young Eza while there are still many people who are old waiting for his call." protested Dina who consciously said so. It's possible that Dina is currently in a mess. Think of not being able to think healthily. He was just disappointed and sad. Why did his lover leave him and this world.

Fanny hugged her best friend. Fanny knows very well, Dina knows very well his destiny theory. But when truly confronted in reality and befalling upon himself, it also takes positive strength and synergism to shepherd all that is lost and gone from his life.

" I still want to be here, accompanying Eza. Eza himself is lying here." said Dina while sobbing and staring fixedly at the face of Eza who was still stretched stiff.

" Let aunt and om Eza accompany him. They were also devastated by Eza's departure. Eza's parents must have grown sad when they saw you like this. Go Dina!" bring Fanny back.

" No! Later then! Eza wants me to stay. Look at! She was sad when I was about to leave her." said Dina as she rubbed the stiff cheeks of her lover Eza.

Fanny slightly forcedly raised Dina's arm leaving the seat near Eza. Dina was still unable to control herself when in that grief. That's what Fanny can't keep watching that scene.

" Come! We take ablution water first and pray and pray Eza. Once you calm down, you can sit down to accompany Eza. But promise me well, sit praying for Esa. No more hysterical crying over Eza's departure again" Fanny told Dina.

Dina followed Fanny's invitation to take ablution water, pray and pray. Dina does not understand religious law. Dina is not a person who will not be the year that destiny means. Everything is written in the books of God. The provisions of the soul mate, sustenance, death are written in the book of Lauhul mahfud. Man's life and death are written in the book either dying of illness or by whatever means there is already his provision. Allahualambisowab.

(Jambi, January 15, 2022)