Fear of Falling in Love

Escape (Resyani Ananda Putri)

The night is getting late. Soon the dawn will arrive. But my eyes cannot be closed. My heart is unsettled. Anxious at the thought of Gibriel. I met him this afternoon. He looked messy, his face was pale, there was a black part on the bottom of his eyes when I asked him what the problem was he just answered he was agitated and scared because of the terror that threatened him all the time. God, he's a mess because of me. I was the one who sent the terror for him.

Terror from Nindya must be stopped. I can't possibly make Gibriel more agitated and depressed. L loved her. The light bulb in my head on signifies that I found a brilliant idea. The idea of stopping Nindya's terror but I didn't spend any money. The idea that popped into my head was to run as far away from this city as possible. Yeah, I know running is cowardly, but this is the best way. Nindya will never be able to do terror alone and gradually the terror disappears by itself.

I got out of bed and opened the closet. I picked up a big suitcase, and a few pieces of clothes. I put the clothes in the suitcase.

Well, now ready to go far away from this city. Before I left I wrote a letter to Gibriel.

Dear Gibriel

When you read this letter, I am far from your life. You need to know I love you but I also make you restless. I am the one who sent the terrorists to you, I did this because I had to. Nindya is the mastermind of this terror.

He forced me to terrorize you for wanting to avenge his sister.

I apologize for all my mistakes. I hope you don't get revenge on me. Although my body goes away from you but in this heart there is only your name. I'm sure if you're my soul mate, love will bring us back together.

By the one who loves you

Restyani Ananda Putri's.

The letter I wrote was put on the table. After that, I set my foot to leave. Goodbye my beloved room.

Chequek!

How surprised I was when I opened the door. Has stood straight Nindya in front of the door of the room. His eyes glared and he carried a sharp knife. Fuck me! I retreated, my body trembling with fear.

Nindya kept moving forward. “Where are you going? Want to run away and renege on our agreement?” nindya.

I kept retreating until I was cornered in the corner of the room and could not go anywhere anymore. Nindya smiled cynically. It was right in front of me. His hand suddenly grabbed my hair. I grimaced, but he got stronger. “Resty, you can't just go. Lo must do the last task of me.”

“What task again? I've done everything you asked.”

“Vindy is now in the hospital and your last task is to kill Vindy!”

“Lo crazy! Isn't your main goal just to make Gibriel regretted for being rude to your sister?”

“It was originally like that but everything changed, Vindy knew all our plans. If Vindy realizes we're all going to jail.”

“Gue would never want to kill Vindy and hurt Gibriel. Vindy is the only person Gibriel loves.”

A slap from Nindya landed on my cheek. “Oh, so you dare to go against my will? You don't want to do it because you love Gibriel, do you?"

Nindya was not satisfied just to look at and grab my hair, her right hand was now strangling my neck.

“Resty, you want to die now or obey my orders?”

“I'm not going to kill Vindy.”

Nindya grew increasingly violent, implied by the look in her eyes. His hands further strengthened the strangulation on my neck. The chuckling made it hard to breathe. I can only surrender. If I have to die in Nindya's hands, I will. I only wish to die in a state of solemn khotimah.

My eyes blurred. I feel the end is near. May when I open my eyes I be in heaven with the one I love. “Goodbye to the world, goodbye Gibriel. I love you until the end of my breath,” I said before closing my eyes. Suddenly everything was dark.

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I woke up from the stupor. I found myself tied up in a chair and locked in an empty room, tightly shut. I remember the previous events. Last night he wanted to go far away suddenly Nindya came to tell me to kill Vindy. Because I don't want Nindya to end up strangling my neck after that I don't remember anything anymore. Thankfully, God still loves me and still allows me to breathe in the world.

The room is dark and still smells of paint. I try to orient myself. My head was still dizzy and my mind was still not recovering everything.

I began to realize that this room was windowless. It consists of four walls. Up there about ten centimeters from the ceiling, there are two ventilation holes that are only as wide as my palm. From there came a little light.

I also felt my mouth not being bandaged or gagged by a handkerchief. I wonder how they would react if I screamed? Will they come to torture me? Then I should just keep quiet without reminding them of my presence in this room. But if there was someone outside the house who could help me and I didn't scream how would anyone know that I was locked and this room?

I sharpened his sense of hearing. I can't catch any sound from the outside. Is there no one in this house? Or is the wall of this house too thick so that it is not translucent? If only I could not hear the sound from outside. It's free for me to scream.

Why am I locked in this room? Why didn't Nindya just kill me? Does he want me to starve to death in this room? Inner wondering. My hair stood up instantly.

To die of hunger is not a good way to die. Much suffering before death picked him up. How long can people die of hunger? One week, two weeks, or even a month?

Yes, Allah. Keep that fate away from me. If it is true that his fate must indeed die in this place let me die without suffering, my prayer in heart.

The call to God reminds me. Why do I ask to die without suffering? Why not ask for life? I immediately changed his plea, O Lord save me from this peril! Don't let them kill me.

Without realizing it her tears were dripping down her cheeks. I don't want to die. Why should I die? I have never been cruel to anyone. I do not deserve this punishment! Why am I being punished for someone else's fault? Why is it that the person who harmed Vindy was let go, while I who only exposed the evil she just had to die? Oh, God, this is unfair! My cry in my heart.

My tears are no longer just tears flowing in silence. My cry took the form of sharp sobs shaking my body. Will anyone save him? I wish Gibriel Alexander could find my whereabouts.