Fear of Falling in Love

Wedding Invitation (Marcha Agnia)

7 Months later.

Gerald again gave me a surprise. The surprise he gave me today was to take me all day to a beautiful place I had never been to in Germany. Satisfied and happy, those two words describe my feelings.

Return home at four o'clock in the afternoon. I'm tripping bags looking for house keys. Suddenly my eyes caught a light blue piece of paper and a plastic wrap tucked under the door. I was curious, squatting down and grabbing the paper. I smiled knots, it turned out that the paper tucked under the door was an invitation. Tucked Tanya in the heart, “Who sent you the invitation? And this is the wedding invitation who tried?”

In front of the invitation is not at all written the names of the two brides who are married only the initials of the two brides. The initials C&G. My friends with the initials G are Gibriel, Gerald, and Gerhard. Gibriel's? Cannot be. He's Resty's legal husband. Resty can't allow her to remarry. Whose invitation is this? Can't dong an unknown person invite me to his wedding?

Curiosity is getting bigger. I took out the plastic cover that covered the invitation. I read the invitation directly.

Who will be married :

Cicilia Setyawati

Binti Jordi Setyawan's

With

Gerhard Errando

Bin Delano Alexander's

The Wedding takes place at :

Day, Date: Sunday, 07 July 2017

Time: 09.00 WIB

Place: Perum Bukit Golf Arcadia Housing Block E5 no 21 Leuwinaggung Gunung Putri Bogor 16963.

Duars!

My heart was struck by lightning reading the name written on this invitation. I rubbed repeatedly hoping my vision was wrong but the results remained the same. The name written on the invitation has not changed, but Gerhard. It's a nightmare for me.

Without even dripping these tears from my eyes. My chest is tight, my heart aches to read the name of the bridegroom on this invitation.

Gerhard Errando, the name of the man who has stayed in my heart for the past 1 year, the man who proposed to me through the German national event. Now I have to accept the bitter fact that he will marry another woman for another 3 weeks.

I wanted her to marry another woman because I realized I didn't deserve her. He's too good for me. I feel even more guilt for my cousin, Gibriel Alexander. But not so fast this time either. I still love her so much and I'm not ready for her to belong to another woman.

I squeezed this invitation, then I threw it away. The longer I look at this invitation, the more my heart aches. It is better that this invitation be eliminated from before me.

Drrrt ... Drrrt!

My HP vibrated from behind the shirt pocket. I took that HP. On the HP screen there are 2 messages received simultaneously. One by one, I started reading the incoming messages.

The first message I read from Cicilia.

**From : Cicilia**.

*Hay, Martha. You've received an invitation from me? Now it proves that my words are real. I am Gerhard's soul mate. Now enjoy your fatherhood, Martha. Oh yeah don't forget to come to our wedding let's add baper*.

The second message from the original Mareth.

Suddenly my mind drifted to the time 9 months ago, the last time I met Cicilia.

“Nih, I tell ya, Denger well! Gerhard proposed to me this morning to make piano and sing on tv. She's a real romantic. Soon she'll be mine.” I intentionally manas-masi him.

Cicilia's eyes bulged even almost out. “While he has proposed to you, I'm sure you won't marry Gerhard. He's mine, point.”

I carved a sly smile. “We will see who will match Gerhard. But get ready for heartbreak yes.”

“Yang no you ready heartbreak.” He shouted threateningly and then left the Maretha apartment. Good, so I don't have to be tired of throwing him out. In my heart I was anxious to think of Cicilia's words. What if it turns out I'm the heartbroken one to see Gerhard and Cicilia unite?

Stop, remember the past. The past let it pass. I wipe away the tears that flooded the cheeks. True, said Mareth, I must take Gerhard. Maybe this is the best way. I don't want my ex's invitation to happiness today to be broken. I hurried into the room. Sheila on 7 is titled Stop Expecting. Only that song fits my current mood.

While listening to the song, my fingers danced nimbly typing in a text reply for Cicilia and Maratha.

Happy new life to Cicilia. I admit you're the winner getting Gerhard's love. I must have come. You won't see my fatherhood, because I came with him as my future husband. All of you want to invite me to you.

The Sent to Cicilia.

Yeah, calm down I'm okay. I've been taking Gerhard off for a long time. Thanks for your attention.

Sent to Martha Agnia.

I deliberately texted them like that, purposely showing them both that I was a strong woman. Although my tongue says ‘nothing’ but still this heart nyesek carried away feelings.

***

The strange feeling has disappeared nine months, why is it now back in the corner of my heart. I myself wonder of so many hundreds of millions and even billions of men in the world, why should he have the key of my heart?

Two days ago I met Gerhard at a wedding dress boutique. She's with Cicilia, maybe doing wedding dress fittings. I went to that boutique just like Gerhard. My marriage to Gerhard was only 10 days. I picked the date 17-07-2017. Of course the groom's Gerald.

Maybe this is what is called destiny. When I tried my best to avoid him, instead of disappearing, love was getting closer and stronger in my heart. I should how?

If Doraemon really existed in the world, I would have visited even in any hemisphere. I want to ask Doraemon to bring out a magical tool that is able to eliminate the feeling of lodged in the heart in a short time. I hate that feeling, because it can drown me in old wounds.

I felt someone touch my shoulder, looking to the right. It turns out that Martha Agnia, a friend who never tired of helping me. Without him, I wouldn't be able to stay in Germany for a year. I became an international best seller novelist thanks to borrowing his name.

“Lu what is dumbass in front of laptop? Think of him again?”

He must have read the synopsis of my new novel. Although I have announced retreat from the world of literacy, but that does not mean stop working dong? Five months ago, I decided to become a ghost writer for a famous novel. The character of the new novel I'm hoping for reminds me of Gerhard. That is why it prefers to be dumb in front of the laptop.

I answered her question with a small nod. “Your problem is actually simple, you simply admit that you love her the same. That way you can slowly take him off.” Maratha is indeed good at advising people who are experiencing love turmoil.

I breathed heavily. “Acknowledging that love is not as simple as you imagine, Ret. There will be great danger ready to seize what I have now if I do that.”

“Huft, it's hard too. Then you have no choice but to surrender with destiny. I always believed in the end love could never hurt anyone.”

I'm speechless. What Mareth says has a point. I had no choice but to surrender to fate.