Fear of Falling in Love

The Last Farewell (Gibriel Alexander)

4 Years Later

Kringg …!

The sound of the clock wipes out my whole beautiful dream. Ouch, why does the clock sound all the way? I just slept. With my eyes closed I fumbled at the table beside the bed, want to see what time it is?

Yes, I finally found the alarm clock. I opened my eyes immediately I saw a short clock to the number 5, while the long clock to the number 12. So, 5pm dong? I remember I was sleeping at 2pm. Tumben-tumbenan my alarm clock sounds at 5 pm? Yes, but now I want to sleep again.

***** … *****

Just now I want to close my eyes now the HP that sounds. Ah, sucks! Why HP and the alarm clock sound in the near future. I went back to rapping the bed looking for HP that was bumping again where. After I met I saw the HP screen, to find out who the hell is calling or texting me at this hour? Just disturb me from sleeping!

It turns out that my guess was wrong. HP sound is not because there are sms or people calling but an alarm clock. On the HP screen it says Anniversary I same Helena who is 4 years old.

My eyes were wide open to see the writing on the HP screen. I swear, I forgot today is Helena's fourth birthday. I got up from my sleep and rushed to the bathroom. Can say hello to Helena if I arrive late.

30 Minutes later.

I finished my shower and dressed. I stood in front of the mirror that was attached to the wardrobe. Want to smear the hair first with hair gel continue to shave the beard so it looks more cute. I was born cute bin handsome, Kevin Aprilio just passing by. But there is no harm in dong I give myself again before coming to the historic day?

In addition to my birthday, today I also want to propose to Helena. I'm 25 years old and I should have thought of a wedding. In addition to that on the written inheritance list the inheritance will be given to me after I get married. And I think today is the right day to propose to Helena.

Helena's the right woman to be my life partner. In addition to her beautiful face, her heart was also soft as silk. He just accepts me for who I am. I'm orphaned, I'm unemployed and I still have so many shortcomings. One more advantage Helena can also love Vindy Princess.

“Yes, my sip is so cute! If it is so cute like this, Helena will not be able to reject my application,”, I said speaking in front of the mirror.

Dandan already, now just go to the made up place. Eits, but before leaving I take HP first. My fingers are dancing nimble typing an SMS for someone.

To: Helena Bebebs Beloved

Bebs, today so are we not living on our fourth anniversary? You want to celebrate where. Love u's.

Send to Helena Bebebs.

A few seconds after the SMS sent my HP lit up again. I intentionally matiin ringtone, so if there is a text in it the screen is just lit so it is not noisy. On the HP screen it says 1 message received from Helena. Click open to read SMS.

From: Helena Bebebs

So dong bebs. I wait in the usual place. I want to do something really important.

I nodded my head to understand the meaning of the usual place that Helena mentioned via text. The place is usually in Restaurant Segarra, it is the most romantic restaurant in Jakarta. It's near the beach. So if you eat there we can enjoy the breeze of the beach and the pounding of the waves.

Restaurant Segarra witnessed my love for Helena for four years because I met Helena there, every date there and today I proposed to Helena there too.

I'm out of the room. Suddenly I saw Vindy again watching tv in the family room. Regular hour like this is the show Korean drama Vindy stand by in front of the tv. Vindy is Korean Lovers.

“Ciyee .. her makeup is so neat! Where are you going kak?” ask Vindy.

“Cause, today is my birthday with Helena who is the fourth year.”

“Without you telling me, I'll do it anyway. I even did it today. Do you agree that Helena is your sister-in-law?”

“Agree really pack. If Helena is my sister-in-law, I will not be lonely anymore deh no me nemenin shopping to the mall, cooking and most importantly there is a nemenin I watch Korean drama.”

Stay in the brain of Vindy Korean drama. “Still yes! Oh yes brother go first yes you keep the house well, do not go anywhere and if there is anything immediately contact brother!”

“OK, Brother. Just relax!” I kissed Vindy's forehead. My habit before leaving must have been to kiss Vindy's forehead first as my affection to her.

Pamitan and kissed Vindy's forehead already, now just leave for restaurant Segarra. In a matter of hours Helena will be my future wife.

***

Upon arrival at Segarra's restaurant, my body pegged, and my mouth could not speak anymore. The factor is not because of the atmosphere in the restaurant but the scenery in front of my eyes is very painful. Helena, the woman I loved for 4 years she is now again engrossed in kissing and making out with other guys in front of my eyes. Who wouldn't be hurt to see that?

I clenched my hands and stepped forward. I can't wait to see that non-jok jerk. It seemed to seize my future wife and ruin the atmosphere of my anniversary with Helena.

Buk up!

One tonjok I managed to land the cheek of that jerk. Fresh blood flowed at the corner of his lips. Rasain, that's not how much. The guy got up and he hit me back. This guy can too. Look who won.

“Stop stop! You're like little boys fighting in public! Gibriel, lo why the hell come-come directly play just aja!” exclaimed Helena tried to break up my dispute with that guy.

“What should it be me, why do you love other guys on our fourth birthday?” my tone started to rise.

“Sorry I Gib, this is what I want to tell you. I know it hurts you, but I have to be honest. My heart loves Farhan. And from this moment on I return all your love, I no longer need. Thank you for the love you have given me over the past 4 years. Sorry, I can't continue our relationship. Goodbye!” helena. After saying that Helena passed from before me she went with that jerk.

I still speak a thousand languages. The words coming out of Helena's mouth were as sharp as a 70 cm katana. It hurts my heart to hear his words. I kicked what bottles, paper and leaves were scattered on the ground in front of my feet.

Although I am again emotional but will not kick the table and ravage the restaurant. If I do that it could be out of money or worse it could be a case.

I moved my feet closer to the beach. Without terrace mat ague water droplets flow from the eyelids. This is the second time I have shed tears. The first time I saw my dead body.

This beach is a historic place for me and Helena. Witness of our love. We often joke with laughter, and run around on this beach. Now all is gone, just a bitter memory. I pulled my own hair. I did not end piker why my fate is so good. I just want to be happy because today I want to propose to Helena but it turns out I have to accept the harsh reality. The fact that Helena is not my soul mate, she went to see me on the day of her fourth anniversary.

“Arggghh .. Why is God unfair? Do I not deserve to be happy?” I screamed loudly. I don't care about the people around me. Let them think I'm crazy. I admit I'm crazy, crazy about Helena.

“GUE DON'T WANT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH GIRLS ANYMORE! GIRLS ARE JUST POISON OF THE WORLD!” yell at me once more.

Miraculously, instantly the tightness in my chest disappeared in an instant. Sure, it can be a bit of a relief to my heart but still this pain is still felt. Only time can heal my wounds.

I haven't felt like I've been on this beach for an hour. The sun no longer shows its light, it means that the task of carrying out the word of his Lord has been completed. Now it is the turn of the moon and the star that obeys his Lord's command to light the night.

The light of the moon and the stars will not be able to shine on my dark heart. Only Helena can shine.

Since my heart felt good, I decided to go home. Why have you been here for so long? The body I have bentol-bentol kissed mosquitoes I am a very sweet person. Goodbye to the restaurant Segarra! I will not set foot here again. For me this place is just a sweet and bitter memory.