Dusk At the End Please

I Miss You, Brother!

200 Rice box package 1,

10 Sacks of rice size 25 Kg,

Ready to slide to Pameungpeuk at two this afternoon.

Shanum rented an open tub car that had been covered in tarpaulins to deliver the order to Pameungpeuk. Mileage and road conditions are a consideration Shanum sends orders with tub cars. He told people to deliver the order because it was a long distance away so he could not drive it himself.

'Orders are being delivered, thank you for entrusting us with the fast menu. Enjoy, may you be satisfied and the provision is more abundant blessings'

It was a message that Shanum sent to each of his customers. He pinned the do'a at the end of his speech, hoping that the customers of the mother's stall were satisfied with the food and service and they re-ordered.

"Teh, would there be a reunion event at Al-Kausar Junior High School, would you like to participate? kan teteh alumni too" asked Indri on the sidelines of their break after breaking the fast.

When breaking the fast arrives all workers are obliged to stop their activities. Visitors to the stalls that open there are sure to have received their orders a maximum of ten minutes before the breaking time arrives. So that when the breaking time arrives all visitors and workers simultaneously open together in the family room of the house of Bu Hana. Shanum deliberately gave a free certificate to each customer.

"Don't know In, there's no plan yet" Shanum replied with a flat face, he already knew there would be a Junior reunion of banners attached to the street that was passed when going to the market, but he is still reluctant to follow because it will certainly remind him of the memories when with Akhtar first.

"Follow me Tea, let me have peace. He said his entertainment was the artist of the capital you know tea. After all, I have said that since moving to Bogor have never met again the same old friends" said Indri ended with weirdness.

"Yes, right now I have never met Junior High School friends again even though it has been almost four months in Garut" Shanum added.

"Makanya atu teas, a sneak list. Already joined whatsapp alumni group?" ask Indri again.

"Yet" Shanum replied briefly.

"Teteh don't have a special alumni group?" Indri again confirmed, he turned closer to sitting near Shanum.

"No" Shanum replied casually.

"The college Alumni Group?"

"No"

"High School Alumni Group?"

"No"

"Of course SD?"

"No"

"Gusti...si Teteh, where to go or Tea? kiwari era (now) does not have an alumni group, really too. Where is ari teteh? though the word of Bu Muslimah teteh active and famous student tea in his time. Later I enter the group to reunion Junior High tea. There will be a new generation too. Kan now he said a grand reunion of 20 generations of tea" Indri continued chattering, feeling astonished by his cousin's brother. In the midst of this sophisticated technological development, he did not have a single school group.

Indri is an alumni of the same school with Shanum only their generation is far enough, he used to also live in a dormitory so he knew a lot about Shanum when he was in Junior High School. Many teachers like to ask where Shanum is. They often talk about being active students. Shanum was quite famous in school at his time.

Shanum just smiled in response to the babbling of his cousin's sister. Among his many cousins only Indri was the bravest with him. Their age difference is quite far, Indri who just finished High School chose to join help Shanum and his mother. Several times Shanum told him to go to college, but he always said he was not mentally and physically ready for college. Both of his parents did not force Indri to go to college, considering he used to be sickly.

"Let's pray, talk (chat on). Customers already want to go home tuh" Mother's instructions stop Indri babbling. He immediately rushed to clean the dishes and his used glass broke open and immediately went to the toilet to take ablution.

"Teh, congregate yes" Indri asked Shanum and answered a nod of the head by Shanum.

After breaking the fast as well as praying, Shanum returned to his position in the stall that is the cashier section. He looked around the shop. It still seemed that people were enjoying their meal with occasional interspersed chatter. In the area of Shanum mushala also saw some people began to pray.

Behind the house that has a spacious yard Shanum built a wooden babancong that serves as a mushala fit for four to five congregational prayers. Shanum made the building inspired by the babancong building in Garut square.

Babancong building is a stage building, octagonal, roofed tajug, with eight cylindrical pillars supporting the roof. At the bottom there are curved niches as many as eight pieces.

Babancong located in Garut square, there are two sides of the stairs to climb the building, which is currently given an additional door of iron. The cheeks of the babancong staircase are patterned with curved branches such as snake scales, floor covering of the stairs from ceramics, which seems to be a new addition. Roof cover in the form of glazed concrete tile which is also a new addition. The building material of babancong is a pair of plaster bricks painted in white.

Shanum seemed to make a miniature of babancong in Garut square, as if, only he modified some of the materials used are from wood and there is only one ladder consisting of five steps to enter and exit the babancong.

A place of ablution and toilets are provided adjacent to the babancong. For ablution built on a fish pond to facilitate the flow of water. Shanum deliberately built it behind the house that was originally used for gardening and a fish pond that was not too big by Mr. Imran.

The existence of the garden there is not eliminated, Shanum beautifully arranged the garden planted with various spice plants such as ginger, turmeric, and turmeric, cayenne pepper and some cassava trees that surround the fish pond and there are also guava and mango trees that are quite leafy, the leaves are, so when performing prayers visitors can feel the coolness that comes from the wind blowing on the trees as well as the sound of gurgling water flowing into the fish pond.

Due to time and place limitations, Shanum only receives a maximum of thirty visitors each day. They reserve the place and the maximum menu the day before. Visitors are given a time limit from four in the afternoon to seven in the evening to be there. After that time the stall will close because the owner will perform the best prayer.

The time shows at six 45 minutes, Shanum gives a code with the clang of a bell that visitors only have about fifteen minutes left to be there. This is done so that visitors immediately prepare to go home.

There were some people who protested with time restrictions made as a rule in Shanum stalls, they regretted the time limitations when there were still many visitors who wanted to eat there. But Shanum only replied with a smile and gave an excuse that was easily accepted by the visitors.

He only tried to be consistent with what had been agreed with his Father and Mother, that stall activities should not interfere with worship activities in the month of Ramadan. Mother and Father usually have finished helping around four o'clock. Cooking preparations have been done since morning. The menu offered deliberately a menu that lasts long enough so that even in the afternoon cooking is still good to enjoy when Maghrib arrives.

Even so, these rules do not make Mother's stalls lonely, it is more and more people who queue to be able to open there. Not only that, catering orders are increasing. Sometimes Shanum with a heavy heart had to refuse orders because the quota of orders that day was too much.

At the cashier table Shanum just checked the buyer's visit list today. The payment process is already done by the visitors at the time they arrive. They confirm the order while paying according to the menu they have ordered online. So that when the time shows right at seven o'clock the visitors can immediately leave the mother's stall.

"Tea, there's a salutation" the priest who was cleaning stopped his activities and whispered towards Shanum

"Huh?" Shanum looked up as the cute guy whispered right next to his ear.

"Who's Ceu?" shanum asked casually.

"Ouh, wa'alaikumsalam" Shanum replied with a flat expression.

"Teh Zahra already has a candidate?" Bi Isah who heard the conversation Shanum and Ceu Imas also chimed in. The family in Garut used to call Shanum by his last name, Zahra. In Garut only Junior High school friends who call Shanum.

"I'm married, Bi" Shanum replied casually, he took his salary to recalculate today's financial income.

"Huh, married?" sontak Bi Isah and Ceu Imas were shocked, they did not think that Shanum was married. Shanum's sudden marriage only brought a few core family members from Garut who came to Bogor. Although Bi Isah's house was not far from Shanum's house but she did not know that Shanum was married.

"Where is Teh Zahra's husband?" susul Bi Isah who still looks shocked to know that Shanum is married.

"There's Bi, he's far away. If my in-laws are Jakarta, Insya Allah later ba'da Lebaran they will come here, later I introduce ya" Shanum answered kindly every question Bi Isah, Bi, she did not show any turmoil in her heart when someone asked her about her husband. It was not Shanum's intention to hide her status as a widow, it was just that she felt more secure and comfortable when people found out she was married.

Indri, who knew that his cousin's brother was trying to hide his discomfort when someone asked about it, immediately took a stand. He asked her to help him in the kitchen.

Lebaran is only a week away, Shanum plans to close his H-2 leafan stall. There are still about five days to receive the catering order.

Towards the end of Ramadhan Shanum was not only preoccupied with more and more catering orders, rice orders increased almost twice. Mr. Imran who is in charge of the procurement of rice stocks was a little overwhelmed by the increasing rice orders. Fortunately, the rice harvest from the rice fields of his sisters was deliberately not sold since Mr. Imran sold rice. They work together to fulfill orders.

Time shows at nine o'clock. Shanum and Indri are still busy with recounts of catering orders and reservations for tomorrow.

"Teh, there's another order from Pameungpeuk. This time more Tea" Indri half yelled while reading the order via whatsapp.

After the prayers were celebrated in mosques and tadarus Shanum and Indri checked the catering orders and reservations for tomorrow. While Ceu Imas and Bi Isah have returned to their respective homes. Mr. Imran and Ms. Hana were in her room to rest. Indri, who had since Shanum developed her mother's shop business, helped her and decided to stay with Shanum. Uncle and aunt Shanum did not mind, they were happy if Indri was with Shanum.

"Oh yeah? good dong" Shanum replied casually.

"Yes Tea, 200 rice boxes, 50 pepes of fish, 50 pepes of chicken, 10 packs of mustopa potatoes, and 10 packs of chili fried complete dried tempeh. But he said he wanted to take Teh" Indri explained the details of his order.

"Alhamdulillah, we do not need to bother renting a car like dong again. Make when?" ask Shanum.

"Tea Day" replied Indri

"On behalf?"

"Akhtar Farzan, Tea" replied Indri

Deg...again hearing the name made Shanum's heart beat, his heart a little disturbed curious about the identity of the buyer, but soon Shanum brushed off the noisy thoughts in his head.

"Okay, we accept. Make sure the order for the day after you close yes" said Shanum and Indri nodded, he marked on the notebook and crossed the numbers on the calendar in red ink, a sign that on that day you can no longer accept catering orders.

Shanum and Indri have finished recording orders today that will be executed tomorrow. They each laid their bodies on a thick carpet that was held in the middle room of Shanum's house.

"Teh, can it not?" indri carefully wanted to reveal his intelligence all this time.

"Can you ask what?" Shanum asked back.

"But don't be angry?" Indri seemed hesitant, he made sure that Shanum would not be offended and angry at the question he was about to ask.

"Well....." Shanum instead laughed, he was made anxious with the expression of Indri's face which looked a little scared but his curiosity seemed more domineering.

"You ask what? you will not be angry" Shanum said convincingly.

"Eummhh...why...why does Zahra tea answer married if anyone asks about the status of the tetah? Indri asked with a little stammering.

"Because it's already married" Shanum replied with a chuckle.

"Yes, but the husband has nothing, it means that he is now single, right?" Indri had started to loudly express his heart, he saw Shanum seemed ordinary to hear his question.

"But they don't have a husband or not" Shanum replied casually answering his cousin's question.

"Yes, too, still not sincere with the departure of the husband? so it was difficult to move on" Indri continued his question.

"Ikhlas is something that is not spoken, and it is difficult to realize. We may even forget, that sincere and easy to take off it starts from getting used to the taste and holding the roar of the heart, even sincerity will quickly grow from praying for goodness for those who have messed with our minds and hearts until time gives us a warning and valuable lesson about the meaning of someone's presence in our lives. And at this time just getting used to the taste, help do'a yes. However, loss becomes something that leaves suffering." Shanum answered clearly and straightforwardly Indri's question, he was not offended at all. He felt like he had a friend to share his story with.

"I'm sorry Tea, it's too sassy to make you sad again" Indri apologized with a bent face because he felt that Shanum was sad.

"Idiih, who says it's sad, don't you now want what else? we can share and care" Shanum said while still displaying his cheerful face.

"Honestly yes, right now it is still in the phase of needing someone to strengthen rather than break. People who understand are not just accompanying. And it's like you're a reliable person for that" Shanum turned to sleeping sideways to face his cousin.

" Aah.teteh can only" Indri slightly blushed with Shanum's praise. Shanum deliberately spoke like that so that Indri did not feel guilty and awkward.

"Indri, sometimes we need to accept a destiny to be happy, because the storyline compiled by God is more beautiful than what we think. When our hearts say we want, sometimes God says wait. That's where we have to be patient in the process, because there is no easy process for beautiful achievement"

"Today we are just following the path God has set, facing reality, going through his trials, enjoying each process and being grateful for all His gifts. Believe me all this is the process of maturing to become a better person. Praying is still, hopefully it can be a better person" concluded Shanum ended his sharing session with Indri.

"Aah..teteh I became sad and proud of you, love you full we are anyway mah" Indri woke up from his sleep, he said, he stretched out his arms wanting to hug Shanum and was reciprocated with a smile and a warm hug by Shanum. He rubbed his cheek behind Indri's back as tears suddenly burst out from the corner of his eye.

"Abang, longing is not created by distance but by feeling. I miss you not because you are far away, but because you have my heart. I Miss You Abang Baihaqi Abdillah. Allahummaghfirlahu warhamhu wa'afihi wa'fu 'anhu" Shanum monologues in his heart.