Dusk At the End Please

Misunderstand

It was a very long night for Shanum, even though he felt his body and heart were very tired today. One night Shanum had just finished cleaning himself, changed his clothes and laid his body on his bed.But until the clock shows three o'clock, Shanum still could not close his eyes.

His mind could not escape the events he had just experienced. She did not expect her decision to open her heart and accept Ahsan was wrong. He too quickly came to the conclusion that Ahsan was the best choice and it turned out that he was wrong. He was again repulsed by the reality he had just seen himself.

Shanum doesn't want to be the third person in someone's relationship. He had already decided to retreat in an orderly and well-spoken manner. He is not confident enough if he has to compete with Suraya, from any side he feels will not be able to keep up with Suraya, Shanum is quite self-aware.

No more tears will accompany her tonight. It seemed like her tears had dried up to cry over the failure of romance for the second time. The more mature he understood, that sincerity does not belong to everyone.

When he got to his house, Liani offered to accompany him to sleep. He was very worried about his best friend. But Shanum assures him that he is fine.

Shanum steadied himself to ignore all the disappointment he felt from people he never thought would let him down, he felt it was his own fault that was too deep of an expectation of creatures.

"There is nothing to be sorry about let alone regretted, all that happened was his scenario My job is to be a good actor in this drama of life. All I need right now is my body is healthy, my mentality is strong, my heart is patient, my soul is firm and my recovery is smooth. For the sake of a bright future, I cannot give up. Remember the original purpose of your existence here, Shanum. Practicing science, working, saving to help the school's younger siblings and sending Father and Mother to the holy land." Shanum continued to speak for himself, motivating himself.

"Subhanallah, Walhamdulillah, Walaailaahaillah, Wallahu Akbar, Abaghfirullah.." repeatedly the word was thrown from his lips but did not make his eyes closed.

Shanum chose to get out of his bed, he walked to the bathroom to take ablution and perform evening prayers.

***

Early in the morning, birds chirping from the back garden of the teacher's office housing complex graced the week this morning.

The weather is quite sunny, the holiday atmosphere is highly anticipated by workers to be able to unwind after a week of work even with just a walk.

After dawn, Shanum runs his holiday activities as usual. Making the house open all the curtains and windows. Let the still cool morning air enter every corner of his house. After the room and the front of his house were finished he turned to the back, the kitchen became his goal now. She cleaned every corner of her kitchen and ended up cleaning the toilet.

At seven all her homework was done, she looked fresher after taking a shower.

Kriuukk.

"Well, the pantesan has exceeded this breakfast time",

If Shanum's usual workday had breakfast at six and thirty minutes later he left for his teaching place. But the holiday routine if not returning to Bogor is cleaning up the house.

So focused on his work that he forgot to prepare breakfast. Usually if the holidays are early in the morning Liani always come and bring him breakfast, but not this morning. Looks like he's still sleeping tired after last night's show.

Tok.dok...

The sound of knocking on the door stopped Shanum's movements that would make fried rice, seeing that there was still rice left in his magic com.

"Surely Liani.." he murmured slowly.

He walked forward to open the door. And how shocked Shanum was when the door opened, in front of him stood a girl who last night introduced herself as Ahsan's future wife.

"Assalamu'alaikum", said Shanum first greet his guests because since then the guest was just standing and looking at him full of search.

"Wa'alaikumsalam", he answered a little sniffly.

"Please come in, brother." Shanum invited his guests in and said to get a drink. But Suraya prevented it.

"No need to bother, sit down. There's something I want to tell you", Suraya ordered Shanum.

Shanum said he was sitting right in front of Suraya and was ready to listen to what Suraya would say to him.

"I don't know what privileges you have that make Ahsan easily turn away from me. But the one thing I want to reiterate here, Ahsan is mine no one can have it but me. If you have enough guts to compete with me, go ahead",

"But just so you know, you'll never win against me. I will do anything to get Ahsan back with me. I don't know what you've given her until she's so crazy about you and ignoring me, but I'm not giving up",

Shanum took a deep breath, he had to be more calm facing a person like Suraya. Shanum is not a person who likes to argue. But he would not remain silent if it came to his pride.

"Sak Suraya, why did you say all that to me?" shanum asked calmly and softly.

"Every night Ahsan said that if he had no taste for me anymore, he called you his future wife. I can't accept it if it's true. I love Ahsan so much, I don't want to lose her." Suraya replied in a more calm tone than before, Shanum's treatment of her made her emotions suddenly subside.

Shanum smiled seeing it, though,

"Sister believe?" ask Shanum again.

"Euum.ya did not know" he replied hesitantly.

"Me and Brother Ahsan have known each other since college a long time ago, he is a second-year-old brother above me that means Big Brother is too. Lately we are closer, often involved in several foundation events make us often meet, even though our teaching level is different",

"He even said he would come to my parents to ask me to be his wife. I don't know if Brother Ahsan still has any business with his past. I guess it's all done and he'll just focus on me now and in the future"

Suraya looked at Shanum sharply, she was still trying to digest every single word Shanum had said.

"But if it's like this, I'm quite self-conscious. Brother take it easy, if indeed Big Brother still claims Kak Ahsan belongs to Brother please Brother fight. I'll back off by myself and in a good way."

Shanum said honestly, he did not want to have a bad relationship with anyone, for him love affairs and heart is a number so let all only himself and God know. He is the one who holds his heart, He knows better who inhabits his heart .

Establishing a good relationship with anyone will be more beautiful in living life, although he believes Ahsan will not be that easy to accept his decision.

Suraya, who heard Shanum's words, was filled with excitement, she did not expect that this girl she met would be that easy to release Ahsan for her. Though he was prepared with all the threats if it turned out that Shanum refused to release Ahsan.

Hearing Ahsan's explanation last night that was so adoring and loving to the girl before him, Suraya thought that she would have trouble talking well with Shanum.

But it turns out he was wrong, Suraya judged Shanum so realistic. The aura of kindness was clearly visible from this girl before him, simple but full of charisma. Now he began to think that maybe Ahsan was interested because of Shanum's simplicity and softness.

"I pray, may all the plans of Brother and Sister Ahsan go smoothly and Allah make it easy. But let me meet and talk carefully with Ahsan. From the beginning the relationship between us was very good, I did not want to end badly. By sitting together and talking to each other properly, God willing, everything can be fine." Shanum said sincerely.

In his heart there was no pain or disappointment when he said that. He had really let go of anything about Ahsan overnight. His experience of failing twice in love made him more resilient and ignored all feelings that would only make him slump.

"Are you serious?" tanya Suraya hesitated and replied a nod accompanied by a smile by Shanum.

"So you haven't loved Ahsan dong?"

Shanum smiled again, astonished at the person before him. Wouldn't it be if he said he loved Ahsan that the girl would be angry?

"Sister, when I care about someone, I'm not kidding. So when I say goodbye" Shanum replied diplomatically.

"aiiihhhh..you are very good, Ahsan is interested" cried Suraya. He switched from his seat and approached Shanum then hugged her from the side.

Shanum who felt that he had a sudden attack was shocked by what Suraya did, he did not expect Suraya to embrace him.

"No need to overestimate Brother, I am indeed not a good person but I am not as bad as Big Brother thought", too",

Suraya then broke her embrace she tilted her body towards Shanum. Suraya slightly bowed to align her body with Shanum who was sitting . He held onto both of Shanum's shoulders and turned Shanum's body towards him. The two of them looked at each other at a very close distance.

At first glance people will see that position like Suraya gripping Shanum's shoulder and is intimidating him.

At the same time Liani came, saw the door of Shanum's official house that opened he immediately entered and found the scene that immediately made him panic.

"Heyyy...stop it!", cried Liani. His voice filled every corner of the room so that it shocked the two people who were facing each other.