Dusk At the End Please

One Dusk in Complex Park

After the lunch break was over, Shanum and Liani returned to their respective classes continuing their unfinished teaching duties. At three o'clock in the afternoon the home bell rings. Stop all teaching and learning activities in each class. Everyone is ready to go back to their homes.

Ashar said Shanum immediately headed to the mosque in the school environment to perform Ashar prayers before returning to his home. After finishing the congregational prayer, Shanum met Liani again. They walked leisurely leaving school towards their respective official homes.

On travel...

Shanum and Liani stopped by the park behind the teacher's office housing complex, in the park Shanum usually likes to spend time in a relaxed time. This time they sat together and talked a lot.

" You're okay, aren't you, Num?" tanya Liani started their conversation.

"Alhamdulillah, why? do I look like a sick person?" Shanum turned his body towards Liani

"Now, it's just that you're okay, I'm still worried about you because what we saw in the cafeteria made you fail to move on" Liani replied honestly.

He was always worried about his best friend that he knew actually Shanum was not okay. Shanum smiled in response to Liani's worries.

"I'm fine, calm down" Shanum assured his best friend.

"Num why do you like to enjoy twilight?" Liani diverted the discussion.

"From the first I really like the atmosphere of twilight like this, especially if you enjoy it in the rice field. Twilight as if whispering a message to us that life does not always run brightly and brilliantly" Shanum replied with full philosophy. His face looked up at the sky which began to show the orange color.

" You're really cool Num, I'm proud to be your best friend. You really are a tough woman, who is able to put her mind forward when all women want her feelings in the future. You are really able to put feelings into place. If I were you maybe I couldn't afford that loud." Liani's words made the atmosphere a day.

"I'm just learning to realize that not everything we want we can have. I just try to give the best I can in every moment of my life. Sometimes we know how much a moment means until it turns into a memory" Shanum said with a face that kept looking up at the twilight sky, he leaned his body against the back of the garden chair by occasionally closing his eyes.

"Why don't you try to defend what you already hold Num?, I think you could have kept Mr. Ahsan because in this case I don't think you're the third person in their relationship. Is it clear that it was Bu Suraya who left Pak Ahsan the day before their engagement? If I think your decision is unfair to Mr. Ahsan, Num",

Liani revealed the grunts that some days she is self-serving. Right now he dared to reveal it because he saw Shanum's already more conducive state.

"You're right Li," Shanum replied without looking at Liani. He straightened his body sitting with a perfect attitude.

"I could have maintained my relationship with Brother Ahsan. I also want to defend it, I feel I have more right to it, especially Brother Ahsan said if he would immediately justify me. I'm happy, at least Mother will no longer think about her first daughter who was preceded by marriage by her sister because it does not practice.haha..." Shanum paused his speech with a loud enough laugh, yet another sound in Liani's ears.

"But.in a relationship not only the readiness of two people is needed, but also the support of other parties, especially the family. They have an important role in supporting our next happiness, and Kak Suraya already has that support. I don't want to push a feeling further if I'm hurt myself in the end."

"You know Li, I was once so in love with men that God rebuked me through heartbreak. Hhe.." Shanum obviously ended up with an oddity. He leaned back into the back of the garden chair.

"Does this also apply to your relationship with Mr Akhtar? haven't you been waiting for him for years? there have been too many sacrifices you have made for your relationship, but what have you got? you should be able to be more assertive, at least he's responsible for the time you've spent waiting for him." Liani more and more blatantly let out her heart.

Shanum took a deep breath, he again looked up and momentarily closed his eyes.

"The thing I was afraid of but could not help but see him happy with a new person after me. Whatever the reason, the breakup is painful. I respect his decision, accept this situation as a process of self-maternity."

"Someone once said if you love someone let him go, if he comes back means he's yours. But if he doesn't come back it means he's not yours. He came back but it was no longer me he was aiming for. Seeing him with other people was hard. Jealous but have no rights haha..."

"But it's okay, I'm trying to understand the situation. We exchanged stories, until he disappeared without any news. I should have known from the beginning that news was important, because it meant that I was still there for her."

"Have it, Li. Why is melow melowan like this.....I just try to live out every provision that God has written for me. Sometimes I like to think, God will tell me what yes, how the process is very gini, haha.." Shanum said again accompanied the laughter with laughter.

"Num if I were you like I was stressed, now I'm the only one who was just horrified so join the stress let alone you ngalaminnya", Liani chimed while clapping her eel.

"Haha.....Already ah, why should stress think of people who never even asked us okay or not. Let us still enjoy our day, even though it turns out to be an adult not as beautiful as our dreams in childhood.hhe.." the rest of Shanum's laughter still accompanies each speech.

"I believe after this in front of happiness is waiting for you, Num" Liani said sincerely.

They also moved from their seats. Just a few steps they were about to leave the park, suddenly the sound of someone stopping their steps.

" Shanum.." call someone who turns out to be Akhtar.

When Shanum and Liani left the school, Akhtar was there. He performed the Ashar prayer congregation in the mosque which is in the high school environment. He did it deliberately because he wanted to see Shanum until he finally followed Shanum to the park without knowing the two and heard all their talk that made Akhtar feel more guilty.

Shanum and Liani turned around, looking at each other as they found out who was the one who stopped them.

"Can we talk for a second?" tanya Ahsan pleaded.

"Sorry sir, now it is out of business hours, if there is an urgent work business that you will convey we should discuss tomorrow, excuse me. ***...."

"Shanum.." - Akhtar stopped greeting Shanum.

Shanum stopped his words, he lowered his face avoiding Akhtar's gaze which had been staring at him since.

"We still have personal matters to discuss. Miss Liani, could you please leave us for a moment?" pinta Akhtar and Liani answered with just a nod of the head. He went away from the two of them.

Stay Shanum and Akhtar both in the garden behind the teacher's office house which is rarely visited by people but looks clean and well maintained.

"Beautiful to the twilight sky today" Akhtar began their conversation, Shanum silently did not reply.

"I miss enjoying the twilight sky in the rice field" Akhtar continued, Shanum was still silent.

"Shanum, I'm sorry" Akhtar began to say seriously.

"When I look into the truth about you, maybe things won't be like this. Maybe we are married and living happily. Forgive me Shanum" Akhtar poured out his heart, he spoke softly with regret.

"Truely said Ahsan, I am indeed a stupid human being who has wasted a woman like you. I was stupid", Akhtar grabbed his own hair with his right hand while his left hand was still faithfully in his pants pocket.

They were currently standing side by side, through his eye gurus Shanum could see what Akhtar was doing. The mood became quiet. Shanum had not yet let out his voice, he was still waiting for what Akhtar would say next.

Akhtar then covered his face with both hands for a while, he then turned to face Shanum. Staring at Shanum so deeply from the side with both hands back in his pants pocket.

Shanum who realized that Akhtar was looking at him became very wrong. He tried to control and restrain his feelings in order to look mediocre.

"Shanum, I still love you, love you so much. Should I take you away from here?" he said full of despair without taking his eyes off Shanum.

Shanum flinched hearing that. He looked towards Akhtar until their eyes met.

"Istighfar, A" Shanum said gently he tried to remind Akhtar while turning his gaze straight ahead.

"Thank God for what I have today. About us, let it be a beautiful story that fills our teenage years. Forget it if it hinders your happiness now and in the future" Shanum continued.

"I've been trying to Num, but the more I try, the more I can't erase everything about us. You are still enthroned in my heart and mind" explained Akhtar softly, he seemed to be trying to hold back the tears.

Shanum took his breath back in him like he was dealing with his disciple who was venting out of a breakup. Imej Akhtar as the head of the foundation is so authoritative and full of charisma poured in front of Shanum.

Without them realizing all their interactions in the twilight park, perpetuated by someone and immediately sent to the application message belongs to the person who told him.

"Fuck!", said the recipient when he saw the image message that had just entered his device.