Dusk At the End Please

Confessions (2)

Akhtar got up from his seat, he left without saying goodbye. Negative speculations sprang up in his mind about why he should marry Raina.

The reason given by his father was unacceptable to his mind, why he forced his will and Akhtar again became the party that had to succumb and be killed. Making filial to parents and meritorious people in his life as an excuse for him not to reject this matchmaking. He had to pawn his love for the job title and popularity that became the father's ambition.

Shadowed by the face of his mother who suffered alone, all this time he did not expect the Mother to bear such a heavy burden and deep wounds. The man she loved so much preferred to be with another woman. Whose heart is not wounded, when his love ends in a lie.

Akhtar still remembers, if the mother always tells good things about her father so that he also made the father as his idol. A good man is a role model for him. Even until the breakup happened, the mother still said that her father was a good man.

Shadows also the face of Shanum, the woman he had loved so much. He had made Shanum wait without any news in a short period of time. But Shanum was able to do it, even though he knew waiting was not an easy job.

And how evil he was, when he came back only gave wounds. Akhtar gives a bitter pill that Shanum must swallow through his match with Raina. His determination was unanimous, to improve everything but again the limitations of his power were unable to reject what had been chosen for him. Akhtar realized, again he gave deep wounds to Shanum.

Akhtar screamed in his heart, a cry that he tried to endure since in the workspace the father finally spilled also after he reached his service home. Two precious women in his life were in such deep pain, and he was unable to do anything about it.

"Arggghhhhhhhh", prankkk.

These two days Akhtar locked himself up he did not want to meet anyone. Until he finally realized, things would not just change.

Akhtar took his gawai, searched for someone's name and tried to contact him.

"Wa'alaikumsalam" he said in response to greetings from someone across the phone.

"Can we meet today?" tannya

"..."

"Okay, I'm waiting this afternoon at the regular Caffe. Assalamu'alaikum." Akhtar ended the call.

And this is where Akhtar is, a caffe not far from the foundation complex. In front of him Ahsan was ready to hear all his complaints.

"Today my father asked me to come back to see him, but I refused because there was no preparation. I haven't held a coordination meeting with the others to take care of your engagement. I'm still waiting for Shanum, he's training in Jakarta. It's been a week and today he should have been back."

Ahsan's voice returned Akhtar's consciousness from his daydream. These few days he was alone thinking about his fate.

Akhtar took a deep breath, since then he just daydreamed and let the ice cream affogatanya melt just like that. Hearing Ahsan mention Shanum's name her heart was sliced back. Given how much his father asked for it would hurt Shanum very much.

"So Shanum's going to participate in my engagement?" ask Akhtar.

"Yes dong, it has to be. All this time, creative ideas have always sprung from it. Your father just gave a thumbs up while reading the report on the concepts of the event that Shanum formulated. He himself asked me to make Shanum participate again in your engagement. Although later there will be from the WO, but all the concepts of Dad want us to make and they just live execution according to our wishes" explained Ahsan at length.

Again Akhtar took a deep breath, his left hand resting with elbow on the table rubbed a glimpse of his face.

'Dad, it seems that dad likes Shanum's performance. He was smart, I knew it a long time ago. If you knew she was the woman of my heart. Will you let Shanum organize my engagement? Didn't you learn from your experience of hurting you? Why do I have to do the same now? Hurt the woman I love. Why would the business of hurting the woman we love have to be passed on to me too? How big is the wound I am going to inflict on his heart?', Akhtar murmured in his heart.

Ahsan again found Akhtar daydreaming. He understood with the obstinacy of his friend and cousin.

" Brother, not everything that we think is bad is not good. There will always be wisdom behind everything. The best for you will never be lost, if it is lost it is not the best",

"Trust me, however hard you try that is not your destiny will find a way to be lost and that becomes your destiny will find a way to come. Everything will improve with time." Ahsan tries to motivate Akhtar. He knew for a few days that his cousin was not doing well.

Akhtar just looked down listening to all Ahsan's advice.

"Blessed, keep everything to worship" Ahsan continued his advice.

"I want to share my happiness with you too"

Akhtar looked up, "Oyes, what is it?" tanyanya.

Ahsan first reviewed the smile before returning to speak, signifying how happy he was with the news he was about to deliver to Akhtar.

"I have managed to get my love. He has opened his heart to me. At least our relationship is now one step ahead", Ahsan's eyes sparkled as he said so.

"So he's back?" asked Akhtar enthusiastically, he was also happy with the happiness of his friend and cousin.

"After three uh four what five well I shot him, he finally accepted me, Bro. Not in vain my struggle so far, I am increasingly convinced that the results will indeed not betray the process. I just need to increase my patience and increase the intensity of the path of the sky, God knows what I ask is what I need not just ambition." Ahsan continued to tell her enthusiastically she did not notice the full facial expression her cousin asked.

"Today he came home, I miss him so much. A week without meeting feels excruciating. I had wanted to pick him up, but he refused because he was going home with his friend and the participant who came from Bandung."

Akhtar frowned more and more, he was full of questions about who exactly the woman Ahsan was talking about.

Ting

The sound of a message notification on Ahsan's phone paused their conversation.

Shane: shanum:

'Brother, the training activities are over. Now I'm just on my way back to Bandung'

Shanum sent Ahsan a message about his return. Since morning Ahsan asked him to announce his return so that when Shanum came home he wanted to wait for him at the gate as at the time of Shanum's return from Bogor. Ahsan replied to the message with an increasingly flowery heart, her lips unable to carve a smile.

"Sunday?" ask Akhtar in wonder.

"Heum...." Ahsan simply replied with deheman while sipping his coffee again, returning to save the device after replying to Shanum's message.

"I haven't seen Shanum for a week, it turns out that misses the heavy haha.", Ahsan spoke casually and ended his laughter feeling amused in front of his cousin.

Jeddeerrrrrr. Akhtar who heard it immediately stared. His body was like being stung by the electricity from that lightning. His tongue was unable to speak. Only his eyes that continued to widen looked at Ahsan sharply, his hands were clenched holding something that wanted to explode in his heart.

"I have loved Shanum for many years, I have also expressed my love many times and many times I was rejected hahaha....." Ahsan started telling me about his story chasing Shanum once in a while he laughed feeling funny with his behavior first, then continued the story.

"Since college I knew him, he's made me fall in love. I feel very comfortable with him. Even then I was too proud to admit it."

"The simplicity he has, the skill he has in hanging out that makes all who know him feel at home with him even though just chatting. When speaking he always prioritizes who is present in front of him, thus making people feel very appreciated. Meeting Shanum I felt like I found the right place to go."

"Shanum is really able to balance my life. Ever since I knew her more, I've liked her more and more and wanted to protect her. Since then I have been determined to get her heart. Even though I was almost going to lose him because he ever wanted to be betrothed to the man of his parents' choice in Bogor. But God has other wills, I feel like God is on my side, still giving me a chance to be with Shanum."

"His life has not been easy, but I have never seen him complain or be disappointed with his circumstances. He was always cheerful and positive-minded in the face of every problem of his life."

"One day he could hardly take an important exam, the cost of which was not covered by the scholarship. I witnessed how hard he tried to solve the problem without burdening his parents. I once offered to help, but he refused with subtlety. Maybe he thinks I'm a thank you when I want to help him, because two days earlier I shot him and he refused, hee..." Ahsan again chuckles on the sidelines of the story.

"The reason is because he wants to focus on his studies, as a student scholarship fighter is not easy and he does not want to waste the opportunity that has come to him, he said. And from that moment on I became a Secret Admiral who wanted to always help and protect without knowing."

"The more I know him I admire him more. But somehow I don't want to force my feelings for her. I'm more willing to wait and happier to see him happy."

"Since the cancellation of the wedding, Shanum decided to go back to college. He returned to Bandung after successfully obtaining S2 scholarship and continued his studies. You know what, Bro? I up to defend the list as a lecturer guiding his research at that time, so bad and after the research I re-expressed my love for her but she rejected me again it seems like she is still traumatized by the cancellation of the marriage."

Akhtar looked at Ahsan getting sharper, carefully listening to Ahsan's series of stories about Shanum that were still continuing.

"Either what makes me not angry and disappointed with the treatment, which was there at that time I was looking for new opportunities to be back with him even though not as a lover. And it turns out that God was once again on my side with Shanum receiving as a teacher at Dad's foundation. I feel like the opportunity is coming back."

"Not for a year before Shanum was in the foundation, I couldn't help myself anymore. I asked Mr. Khalid for help from the foundation staff who take care of the high school education department to call Shanum to the foundation office. There I again declared my love, and again I was rejected hahaha ...."

"I still don't know that time let alone the reason. He just said, there will be women who are more deserving to be with me. Ckk. But it did not make my spirit recede, I know Shanum most disliked the person who likes to force his will. I'd rather give in and increase my stock of patience to be able to open the door of his heart."

"I chose to be present as a friend rather than be away from her. Our relationship made me fall in love and really want to have it. I have often joked him, hoping he is sensitive that I still expect him to be. But he always said he said my appeal would not work for him.."

"Until after the full moon passed, I only found out that the reason Shanum always rejected me was because he was waiting for someone", Ahsan's story stopped, for a moment he sipped back his cold coffee.

Deggs.....Akhtar who listened to Ahsan's words solemnly felt his body stiffen again. His heart was like it was torn apart hearing the last sentence Ahsan said.

"And unfortunately the person he had been waiting for for all those years came back with false hopes and wounds for Shanum."

Deg deg deg. Akhtar's heart is pounding faster. He did not expect Shanum's struggle and sacrifice to be so great for him.