Dusk At the End Please

Derogate

“Bu, Ms. Shanum...”, call someone to wake Shanum up from his daydream.

“Eh...iya, what is it, Sir?”,

Someone using the committee ID card handed over the ID card on behalf of Shanum. He is Pak Andi a fellow committee that is a team with him.

Shanum was shocked, why the ID card was on him.

“Why is my ID card in Pak Andi?”, Shanum asked

“Sorry Mom, I received it from Mr. Ahsan earlier, he said he found it fell and asked me to return it to Mom,” replied the man.

“Oh...thank you, Pak” Shanum said sincerely.

“Bu, the next event of welcome to be delivered by the Chairman of the new foundation. I don't want to go ahead to listen to the welcome of our new leader?”, asked Mr. Andi to Shanum.

“What? it's the fifth event huh?”,

Shanum was startled, he did not expect himself to dissolve in his daydream long enough. Earlier when Ahsan met him, the MC had just opened the show.

Then Shanum did not listen to Ahsan's remarks as the Chairman of the Committee.

“Where is Mom, want to go ahead?”, Mr Andi repeated his question.

“Iya, Sir. Come!,” replied Shanum took the first step and followed Pak Andi.

On the stage were seen lined up men wearing full suit suits.

Shanum who was beside the stage could only partially see the faces of those people.

The one face he knew so well, he was Ahsan.

Shanum circulated his gaze, hoping to find Liani or the other fellow teachers to join. They seem to be busy with their duties.

While Shanum is in charge of ensuring all activities in the event rundown run properly, it looks more relaxed.

“We invite Mr. H. Muhammad Furqan Wijaya, to hand over the foundation's leadership relay symbolically, marked by the submission of a plaque to the Elected Chairman and followed by the signing of the news of the ceremony handover department”, heard the MC deliver the next event.

Two men in suits looked forward, towards the table on which they had prepared news of the handover event for their signature.

Next followed by two people who signed the news of the event became witnesses. One of them is Ahsan.

Shanum was still in his original position, he looked towards Ahsan with nanar.

Didn't expect it turned out that his senior was occupying an important position in the foundation.

While insecure feelings approached him, he who intended to try to open his heart to his senior felt not good enough to be able to be with Ahsan.

From a distance, Ahsan seemed to know that Shanum was looking at him. He threw his sweet smile at Shanum.

Shanum flinched, shocked to mix in shame as he coughed while looking at Ahsan so deeply.

Not yet had his surprise disappeared, he was surprised again by the voice of the MC who invited the new chairman of the foundation to deliver his speech.

“To the honorable, Mr. Akhtar Farzan Wijaya was invited to deliver his speech”, MC invited the chairman of the new foundation to deliver his speech.

There was applause from everyone in the building.

Except for Shanum, he was glued to his position. Staring straight ahead looking at the face of the person who had just been named walked gallantly towards the podium.

Shanum hung, in front of him now stood the figure he had longed for, although he saw it from the side and looked a lot of changes that happened to the man's body but the line of his face remained the same.

The man who is currently delivering the opening greeting of his speech is the man he has longed for.

The man who ten years ago declared that he loved her and a year later left without news.

But until now, his shadow is still passing in the mind shanum, his name is still beautiful on the throne of his heart.

Shanum shook for a long time, not one bit from his position. Staring straight ahead looking from the side of the face that now looks different, looks more handsome and more charming anyone who sees it.

Shanum only regained consciousness when a girl walked up to the podium about to approach the man who had ended his speech with a closing greeting.

The beautiful woman was waltzing on stage and taking her place right beside the man's left, slightly blocking Shanum's vision.

“This is Raina Farha Diani, a beautiful and intelligent woman who has just completed her education in the country of Kangaroo and is ready to devote herself and share her knowledge in this foundation of ours. Inshaa Allah she will bring this foundation to be more advanced, she is the daughter of her beloved friend s

we.”

‘’Besides going to devote herself in the foundation, Ananda Raina will also devote her life accompanying our proud son, Akhtar Farzan Wijaya,”

The voice of the old Foundation Chairman echoed filling every corner of the building where the event took place.

Dhuaarrrrrrrrrrrrrr, like a thunderclap, Shanum was glued to the spot, his mind drifting.

Just now he had a speck of light illuminating the path of his love, but a boulder then struck him. He broke, his heart was broken, his feelings were not good.

The boisterous sound of applause greeted the announcement of the Chairman of the Foundation resuscitated him.

Turning right, he slowly stepped his foot towards the backstage. His hands were trembling, his heart was beating many times more than usual, his mind was chaotic not knowing what to do.

Tears that had been hard-earned he had endured since beside the stage finally flowed swiftly.

Without a sound Shanum cried himself. Crying something she shouldn't cry. Her tears represented how much pain she felt.

Loving in a wait that ends in pain.

The situation is not in favor of his love. The love of the monkey that gave her the sweet memories now ended with a celebration of the wound.

Shanum realized the clattering of steps someone was heading towards him.

Soon he moved, without turning his head and not knowing who was coming Shanum sauntered towards the toilet without caring for someone who called his name.

From his voice he knew that Ahsan was coming.

While on the stage, Ahsan's attention was on Shanum. All the expressions and movements Shanum made while beside the stage did not go unnoticed by Ahsan.

Shanum who chose to leave at the peak of the event, invited Ahsan's suspicion.

Ahsan looked at Shanum as if he was not doing well, he was worried that Shanum was sick.

Seeing the look on Shanum's sad face and looking pale since standing next to the stage made him even more worried.

After taking a photo together and congratulating her, Ahsan immediately stepped off the stage.

His mind was filled with Shanum, wanting to immediately ascertain his state.

Ahsan headed towards the backstage, his footsteps slowing down even more when Shanum's back shook, Ahsan knew Shanum was crying.

But why?, immediately Ahsan sped up his steps towards Shanum, wanting to calm him down and say that everything would be fine. Although Ahsan did not know what made Shanum cry so much.

Ahsan was getting closer, but Shanum quickly sauntered away from him.

“Shanum”, call Ahsan, no answer.

“Shanum”, back Ahsan calling.

This time with a louder voice as Shanum further accelerated his pace.

Ahsan grew more worried, quickly following Shanum in fear of anything happening to him.

Ahsan waited long enough at the door of the female toilet. A few female guests looked at him in surprise. But Ahsan didn't care, his mind was already filled with his concern for Shanum.

“Sir Ahsan,” Liani came up to him, staring at the wonder why Ahsan was in front of the ladies' toilet.

“Bu Liani,” Ahsan flinched, for a moment he looked at Liani who was looking at him confused. But then Ahsan smiled and continued speaking.

“Bu Liani, don't get me wrong, I was looking for Shanum like he wasn't okay, I saw him crying, like he was in pain. When I called him he went to the toilet, I had been waiting a long time but Shanum did not come out. I was worried that something would happen to him. Please Bu Liani come in and find Shanum.” Clearly Ahsan at length explained Shanum's state in his panic.

Liani who was originally going to reprimand Ahsan for being in front of the female toilet, so no less panic. In a hurry he entered the toilet and checked every door, calling Shanum's name.

Feeling someone call out to him, Shanum took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, trying to neutralize his feelings to look fine.

He did not want his friend to find him in such a state, it would really invite suspicion Liani.

After feeling quite calm, Shanum opened the toilet door. Smiling at his best friend who seemed so worried about him.

The sweat thread that appears on his forehead and the tip of his best friend's nose indicates that he is very panicked and worried.

Liani ran over to Shanum and hugged him, unconsciously she was crying in Shanum's arms. Shanum was astonished what was with his shabat.

Liani flinched, hastily she wiped the tears that involuntarily came out from her eyes. Still with the rest of the tears on her cheeks, Liani turned to stare at Shanum sharply.

“What's the reason?” her jolt..”.I was worried to know, I heard Mr. Ahsan talk about you, my mind went everywhere, he said you were sick and ran to the toilet. I'm afraid of you why napa, you were fine, so I panicked really hard if you cry in pain”, cerocos Liani.

Back he hugged Shanum, then let go of his embrace quickly switched to fingering Shanum's forehead. Then turn Shanum's body, scan it from top to bottom to make sure there are no injuries or anything on the body of his best friend.

“Hey, come on...I'm fine”, Shanum laughed at Liani's behavior.

“You really are nothing?” Liani made sure.

“But earlier said Mr. Ahsan you..” Words hang. Seeing a man go into a woman's toilet where they are.

Ahsan could not wait anymore, after being seen the toilet was quiet and he believed that inside there was only Shanum and Liani finally ventured into the female toilet.

And how surprised Ahsan was, seeing two women laughing watching him rush into the ladies' toilet while glancing left and right as they were afraid of being discovered.

“You....” Ahsan. “I'm worried waiting outside, you guys are even engrossed in laughing here”, Ahtar said as he left his waist.

Shanum and Liani who had been holding back her laughter since then, finally burst out laughing at Ahsan.

“Sorry, Brother.” Shanum opened his voice,

“Come out!”, take Ahsan with her flat tone.

Shanum and Liani walk after Ahsan out of the female toilet. Again there were some invited guests who passed by them staring in wonder at Ahsan.

“This is all because of you, look at the Mothers looking at me suspiciously”, Ahsan vented her anger.

Shanum and Liani who saw that, instead looked at each other and compactly closed their mouths with their hands holding back laughter, for fear that Ahsan was getting angry.

Arriving at the backstage, Ahsan stared at the two of them sharply. Still looking annoyed and worried chime in his face.

“You two, follow me!”, Ahsan's orders are firm.

Without waiting for their answer, Ahsan passed out of that space. Towards the room that was used this morning to gather the committee received directions from him.

Shanum and Liani just followed Ahsan. Every now and then they exchanged lyrics, wondering what Ahsan was going to do to them.

Ahsan was already sitting gallantly in the chair of the meeting, looking at Shanum and Liani who were still walking towards him.

“Sit!”, he told Shanum and Liani to sit in the chair in front of his desk.

The two of them sat opposite Ahsan. A time like this Shanum remembered when he was in college. At that time Ahsan once called him to the BEM room for making a mistake when confirming the time on the show filler.

A silent atmosphere, the three of them dissolved in their respective minds. Suddenly though….

“Kakak!”, Shanum called Ahsan with firm intonation while pounding the table in front of him.

Ahsan was shocked as well as Liani. Liani did not expect Shanum to dare to do that. All this time he knew Shanum was always calm and able to control emotions. Liani's face was frightened, afraid that Ahsan was getting angry because of Shanum's actions.

In contrast to Ahsan who tried to hide her happy smile, because she saw that her Shanum had returned.

Shanum used to be the one who was the most able to control Ahsan's emotions, at a time when everyone was silent out of fear of him, Shanum was different he dared to voice his thoughts and with great determination defended his argument because it was quite based and made Ahsan accept it.

Ahsan was already unable to hold back her laughter, she finally chuckled and saw Shanum's adorable-looking expression in her eyes.

Shanum pursed his lips, because again Ahsan pranked him. Liani was astonished to see the behavior of the two of them.

“Actually this is what?”, Liani ventured in a quivering tone, still looking terrified.

Hahahahaha.

Liani looked furious, as she felt being played by the two of them.

“You really why?”, boldly Liani asked again no longer seen fear in his face that there was only frustration because it felt played.

“Sorry, Li” great-grandson Shanum ended his laughter.

“Sorry Bu Liani, I didn't mean to play Bu Liani. I saw Shanum crying, and I was worried. But it looks like we're both in the works. Just look at him instead laughing loosely as soon as”, Ahsan chimed in, pointing with his chin towards Shanum, who was appointed to only look away while smacking his smile.

“Bu Liani can calm down now, let me punish Shanum for bullying us. Now, please do return to continue with the task”, Ahsan said back to the resolute mode of his lead style.

Liani took a deep breath, feeling astonished by the drama that was happening in front of her. He looked at Shanum to make sure his friend was back. Shanum understood Liani's concerns.

“Nothing Li, I'm fine. I'll catch up soon. It seems like the entertainment and friendly event has already begun. There's something I want to talk about first with Ahsan”, Shanum explained, reassuring Liani that she's fine.

After Liani's death, the atmosphere was quiet again.

Ahsan looked at Shanum with a hard-to-art look, which must have been a worry in his eyes.

He knew Shanum was only distracting his best friend, he did not want others to know with the sadness and pain he felt. Enough happiness that he shared with others.

Liani might be easy to believe, but not with Ahsan. Ahsan understands very well with Shanum even though he sometimes does not think out with Shanum who always feels bad if he has to share his suffering and wounds with others.

Ahsan knew that Shanum was not doing well at the moment, but he did not know for sure what caused the patch to hurt his heart. Ahsan would not ask, knowing that Shanum would not answer.

Let Shanum ask himself to be a listener, now Ahsan just needs to exist and convince Shanum that everything will be fine.

“I just want to say equally”, Ahsan broke the silence

Before responding to Ahsan Shanum's words took a deep breath as if he wanted to fill every corner of his lungs, so that the tightness he felt immediately disappeared.

“Sama-sama what?”, asked Shanum astonished.

Akhtar smiled looking at Shanum deeply,

“I want to say the same, because you have already thanked me” Ahsan replied.

“When do I thank Big Brother?”, Shanum asked in surprise.

“Tadi, while in the backstage, my ears are still quite normal to listen to your mumbling, Num”, Ahsan explained.

Ahsan left when she had stolen the opportunity to take a selfie with Shanum, she actually again intended to return the ID Card Shanum that she found lying on the floor. Shanum had not realized that his ID card had fallen.

However, when he returned to the backstage he found Shanum back daydreaming.

With a silent step Ahsan approached Shanum, and she overheard Shanum say her full name, and say the sentence that made her flower all morning.

Until his happiness evaporates when he sees Shanum is not okay.

“Do I have to repeat that sentence?”, Ahsan asked teasing Shanum.

“Kakak!”, Shanum sulks, his cheeks blushing in shame. Ahsan likes it, again teasing Shanum into his own entertainment for him.

“Shanum”, Ahsan started talking seriously.

“Ya?”

“When your logic and feelings are not in line, just skim. The rest please, let the Universe take its share.”

Shanum was speechless when he heard Ahsan speak seriously.

“Seal any night, the star will shine into a light and a hint. Like any hope, no matter how small it will guide you out of despair.”

“It feels like I'm sick too, seeing you cry like that. I won't ask you to say what makes you cry. I just want you to know, if I'm here.” Ahsan said with sincerity.

“So help me, I'm tired” said Shanum. Raising his head, holding back something that was starting to get unstoppable was about to come out from the corner of his eyes.

Ahsan sighed, looking at Shanum with a deep gaze. He saw there was a heavy burden on Shanum who had been alone. Ahsan did not want to think, over time let Shanum reveal.

“Do not force yourself to open your heart if you are still comfortable with yourself. If I can attend as a friend, treat me like a friend.” Ahsan said wisely.

“If your past does make you not want anyone to be a resident of your heart, enjoy it. But as time goes by it is possible, God did send me to remove your wounds.” Ahsan.

“You know, Num...The point of the woman managed to move on was not when she was able to find a new replacement. But when he has made peace with himself without having to find a replacement.”

“Trust me, when you are sincere in your circumstances, that is where God plans happiness for you.” Ahsan Pungkas.

Shanum lowered his head, permeating every word Ahsan said. His heart justifies that all his heart problems begin with himself.

Again Ahsan was able to make his heart warm, feel better and more ready to face reality.

Shanum looked up, looking at Ahsan wryly. Their views meet.

*Look, Akhtar. To the point of being invisible to me is the kind man who has always been there for me. It's hard, but it has to be done. I'm relieved, at least I've struggled with patience. Then being knocked back with full awareness*, Shanum whispered in his heart.