DUDA IMPOTENT DESIRE

Old friend

"SAADUHAN....!"

Bruggkk..

For the second time, I collapsed. And this time I collapsed in the doorway.

"Barakallahu laka wa baraka alaika wa jama’a bainakuma fi khoir." Speak to the people in the room at the same time. I can still hear it clearly, even though I'm in a bad state.

This chest throbbed pain and pain, as both of my misty eyes saw Alda's hand protruding towards the flirtatious Armand. Obviously I say flirtatious, his wife is ill, he easily marries Alda.

Nyess..

Finally the white-eyed golden ring escaped in his ring finger Alda.

"Let's kiss your husband's hand on Alda's deck" said the frail Holy Mother. The voice of the weakly lying woman sounded raucous. And looks like trouble breathing. Looks like he died. Obviously she quickly koid, her husband mating in front of her eyes. Substantial... Family bizarre.

"Holy Mother....!" When Alda wanted to kiss Mr. Armand's hand. Seen Holy Mother, want to be sad Death. Alda's reflex rose, rushing towards Holy Mother. Who was now staring weakly at Mr. Armand, her husband.

Mr. Armand, come close to his face. Whispering something in the wife's ear.

"La ilaha illallah.."

The holy mother also faced Khalik.

I also chose to leave that place. It carries a deep wound that is very painful. Hope sirnah, the dream to have a wife like Alda extinct already.

I dragged my weak legs out of the building. The chest is still painful and throbbing pain. A feeling of anger and disappointment raged within me. Dreams and desires do not exist. Hope is gone, losing Alda is the same as losing the light of my life.

When will I feel that happiness? Oh Allah... I don't want kufur. Forgive your servant, O God, your servant is ungrateful. If indeed Alda I cannot have, why do you allow this heart to adore him O Allah.

For a moment I realized that what I was doing was wrong. I shouldn't mourn my fate in this hospital courtyard. Why I'm like a big new kid who just fell in love. Though I already have experience of building a housewife with Sisil.

I rubbed my eyes with my fingers. I can't be this crybaby. This is not the first time I have been heartbroken, when I divorced Sisil, I also feel sad. Should be my disappointment this time, I can handle it. Trying to make peace with yourself. What we want doesn't always happen. Because the sky is not always bright. There are times when one day the color of the sky is cloudy and the future looks bleak.

Hufftts...

I took a deep breath and exhaled her heavily, after this body I sat on the concrete bench of the garden. I look around who are starting to get quiet. Because now I want magrib. I have to get out of this place. I don't need to regret, too long and in this disappointment. Regretfully, Alda won't be coming back to me. Maybe my happiness isn't with Alda.

Tomorrow all my plans from the beginning, I'll work on it again. I'm going to wander, open a contractor business overseas. Because after I quit my job, that was my dream.

Huuff..

Back I took a deep breath, oxygen stock in the lungs, it was not enough. I took a few breaths over and over again, until I felt calm. After a bit of calm, I pulled my phone out of my pants pocket. I'll get grab a car.

five minutes car order coming. Still feeling disappointed, I got into the car. The expression of sadness and despair was still imprinted clearly. And my mood was suddenly bad. Because the car I ordered didn't move.

"Come on the road!" I said ketus, understand the mood is still bad. By the way, the gas is.

The driver had no response. I, who was getting upset, finally grabbed his hand, to see what Mr. Sopit was doing in his chair.

And

Dooorr..

"Damn it.... Shucks..... You...!" I said loudly and held my chest pounding, surprised by the mad driver.

Haha...

"Dimaz.... You....?" turns out that the one who brought this car was my old friend.

I was really surprised to see it. He who was satisfied, laughing at me, kept laughing.

"How are you boss?" he looked back and extended his hand.

I greeted that hand cheerfully. Dimas is a cheerful child. We shake hands tightly. For a moment I forgot my problem.

"Let's get the boss moved on." He said by bluffing his head into the seat next to the driver.

"Definitely.." I got out of the car and got back in the car and sat in the seat next to the driver. Dimas continued to watch me, maybe he was surprised by me, which seemed random at this time. Obviously random scrambles, I just collapsed twice on the floor. It's like I'm short of blood right now. Pale, moustached and weak-looking.

"Take our gas..?" she said with a big smile.

"Lets go..!" I looked up excitedly at him.

He also drove his car very fast. Dimas is an energetic man. I love racing, I love nightlife like a club and he also likes alcoholic drinks, unlike me who can't stand that drink. Especially in my religion, drinking alcoholic beverages is not allowed.

I once had a job with the Dimas, back then. I'm in despair. Because of my impotent illness, humiliated by Evan. Dimas takes her to the club with Juli. Eeh.. I don't know if I drink liquor. Though I was willing to wait so as not to get a job.

"Why are you working like this?" ask me while glancing at him who was driving that race. The streets are a little quiet, because the time of magrib.

"The new boss is not fun. A month after the boss resigned. I resigned too. I just want to be fit. Delicious, no one arranged. There is no specific target. Just be happy." anyway." He answered lightly and occasionally glanced at me.

"Yes, aren't you afraid of this job? you should be a racer." I said by holding on, the speed of the car is getting faster.

"Fear, koq's afraid of the boss?" Dimas still calls me boss.

"Yes, you're not heart-hearted. What about an accident?" I just glanced at him sourly. He increased the speed of his car. "Dimaz.... I don't want to die yet, I'm still getting married." I said hard, holding on.

Haaha...

He even laughed at me. His face looks very happy.

"Married... The boss' bird is alive...?" tanyanya laughed at me.

Hahaha

Kwkwjwjwjw

Kwjwjwkk

He was unrelenting and he mocked me. If I don't know the nature and character of this Dimas, I've broken his neck.

"Yes, if it's not healed. Where do I say it like that." I replied lazily, I was offended by his words.

"Oowww... Sorry boss. Good news we should celebrate. We'll be happy." He said by winking at me. I know what he meant. He wanted to take me to try with the night butterfly.

"Son, I don't want to." Reply quickly.

"Relax the boss, I have a great player. Guaranteed to clean for nadik." Obviously with his face that looks very excited. Yes, Dimas likes to do the motions. That's what I don't like about him.

Tbc