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"Rb ... Mama you married me. In front of Fatima's pusara, Mas's wife. MAs wants to introduce you as the woman who respects, appreciates and cares the most as a future wife Mas. Not as a substitute for Fatima, but to be Mas's wife, Mas's life companion, Mas's companion in the afterlife in the rest of Mas's life," said baihaqi slowly but sounding very firm and loud. His lips were indeed slightly shaking because he was nervous about having to let out his heart which was indeed very difficult to express.

Rara looked at Baihaqi's face and those two jet eyes as if she was in disbelief, it took time to convince himself and be able to believe what Baihaqi had just said to Rara in the presence of Fatima's tomb.

Both of Rara's eyes were still open and unblinking. It was like he wanted to get out of his body. Either happy or sad to hear this story. The real confession Rara had wanted for a long time. However, now it feels empty and hmpa, which there is only a feeling of pity. Even if Rara still harbors affection for Baihaqi it's all because Rara has gotten too close to the life of Baihaqi and her three children.

Seeing Rara was craved and amazed by all the Baihaqi confessions. Baihaqi kissed both backs of Rara's hands softly and very gently. The kiss touched Rara's skin so much that her body felt trembling. The tremors are still there but not as before. Moreover, Rara had promised rafli to keep waiting for him.

'Ah, Why must this time Mas Bai reveal everything. When my heart was filled with love for another, it began to be comfortable with another man who was married. In fact this love was wrong and forbidden, but I was sure that this love was a gift, he said, buakn to be tepis just like that and it's not easy either. But, could this be an opportunity? Or is this the best solution Allah SWT gave me, to forget about Mas Rafli?' rara's heart in her heart.

"Why shut up Ra? You don't want to answer my question?" baihaqi asked softly when she saw that there was unease in Rara's eyes.

Rara shook her head slowly. Rara was worried and confused about having to answer Baihaqi's question like what?

"What do I have to answer, Mom? I am confused by my feelings. Isn't Mas near Ukhty Naya?" rara asked with doubt.

Baihaqi's two eyes stared at Rara with some confusion. Realizing that Rara was jealous of him too, Baihaqi laughed loosely as she gave a smile.

"You're jealous of Ukhty Naya? Be honest with me, Ra?" baihaqi asked quietly while peeping the back of Rara's hand back.

The woman in front of him is adorable. Rara may have to be jealous of Ukhty Naya who is suitable to be used as her own child, because Ukhty Naya is a former santriwati who used to go to Baihaqi's Pondok Pesantren.

Rara shook her head quickly. Rara did not want Baihaqi to think a no-no about her. Maybe Rara used to be jealous but now she's not.

"I'm not jealous. Honestly, maybe I was jealous. Maybe I used to have such a big feeling towards Mas Baihaqi. My admiration for Mas Baihaqi made me expect too much and dream too high. When I found out, maybe I would never be worthy of Mas Baihaqi" Rara said in a soft voice.

"What did you say Ra? I waited for you long ago, waiting until you were really ready to accept me. Ready to go back to being able to love Mas in the right way and your trauma is completely gone, because Mas does not want to be loved by you because of a compulsion and you are still haunted by your trauma" Baihaqi said slowly explaining his heart.

Already from the initial meeting at the hospital, Baihaqi instantly fell in love at first sight towards Rara.

The love and affection that continue to be fertilized to continue to grow every day the sense of wanting to have a woman in adoration.

Rara was quite surprised by Baihaqi's explanation. I can't believe they both had the same feeling. Feelings of love and affection, perhaps what makes it different is Baihaqi is more loving at the beginning of the meeting while Rara loves because of her habituation and the kindness and sincerity of Baihaqi that makes her melt.

"What's up, Ra? Why do you look confused? Is something bothering you? Or is your heart already there? Or you haven't been able to move on from your past, Ra? Sorry if Mas's question makes you uncomfortable," said Baihaqi slowly as he looked at Rara's face with sadness.

Instantly his heart felt troubled and sore. There was a sudden feeling of disappointment present rippling in his heart. Somehow the look on Rara's face hinted at a subtle rejection. Is it possible that Baihaqi's feelings are too sensitive with all of this.

"I'm confused, what to answer? Give me time to feel what I really feel. Honestly, I used to love you, I love you very much, but I think with the presence of Ukhty Naya I have to slowly retreat from the life of Mas Baihaqi before everything is done and ultimately I have to feel the pain. Now I'm trying to open my heart to everyone, and I'm also close to someone who has been making me feel comfortable for months" Rara said in a soft voice.

"Who is he, Ra?" baihaqi asked with his possessive attitude.

"You don't know him, Mas Bai. I also met in cyberspace, but I met him a week ago, and we fit in" Rara said steadily and honestly. The sparkle of his face is different when talking about another man who is currently on his throne.

"You love her? Is that a virtual world not a real world? You're not scared? You should know him well, lest the old happenings repeat themselves?" baihaqi said firmly. There was a sense of jealousy surrounding his heart at this moment.

"You why Mas? Is it not my right to love? To whoever it is? Are we afraid we have nothing to do?" said Rara firmly who felt cornered.

"That's your right. But Mas also has the right to love you, so the majesty of Mas is to take care of you," said Baihaqi slowly as he reached into the pocket of his pants and pulled out a small red box made of velvet.

Rara looked at the small box with a puzzled face, then Baihaqi opened the small box and took the ring from inside showing Rara. Baihaqi sweat poured, annoyance mixed with disappointment and held back his emotions for hearing the honesty of Rara.

"Mas wants to propose to you, Ra. This ring belonged to Fatima, my wife. And I will give it to those who deserve to be with me now and forever" Baihaqi said. Her face is sad. The pain and pain was already felt by Baihaqi.

It's quite painful to hear the honesty of Rara who has had someone else fill her heart and make her happy.

"Marry Mas, Ra?" baihaqi said firmly.

Rara shook her head slowly.

"give me the act to answer it and convince me, to whom exactly is my heart I give you, Mas? Please do not force my heart to accept something that cannot be forced.I try to be honest with myself and with Mas Bai. Right now, this is what I feel. The already growing sense must be lost due to misunderstanding. But it's too late, my friend. At the moment I can't accept Mas Bai, give me time to try to return justify this relationship, that's also I can't promise anything, and can't give a clear decision," rara slowly explained.

"Love me, Ra. It will bring you the world and the Hereafter. Mas promised in front of fatima's pusara, Mas's wife. Young people would be happy if Mas and the children get a good and sincere wife and mother like you, Ra. A few days ago, Fatima came in the dream of Mas. beiau asking specifically to take you to this navel and introduce you to him," Baihaqi said in a soft voice.

His heart has gone. Wanting to scream loudly but being interrupted. His regret why from the beginning did not directly express his heart to Rara.