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The two of them just looked at each other and remained silent. Rara who wanted to try to start a relationship by accepting Baihaqi was quite the opposite. Right now Baihaqi was doubting Rara's wishes, not without intent, but because Baihaqi did not want her hopes to be wiped out like yesterday.

Their eyes met and stared for a long time, until Baihaqi let go and turned his head in the other direction. It was not only the affection that Baihaqi had for Rara, but also the love that began to grow during their first meeting.

"We'll just go, Ra. I don't want to be disappointed and I don't want you to regret your decision. Just walk as the water flows, if indeed we are paired must be united," said Baihaqi wisely made a decision.

"But, Mas, I want something ..." Rara said to Baihaqi as if pleading.

"What is that, Ra? Just mention? if your request is easy, you will immediately respond, but if I have difficulty granting it, then I will try as optimally as possible to grant it as well" Baihaqi explained slowly.

"Don't you despise, yes, Mas. Especially a less pleasant comment?" rara said slowly.

"Whatis that? Say, don't make me curious" said Baihaqi slowly.

"I want to change my faith. Want to be my guide?" rara Lirih asked a little doubtfully.

Hearing Rara's words which Baihaqi thought were rare, Baihaqi immediately looked at Rara again with a puzzled look. Confused by Rara's desire which is quite strange according to him.

"I'm not dreaming, am I? I really heard you wanted to switch keyakina? I'm sorry to repeat it, because I want to make sure that what I hear is real, not just a joke or a figment" Baihaqi explained.

"Mas, try to understand, and see me? I am real, and I am conscious of being physically and spiritually healthy. There are no lies here, there is no mode, everything I say is true not burning or sensation seeking in the future" explained Rara slowly.

Rara was quite understanding with Baihaqi's sharp and doubtful gaze to him. indeed everything was not instant and all there was a process.

"If this time I'm really surprised, but I'm happy and happy. But, are you sure of your decision, Ra? What's your reason for you to be able to strengthen your heart to change your faith?" asked Baihaqi in a soft voice.

"Didn't Mas himself speak, if the direction could come at any time and to anyone? Maybe God found me this way?" rara explained her point.

Baihaqi took a deep breath and exhaled so violently that the sound of exhaling was heard so clearly.

"Convince yourself first, Ra? Don't rush into this all. I know you're worried about your life choices right now" Baihaqi suggested.

"Your words seem to intimidate me, Mas. It seems I was wrong and what I'm going through is something wrong" said Rara with ksal and full of disappointment.

"I didn't intimidate you, Ra. Religion is not a game, when we can come for something and leave it for something. Religion and our belief in Allah SWT starts from the heart" Baihaqi explained at length.

"Then, you mean, I just stopped by and got into the game to hide in my slump? That so?" rara asked with a slightly raised tone of voice and slightly grimaced due to the pain felt.

Baihaqi shook her head quickly.

"Not ... That's not what I meant. I just don't want you to misstep and play religion. Choosing you is full of great risks not only for your own person, Ra, but also for your family and those around you. There are many positive and negative things that you can accept if this happens. So all this requires a very big mental readiness Ra," said Baihaqi slowly.

Baihaqi is not just an ustad, he is even a very exemplary young kyai. His science is quite high, and his experience is already quite a lot in his field. Moreover, it helps people who want to say two sentences of shahada to embrace Islam.

Baihaqi nodded her head very slowly and doubtfully. It was very unpleasant to make Rara disappointed and as if she was patronizing Rara for something she was wanting.

"really so. I just want you to be able to handle everything more wisely and logically it has to be the way. You ready? With all the risks and consequences?" tanyaBaihaqi in a soft voice.

His eyes were on Rara. Somehow Baihaqi felt all this was not based on sincerity, like there was a compulsion from within Rara who suddenly wanted to change his beliefs.

But, Mas Bai, you know what my parents and my extended family are like? They will also still be able to accept me well, because I have been pregnant without a husband. Merea will still label me as a bad woman" said Rara.

This incident really makes Rara slumped, but with all her strength Rara must also rise and live everything better.

"What is your main reason for wanting to change that belief?" baihaqi asked quietly with suspicion and curiosity that was too high.

"Yes, because I want to get to know you better, Mas. Perhaps with me studying the religion of Islam, under the supervision and guidance of Mas Baihaqi. Only this way can strengthen our relationship more intimate and communicate well," said Rara slowly explained.

"Not because of me, Ra. I'm not a good person, there's no need for you to flatter me and admire me like that" Baihaqi said slowly.

"All I've thought about is Mas Bai," Rara replied in such a flat and cold tone.

"Talking about this, it will never be finished until when [un," Baihaqi said slowly.

"Why do you say that?" rara asked quietly to Baihaqi.

"Because I'm not your heart's man of choice, Ra. You are doing this all for your own sake, your happiness and all that is best for you," explained Baihaqi who began to ignite with the emotions of his soul.

"I want to go through everything because of Allah, Mas Bai .." he said softly and so kindly sounding very melodious in Baihaqi's ears.

"God? Can you say God?" ask Baihaqi slowly to Rara.

"Everybody can do it, too, Mom. Not just me," said Rara slowly.

"Not that, Ra. But the words you say are very difficult to say, Ra," Baihaqi explained.

Rara just smiled wryly then rubbed her stomach which suddenly felt very painful.

"Arghhh ..." shouted Rara spontaneously suddenly.

Baihaqi immediately approached Rara and tried to help Rara back.

"Why Ra, I'm calling the doctor?" baihaqi said in a soft voice.