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"Yes if you're sorry? If the sin is still there and not erased, how?" ask Rara slowly. His eyes looked towards the front.

"You should be sure? What's the matter, Ra? Wasn't you alright, even you've steadily wanted to start everything from scratch. Then, why is this now? What's the matter exactly?" ask Baihaqi slowly.

"I want to live a quiet life like you, Mom? Can your religion calm me down like that?" ask Rara quietly without any sense of burden.

Rara herself did not know why she wanted to ask Baihaqi about this.

"I didn't hear wrong, did I?" tanya Baihaqi slowly looked at Rara who was staring in the other direction.

Rara deliberately did not want to stare at Baihaqi so that the views of the two did not meet.

"Mas Bai didn't hear wrong. Don't be too surprised either. Is my question like seeing a demon?" rara asked slowly trying to cover up her anxiety.

Baihaqi could only slow down.

"It's not Ra. I'm just amazed to hear your question. A rare question asked by someone with a different principle that asks about tranquility?" baihaqi explained slowly.

"I want to be a better woman" replied Rara slowly.

Her lips seemed to move on their own and the question escaped from her tiny lips.

Baihaqi had already driven his car slowly after finishing his dinner. He was quite surprised by Rara's question. Baihaqi was happy if it happened on his own will through his guidance and thisayah that he had obtained so far. It could be, for several months Rara felt something valuable from the problems she was facing.

"May I explain something?" ask Baihaqi slowly. Want to give a little understanding to Rara about something called guidance and the hijrah process.

Rara nodded slowly as she turned her head towards Baihaqi.

"Please," said Rara while confirming her sitting position and leaning on her seat.

"Many real life problems are not just lessons or experiences for self-improvement. Once in a while, we have to feel and think more positively.just think of the test and the ordeal as the most wonderful gift God has given us. There is nothing wrong with the test, depending on how we respond. Just as with the coming of happiness, there is nothing wrong with happiness because all depends on how to react. Therefore, it takes faith to be able to receive with a spacious or sincere," explained Baihaqi at length.

Rara looked well. I don't know why the advice and advice baihaqi now feels good and must be applied in him. Not a talk of nonsense, but indeed faith is the foundation for us in living this increasingly violent life.

"That test is synonymous with difficulty? Is it not natural that we are angry and disappointed in our Lord?" asked Rara in a soft voice that still did not understand all this.

"Not all that, Ra. Sometimes the test comes as a stepping stone to an ultimate happiness, not necessarily a disaster that makes us paralyzed, but instead there is the wisdom of a test. Just like rain, there will always be a rainbow after a torrential rainbow hits the earth. Beautiful isn't?" ask Baihaqi slowly.

Rara nodded slowly. Understanding the meaning of life is still minimal. Sometimes Rara does need someone who can provide very useful advice and advice.

"What does being grateful mean to you, Mom?" ask Rara slowly.

The meaning of gratitude is vast. It can be general or special. Everything cannot be explained.

"Thankful? It means enjoying. Live life with sincerity and sincerity. That's a way of being grateful, not just saying thank you" Baihaqi explained.

"Yes. Why, Ra?" asked Baihaqi gently.

"If I want to move, will Mas help me?" asked Rara doubtfully.

So surprised, Baihaqi stepped on the brakes so strongly that the car stopped suddenly without being swept to the side of the road.

Baihaqi's car was still in the middle of the highway. Baihaqi turned her head towards Rara, looking at Rara's face from the side very closely.

"Why stop?" rara asked in a plan voice as she looked towards Baihaqi who was also looking at her. The two eyes met and it was seen that they both had their own questions that I could not explain openly and clearly.

"I'm sorry, Ra. I was just surprised by what you said. You're not playing around, Ra. Things like this should not be considered as a joke" said Baihaqi.

Rara shook her head slowly.

"I'm not kidding and I'm not playing around either" Rara said with a slightly raised voice.

"I'm afraid you're doing this because of some coercion or intimidation from someone" Baihaqi said.

"There is no intimidation or coercion. I do everything because of my heart. Honestly I feel something different," Rara explained emphatically.

Baihaqi took a deep breath and then tried to exhale slowly while calming her heart down. His heart that had been pounding so fast had now started beating very normally. Then, driving back the car very slowly. There is a sense of pleasure and happiness, but there is also a sense of worry and anxiety enveloped his heart and feelings until his heart feels mixed.

"Rb .... Excuse me. May I ask something of a personal nature but still within the bonds of the theme we talked about earlier," Baihaqi asked softly.

"Just ask. For me there is nothing personal anymore. Mas Bai already knows me and myself more personally," Rara said clearly.

"You mean to be a convert, for your hijrah?" asked Baihaqi slowly.

Rara nodded her head very steadily without thinking twice. There are many things, which makes Rara do this very sincerely, one of them when looking at the building of the Mosque and seeing Baihaqi who worship with tennag and khsuyuk.

"Yes!! Is there something wrong with my request?" ask Rara who is confused.

"Nothing's wrong. But, it's not easy, Ra. don't just go along or for something. Do it all because it is God's intervention and it comes from your deepest heart" Baihaqi explained.

Baihaqi just did not want to, this hijrah process was just as an escape for Rara to hide and find a place of comfort. If everything is true from within his heart or from the deepest little heart.

"I know, nothing is easy. All of that is in process and we have to enjoy the process well to have the right level of maturity and confidence," Rara said clearly.

Baihaqi just nodded slowly. He deserves to wade all four thumbs up for Rara because of Rara's increasingly wise and mature way of thinking.

"Hopefully your words are true" said Baihaqi lirih until Rara did not hear it clearly.