DOOR NO.7

Eps. 17 - Disappointed in silence

Since that fight, our intimacy has been strained. Fito's getting less and less news. Nelfons in the middle of the night are rare.

Either have to think positive especially, while IG continues to be active and WA is always online.

Which woman could receive such treatment.

I also focused more on my work. I don't want my job to fall apart just because of yesterday's problems.

In her eyes I was a child who always whined for news.

My concern, my longing he's never been gubris.

Now he is busy with his world.

I've always tried to understand what's been the problem all along. But did he not think that someone was waiting for him?

That morning, I spent my time working. I also busy working home by playing games and cleaning the villa.

Honestly, this heart begins to be exposed to the pressure of longing..

The longing is deep..

After days of longing, finally fito called me.

"Well baby, ko ngabarin"

I asked sumringah, as if nothing happened.

"I'm sorry, yesterday was busy"

"I'm afraid of you, baby?"

I saw him online until 2pm. But I tried to hold it.

"I'm sorry, oh yeah what else"

He diverted, like there was something he was hiding. I don't want to keep pushing. Whatever happens with this relationship, I leave it all to her.

"I'm sitting down again"

"Oh yes play mobile legend yu, it has not been mabar. Back down the seasons lohh"

"Gee, I'm not in the mood anymore, baby"

Actually, I refused the game because I did not want to talk, want to know where he had been all this time until I forgot to tell you.

There is news just like that.

Not explaining where he went to apologize.

I really feel unappreciated.

And finally, he was ready to play mobile legend himself.

Honestly sick is rich in giniin. The fito I know is very different from the one I know today.

...*****...

It's still mid-May, but there's no day without rain.

The signal was suddenly lost, I tried to find a signal but no signal came in.

Tonight I just let my HP die, even without word of the fito.

The next day, I was ready for work.

Today's order is quite a lot. I don't have time to play Mobile. And until 11pm, there's a new message coming in and it's from fito.

"Still at work?"

"Yes, why?"

"Yaudah, I'm going home from work and I'm going to call ya"

"Yes dear"

Finally there was a nelfon.

My work is spirit now.

Sampe kiki and aprilpun were astonished. It feels like I really want to go home, honestly I miss bangeet want to hear the sound of a fito.

And finally 12 o'clock came, time to go home........

Arriving at the villa, I did not forget to eat, take a shower and tell the fito that I have come home. He said wait about 10 minutes. Yaudah I put on those 10 minutes for clothes.

And sure enough my HP sounds, Fito nelfon.

"Hayy"

"Hay baby, I'm really missing"

I said in a spoiled tone. Then she smiled a little.

"Again what?"

"Neng just finished taking a shower, kept eating. Did he eat?"

"Udah ko's. Oh yeah I'm gonna talk"

"Doying darling?"

"I'm sorry our relationship got here"

"Why? reason why?"

"I don't want to hurt you continuously. I don't know when I'll see you either"

"You promised to see me when I had a birthday you hadn't kept, you promised to see me after the new year you didn't keep it, and I still forgive you until now. But why did you break this relationship?"

"This is one of the reasons I asked to break up"

"Have you not appreciated my wait all this time?"

"Not disrespect, but I also gorak when can meet you. I'm sorry"

"Hasn't we committed to always being patient?"

I tried to remind you again of that.

"Well I know. But what else"

Fito silent. My heart kept asking why, why and why.

"If this problem is all you ask to break up, then even big problems you will definitely not be able to get through it"

"meaning?"

"Ah come.....!!"

"On my parents?"

Fito guess. And I nodded too.

"My parents still don't approve of this relationship"

"Well, I know who I am"

I tried to hold a tightness in my chest.

And I tried to hold back my tears that I couldn't stand to get out.

And it's true, it's hard to hold.

Why are tears always honest.

"I'm sorry, I'm not a good man to you"

I'm silent. All this time we had minimal news, I guess we were busy with work. But there were other things he might not be able to reveal.

I can't suppress and interrogate why I should break up, the reason why, because I think when someone has broken off the relationship means there is no love in his heart.

"Well, if that's your decision, I accept. I'm sorry if I was wrong"

Today we have nothing to do with it.

I was also always introspection about this relationship, maybe because his parents did not approve so he let this relationship end.

I tried to accept everything even though this heart hurts. I was excited when he said he wanted a phone, I thought he would say kangen and other things that make this heart happy. But what he said was far from expected.

I immediately changed the name of the contact, who was "My dear" I changed to "Fito".

I also end chatt all old messages that I never delete, my goal is that if I miss it, I always reread the chattnya.

I also deleted all the photos related to him.

But there was one thing I still took good care of - the doll she gave me for my birthday.

I looked at the doll, I touched it and then I hugged it.

I cried burying my eyes in the doll.

Even though Fito and I have never met, I feel an incredible loss, the pain of her deciding must be deep.

But I tried to hold myself back and simply vented everything through crying.

Our relationship lasted 9 months.

From August to May.

It is hard to accept this bitter honesty.

Attention yesterday

The love he gave

It means nothing when the heart is hurt.

9 Months of being in a relationship without meeting is not easy.

But it was very easy when he ended all this.

Just one "broken" word can make it all crumble.

The hope we built, was dashed with all his decisions.

The patience I felt, was already crossed with disappointment.

Not not not not accepting the decision, but a greater sense of disappointment..

Never mind, no regrets about what happened.

Let's just say yesterday's events were a lesson.

And let tonight I'm quite disappointed in silence..