DOOR NO.7

Eps. 11 - The bitter truth

Kangen always accompany my day. I often use it on social media. Many people also commented on this song who, ko really good, ask for the song dong, hemm so interesting is this song?

"I WANT TO MEET YOU! I'M BORED OF RICH GINI MULU!!"

"I said I was patient"

"Samples when should I be patient?"

I remember, before the beginning of 2020, I had a big fight with Fito. We discussed relationships without meeting. Even our quarrel almost led to the word break up. Fito is always calming, he says that when the time comes we will definitely meet. I was bored with a relationship that never had a meeting.

That's why until now I've never discussed this issue.

I'mfrightened..

Discussing the issue of meetings is indeed a sensitive thing lately.

That night fito nelfon. His face was slightly moody and signified unease. I tried asking

"Awhy? not rich is usually rich. Aa sick?"

She's shaking

"Is there a problem?"

Still shaking

"Keep aa why?"

Fito silent. His hand was propping up his forehead like there was quite a complicated matter.

"Why baby, let's tell you a story"

"She wants to talk to you. But aa's scared"

"Fear why?"

"Aa'm afraid"

"What are you afraid of?"

"Actually this is one thing that wants to talk about from the first time the same neng. But aa's scared"

"I'm afraid, I'm talking"

"So this neng kemaren aa telfon mamah aa"

"Continue?"

"Aa story with mamah aa if aa it's dating the same neng"

I'm still listening. Let every word out of his mouth.

"But mamah aa gasuka aa dating neng"

Honestly, I was surprised, but I tried to calm down

"Dislike why, dear? Does neng know?"

"His condition is that the neng is a widow"

My heart beats faster than usual. I'm speechless. Will this relationship end? I don't know..

"Neng is angry with you?"

I smiled little

"Neng ga angry ko sama aa.

If aa ga blessing parents, how else, baby? Widows have become a neng destiny, and even if neng is rejected because of widows, maybe widows are indeed a bad status in the eyes of mamah aa"

"Don't talk rich"

His eyes are glassy.

"Aa tetep dear ko equally neng, and aa will not mutusin neng"

"That means we're in a relationship with no blessing?"

"We'll just go for it first, baby"

I'm silent. There is no need to blame fate. Widows are considered bad for some people. Widows are considered naughty, widows are considered one eye, but widows are also the same as humans and have a heart.

No woman wants to be a widow. Widows only fail.

"Neng is angry with aa"

Replace, this time I shook my head

"What are you afraid of?"

I was still silent, permeating every question that came out of his mouth.

"Aa tetep karen same neng, and aa will not ninggalin neng"

"Thank you, yeah"

Just one word of thanks I can express right now.

"Please don't change just because of this?"

"Neng hasn't changed, baby, he's just self-conscious"

I'm humbling

"Neng if aa view status, from the beginning aa has gone, and we may not have a relationship"

"He knows, but only because his parents don't like it?"

Fito was silent, his face still signifying unease.

"The widow is all kinds, baby. Some are widows because of infidelity, some are widows because of incompatibility, some are widows because of violence"

"Well, my dear, the widow is not all bad. Widow is the only woman who has ever failed"

Fito seemed to understand what I was saying.

"Maybe some people think the widow is a bad woman, but if the household is no match and love, what should be forced?"

Fito. Tears were shed in both eyes. Then he wiped those tears.

"Aa nerima neng what it is"

"What do you like about this widow?"

"Everything. I like it because I am honest with you. There are many women out there who claim to be girls when they are married. But I see something different in myself"

"For a while, give it time to think"

I said.

"Neng didn't ngabarin aa?"

"Neng must be telling you, neng will also wake up aa ko every morning"

Fito silent. His hands began to grip his head.

"Aa if there is a problem rich in gini, aa head likes sudden dizziness"

"Don't think about this problem. Health is more important, baby. Now aa rest ya"

Fitopun. Then the phone closed with a small, restless smile.

...*****...

He asked and kept asking.

But I'm quiet.

I cannot accept this harsh reality.

I was often alone in the villa, which I was afraid of, now every night I always ventured to sit on the stairs.

At a young age I already have the status of a widow, at a young age too I must feel how our love is opposed by her parents.

I leaned my body against the wall.

April came and sat beside me.

"I see lately you've always been alone. You are often moody. What's the problem?"

April touched my shoulder slowly

"Gapa"

"Oh story, it's not good if you have to hold it yourself"

I smiled a little.

"Gapa"

"It seems ethical that there are problems but friends are considered statues"

"I have a little pril problem"

"Who's the guy?"

"Cowokku"

"What problem?"

Try to digeroko first a bar so that his brain is a little mengingan"

I shook my head

"There is also a harm in smoking, at least the load mixed with nicotine and out with smoke"

Then I took a roko. I tried to suck it slow. And I'm coughing. I turned off the shop and I threw it away.

"The cigarette was thrown away"

"Sorry"

"It should be like that too you throw away every problem. You take it out after that you throw it far away"

"If the relationship has no blessing, what should I do?"

"Not got blessing from whom? your parents are your boy's parents?"

"My boy parents"

"Why reason?"

"Because I'm a widow"

April smiled a little.

"There's no need to bother about that. Unsanctioned relationships are painful. But you shouldn't blame yourself, let alone fate"

"But I feel like I failed"

"Have your boy decided yet?"

"He's staying put"

"Yes, what are you afraid of?"

"I was just afraid that one day he would leave me for this reason"

"My advice is not to expect from now on. Ordinary as usual. Let's make sure he doesn't get very sick"

Before April spoke like this, I had tried to get away from the fito by not communicating too much.

There is also a truth what April said, there is no harm in surviving with hope, as long as not to expect too much. Don't take it too high, so it doesn't hurt too much.

Simple but meaningful.

...*****...

Dozens of incoming messages and missed calls filled the call history as well as messages. Apparently fito felt lost when I didn't preach it.

"Neng where, aa kangen. No news this day"

"Sorry, I'm busy. DPR orders are a lot. Especially now that there is a plenary trial, so orders are more than usual"

"It used to be like that too, what to forget aa too yes"

"Engga. I've apologized"

"What's? ME?"

Fito dislikes hearing the word "ME YOU", preferring the words "NENG and AA" the least"

"Now, from the way we talk, it's rich"

"I was wrong, eh neng wrong to say. Sorry yeah"

"Is it the problem of the present that makes this rich man the same?"

"I told you I was busy working"

"Doesn't lie, is that a problem you're getting away from??"

I'm silent. There was emotion in his eyes

"Now I'm afraid"

"Fear why?"

"If this relationship continues, I'm afraid I'll get sick"

"I told you I wouldn't leave you"

"For now, right? But what about later?"

"That should be my business"

"Am I allowed to take part in this?"

"I'm just playing because of this problem you get away from"

"I'm not far away, but I'm more self-aware"

"I told you that I don't look at your status"

"I believe you don't, but your parents?"

Fito silent. His face was full of anger. I know what else he has to say to convince me again.

"Well, let's forget about this. We are in this relationship as usual. You want to, right?"

I nodded my head in agreement. And the end of the fito apologized. There is nothing wrong in this matter. It's just that if the relationship is not condoned, it makes the relationship a little complicated.

The gap to parting is difficult, because we really feel comfort, loneliness when there is no news, and we are also really afraid of loss.

So I entrust this relationship to the time, the extent to which she can bring this relationship.