DOOR NO.7

Eps. 16 - Brain and Heart

Long distance relationship or commonly known as LDR is not easy. In addition to patience, you also need waiting.

Relationships can work well if communication is also good.

My relationship with Fito has been going on for 8 months.

Early courtship was no problem in communication, even I got upset because he was often a nelfon. But that was the first time I knew.

Fito is getting less and less news.

Honestly, I actually like to be lazy if the stalking stalking is that, the tip likes heartache. I'd rather not know what he's doing in the back, than my heart hurts.

My walking is through WA only.

That night fito online. I tried to chatt him

"Baby night"

Online was last seen.

"Is he bored?"

Self-destructive questions began to fill the space of my brain.

Is it this easy to change? has he forgotten so soon?

I am here waiting for news.

I took a slow breath..

Tonight I let the smoke fill every nerve in my brain.

I remember every beautiful word he said. He said he wouldn't change, wouldn't leave, and it felt the same.

But now with no news from me he looks fine.

Sometimes the brain says :

"Why do you think of him too? he doesn't think of you either. Have you met yet why do you take a headache? Meningan focus of work, kumpulin his money, use for a smile and also beautify themselves".

It's all about the heart. The heart says :

"Don't hear what the brain says. He always takes the simple path and does not think about the effect in the future. You better be patient first, later he will also give news ko"

Brain retaliates :

"If he loves, if he loves, if he cares, he can't be that rich. Saying without news. Why have a girl if the end of the end is rich in giniin"

The heart does not lose :

"Maybe he's really busy and there's another reason that makes him have to be alone first"

"One day is 24 hours. Chatt not nyampe 1 minute ko"

"AAARRGHHHH"

The brain and heart show their concern. In a relationship, the brain and heart always disagree.

This time I followed what the brain said. He always talks about facts and logic.

Brain correct. If fito dear there's no way he's gone missing without news. There was at least a word he could say without having to make my heart wait and ask.

I also remember that fito once said something like this :

"The first woman aa dear is mamah, the two younger sisters, the three sisters aa, and the fourth is neng"

I'm just smiling. And I said gini :

"A, for neng the number is not important. No matter what number in life you never have a problem. Without having to be disclosed, neng also knows that aa, sister, brother aa is the most important in life aa. But do you realize what I said was offensive enough? talk about what should be discussed. Remember what effect it will have."

And sure enough, the effect of all his words up to this moment was extremely painful.

I'm not asking to be number one, nor is it a priority.

Just remembered and appreciated as a girlfriend of course I feel happy.

The night sky began to show its charm. But tonight there are no stars shining. The star sank, swept away with the black clouds that began to approach it.

I reread Chatt Fito 8 months ago. I never deleted it. I want to remember a little bit about a very beautiful time..

He said that I was "The wingless angel of the bandung".

He also said that he "Wouldn't change".

There was a curling smile on my lips as I reread each of his messages.

I also saw a picture of her that she sent.

He sent me pictures of his college days and his childhood.

He also sent photos of her as she gathered with her family.

I looked at Fito's face carefully.

I zoomed in until the photo broke due to its size of just a few kilos of bit.

Tears are not held back. So far I have fallen in love, I've been complacent with his sweet attitude.

Fito, the guy who used to piss me off on his phone, now he's making me fall into longing.

I raised my face to the sky, hoping that the star would shine and shine its light. But the star dimmed and sank.

All I saw was a moon that was only partially visible. I saw a mirage there, the mirage gradually forming a face I had never touched.

I saw his smile tonight...

Tonight I let these tears drop. Tears that are held back because of pain in the heart will be toxic.

I leaned behind the wall, hoping and hoping that my loved ones would contact me.

Apparently there's nothing at all..

I took HP and stalked her contacts again. Apparently it's still online..

I've obeyed what the brain says. But it's unfair that I let this heart hurt. I better not be stalking anymore. I busy by looking at the story of friends. And there is one story that makes me more aware. Here is the story :

* He didn't contact you because he didn't want you. He still comforts you because you asked for it and let it go. He does not give you what you want because he is not afraid to lose you.

Stop looking for excuses!

Love is not complicated, you are the one who is not aware and hard-hearted. He's not the bad one. You're the fool - kinand *