Destiny Love Lyra, Between Love And Life

Tonight Without You

Lanjuutt yaa❤❤

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Firgie's..

Will you really leave after this??

My mouth says I don't want to meet but I doubt my heart. Will my heart forget you easily? Even if you promise to come later, but I have to focus on getting closer to my Robb and eliminating you for a while. Can it??

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I have to pass

Giving up on time

Because I was sent to you

Just as a pseudo-figure

Now I'm in the long room

Waiting for your upcoming appointment

At 05:00

I set my feet away from my residence, and it was seen far away that Babe's invitation was waiting for me faithfully..

I lifted my feet up one by one the opening stairs of the room filled with benches that are good at lining up. I chose a bench on the side of the window that became my faforite, feeling a gentle breeze sweep over my skin now.

With renewed vigor, I erased the rest of the crying at the corner of my eye. My arrogance suddenly drifting continued to pull me to the tightness that I was so eager to avoid...

*FlashBack :

"I'll wait for you on this date next year Gie, I'll be here waiting for you ...."

His eyes were still looking at me deeply, sadness, turmoil, anxiety and worry were emanating there."

I felt it but I kept all the tightness in my heart, worried that I said it would make us wobbly and get more and more dissolved in the pain.

"We should be able to get through this 1 year, okay!! Always with me in your prayers Lyra. So that my spirit does not fade and able to continue my day without you," he explained.

"Insya Alloh Gie ... I will fill my day to get closer to my Robb, we must be able to worship well, trying to be a good servant in His eyes. Let's fill our brains with HIS science." I said.

I saw him nod.

Almost 22:00 at the moment

"Why is time so fast?" firgie muttered.

I still look at him.

"Are I not coming here tomorrow?" he asked again to make sure.

I'm nodding.

"It's time for you to go home, Gie" I said.

"Yes," immediately Firgie stood up wearing her jacket. His eyes did not move from my face.

She's done wearing her kettle now,

"Take care of yourself Lyra, remember all my messages for you."

"Yes," I said almost inaudibly.

I saw him looking at every corner of my kossan, he stared at the wall long enough until he pulled my head, and kissed me on the forehead.

"Sorry," he said later.

"Goodbye, wait for me to come ..." he nodded his head and began to walk away, and soon he passed through the gate that immediately became the barrier for me and Fiergie.

A few moments later, Firgie's men began to roar and were suddenly heard nothing more, silent and quiet. Firgie's really gone.

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My company stands before me at this moment, this is my life, my struggle must be flared again. I go into my locker, I know everyone I know, I smile. I have to be happy, I have to start and organize my life. I have to get better.

After my decision last night, I was great, at least that's what I had to instill to encourage myself. I'm going to YOU, my Robb, may every tired drop of my sweat work into worship in Your eyes, yes I must be happy..

On the way to l**ine, a hand grabbed me.

"Lyra," said.

"Mak Alika." Honestly in my mind it was great to meet you. As usual, we have a cipiki as a sign of our brotherhood.

"How was last night?" tanyakanya.

"Already Ma'am," replied there are still claustrophobic follow me.

"You've cut off your relationship?" ask again to make sure.

"Yes, ma'am" I replied.

Suddenly Madam Alika strengthened her embrace on my shoulder.

"Lyra's spirit, Ma'am proud of you. And Alloh must be smiling to see you now," he said.

Suddenly the remaining water droplets last night forced back out of his dispute.

"Hey, don't cry" Alika read my pain.

"Sir, can I be consistent with my faith? What if I miss him, because he's always by my side Ma'am, "spontaneously every word comes out of my lips now.

"If you miss your love, bow down to the Owner of Love, weep ... Inshaa Allaah your burden will subside, and beg for steadiness and determination of your faith," said mbak Alika affirm me.

"Yes, how's ta'aruf going?" I asked as my mood began to improve.

"in 2 weeks you're getting married to Ly" he said.

"Mbak, congratulations ... Lyra was happy. But why so fast, ma'am?"

"Mbak's future husband, will continue S2 in Surabaya. Ma'am will come with him after marriage" he said.

"Mbak ... if Mbak leaves? then who will encourage Lyra?" shirihku.

"We can still communicate, every week in "Al-Munawar Mosque" there is always a study. You have to try to come yes, science can be from anywhere, books, friends, radio. The important thing is that you have to strengthen your hijrah determination. Friday studies in the auditorium also do not you stay, many great Muslim women around us. You have to multiply your Muslim sisters, in order to encourage each other, Lyra understand what you mean?"

"Yes, In Shaa Alloh" I replied.

The doorbell rang, we parted because Alika was different from me. I do every product in front of me better.. It must be the spirit of Lyra, my mind though I do not shake the turmoil of pain still accompanies.

"Ly, why did you start working?" said Kak Fida who stood by me.

"Gpp Kak, again males by the way," I said.

"Firgie's relationship is good, isn't it?"

"Sister Gimana, so ta'aruf with Kak Farida's friend?" ask me on the back of our activities.

"This is Alloh Ly, you come with Firgie!! time out of my marriage, Firgie went to halalin lo rush," he said.

Not yet, hopefully next year, my inner. Brother Fida did not know the incident last night, as well as Mbak Alika, Kak Fid is also doing ta'aruf and I do not want to increase the burden with my dilemma.

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I'm at the invitation to go home right now,

Usually a gust of wind will very easily sweep my eyes and make me dissolved in a dream. But not at this time, many times I tried to close my eyes, but still drowsiness as if being away from me.

I stared at every road and building I went through, but somehow Firgie's shadow that I kept seeing in my imagination. Every place has a story about us.

How is this Robb?

I'll grab my phone on my shoulder soon,

"What am I looking for, a message from him? Lyra, I realized last night you had put some distance for her. Why do you feel like you've lost him now ...

I move my legs slowly towards my seat, I take a long breath. I need more oxygen right now, to recover my inner tightness.

Dusk has entered his complaint, and,

The bright clouds are fading..

Left behind in the dark and quiet within the confines of my box room, my kossan..

Soon I performed my Isyaku worship when the call of the Adhan began to reverberate, I read some love letters Robbku now, I read and I responded to the meaning of each verse I read, very beautiful words presented Robbku as a sign of his love, he said, there is a picture of Heaven that makes me excited to reach it, and there is also a picture of hell that makes me shudder and afraid to do things that he does not like.

I'm looking at 20:30 at the moment..

The night time turns..

I feel more alone, though,

In this place..

Love songs we hear

Words of love spoken

And i'm..

I miss and miss that moment..

Astagfirulloh's chat..

I offer an apology for the weakness of my faith that still remembers our mistakes..

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And to you, the man I have truly left behind, prepare yourself to be my priest..

I'm gonna be right here..

With the do'a I have, I hope you stay firm there..

We can only hope and strive but only Allah SWT is the All-Willed, who is better for me and for you. If it is our destiny to live together, someday the time will come..

I closed my yellow diary..

*Dakta Bekasi Muslim Radio Player,

Nasyid chants accompany my night now, every meaningful word sounds beautifully in my ears right now..

Suffice it...

I kept all my stories

Formerly

Of mine...

About whatever makes me

Mean nothing

At my junction...

Stand up

Mutely

I must decide

Where do I step...

No more

My age even though I don't know

Where else do I run

Pursue hope

Which could be dodging

Leave it

I live with new breath

Breath that holds peace

At the intersection

I stood up

I left it in January

My dark...

Of mine

The past made me

Mean nothing...

(Crossroads I Stand - Edcoustic )

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#Happy reading❤❤