Destiny Love Lyra, Between Love And Life

Distrusting

Ahh Gie, I don't seem to have another world besides you. You're always around me...

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At 12:40

I got to ketoprak at this time. Still don't look Firgie there ...

10 Minutes passed, and,

The red satria I knew were beginning to reveal themselves.

The man in the hat with his sweet smile headed towards me at this moment.

Without waiting for long, he was sitting by my side.

When I look at Firgie's face, don't you get tired of always meeting me, you always seem ready and want to be near me. But I think my heart began to waver Gie, wavering as the light of faith began to fill the recesses of my heart.

"Have message?" his tanyanya dunked my seagrass.

I'm shaking.

He immediately stood up to the ketoprak seller who seemed to be cutting the bellows there. And Firgie ordered 2 ketoprak dishes for our lunch..

"I'm sorry I asked to buy something before I left, so I'm late" he explained.

"Yes gpp," I said.

"Why not tell since then if it has finished its study. I can't drive you to buy what you need, not walk alone in the Mall like this."

Yes, walking with you to the Mall both, I used to love it. But now, I feel ashamed of my hijab. Not to mention you will definitely hold my hand.. Duh, I'm sorry Gie I chose to find what I need myself now..

"So early in the morning you came out with me, I don't feel good about mom if you have to come out to see me again" I said looking for an excuse.

"It's easy, I'll calm down if I go see you,"

*But I'm not calm Gie..

"Buy what's inside?" tanyakanya.

"Buy skirts" I replied.

"Rock? who for?" Firgie looked surprised because I almost never wore a skirt.

"Forku"

The ketoprak seller seemed to come to us with 2 plates of ketoprak in his hand. Ketoprakpun already in front of us at this time. And we started to eat it.

"Why do you suddenly want to wear a skirt?" firgie said she wanted to know.

And I explained about the science I learned yesterday about women who can't look like men. Because the pants also tend to form a woman's body.

Firgie looked nodded.

The food on our plates was gone. Firgiepun drove me home.

"I'm sorry I didn't go in, Ly," Firgie told me

"The first thing this morning I've been here is not good to see the others," he added.

"Yes, gpp."

Honest in my heart glad you're home Gie, sorry.

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19:05

I felt the tightness was already very deep filling the recesses of my heart. I can't stand the dilemma I've been through myself ...

Finally I decided to split my tightness with Mbak Alika, if then he stayed away when he knew I was playing with non-muhrim, I was ready to accept it. I'm just trying to be honest..

"Assalamu'alaikum Mbak" said my greeting to be our chat opener.

"Wa'alaikumum salam Lyra, tumben you nelfon mbak first. What's up Ly?" ask her gently.

"Are you busy? there's something I want to tell you, ma'am" I said.

"Please! just tell me Ly."

"Sir, have you ever dated before the hijrah?" ask me carefully.

"Why suddenly ask that?"

"While you want to ask me that?" my answer.

"Bak to be honest with you Ly, yes ever .." he said softly.

Hahh mbak Alika also dated, I became more curious. How could Alika react to it, my mind.

"Then, how's your boyfriend doing now?" finally the question was thrown out, because confused where to start this discussion.

"After mbak know his knowledge, mbak immediately asked to break up Ly, it happens that our relationship also just so mbak think before mbak increasingly use the heart mbak," he said.

"Will you accept your decision?" ask me again curious.

"At first he did not agree but when mbak revealed hijrah mbak, and mbak will wear the clothes of Syar'i he then agreed. yasudah, indeed he is not the best for Mbak," he replied.

"Honestly, why would Lyra ask that?"

"Lyra ..what a long relationship you've had with her,"

"It's been 1 year Ma'am" I replied.

"Yes Alloh Lyra, that's a long time ago. Have you ended your relationship now?"

"That's it, not yet Ma'am." I said.

"Be quick in the goodness of lyra, you already know that God does not like it" he said mbak alika.

"I'm afraid to lose again, Ma'am, because I've lost someone's love before, too,"

"Alloh will surely replace with another love more for you, rest assured Lyra!! Than you keep piling up sins by being close to him."

"Yes, but we love each other so much ...."

"True love belongs only to Alloh Lyra.."

"Then I have to what do you think, Ma'am?"

"If you already love each other, there is only 1 way Ly," he said.

"What is mbak?" tanyaku.

"Be sure of him regarding your relationship, but first you have to be completely ready whatever your friend answers later,"

"I mean Ma'am?"

"Because 1 of your questions will change the whole course of your life.. First of all, he'll propose to you because he doesn't want to lose you. And the second possibility, he will leave you, because he is not ready or maybe another reason.. You have to be ready with that answer Ly.."

"Do you think Ma'am,? I hope he will give an answer with the first option. But if otherwise, how is this Robb..

"Lyra, things will not be easy for you, but rest assured Love is the most eternal, it does not demand, it will not be prejudiced and it will not hurt. Make a quick decision Ly, do not let him the person you love in the world, it will be your enemy later even blame each other later ...."

"If you need friends and loneliness after that, you can play at home mbak.." added mbak Alika.

Ma'am Alika is very wise.thank you Robb, has presented Mbak Alika near me. At first I thought Alika would stay away from me, but it turns out he even tried to embrace me.

All of Alika's words were right, I had to make up my mind.. Firgie had to know the dilemma I was going through, whether she understood it or not afterwards..

Astagfirulloh, I even forgot. My call is still going on, and I'm busy with my own daydream..

"Sir, thank you so much for every solution. Thank you for leading my way." I said.

"Sama-sama Lyra, you are still learning. The spirit yes, the temporary sadness for happiness forever insyaaAlloh is more important than the momentary happiness but the regret forever. Happy resting Lyra, assalamu'alaikumm.."

"Wa'alaikum greetings," I closed my conversation.

Ma'am Alika .. told you, grew my spirit. Thank you Ma'am...

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The phone is still in my hands. Until a message from Firgie pops up there..

"What are you doing? Already eaten?" tanyakanya.

The attention that used to make me melt and tremble, now leaves me claustrophobic. Well, before you justify me..

I'm sorry to ignore a message from you, Gie..

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Yeah Robb..

If I could choose, of course I would love to be born from a family that understands your religion. The family that fortified the faith was completely in my heart. The family that gives the norm according to your norm.. Teach and remind what can and cannot be done, what is right and wrong according to YOUR teachings..

So that I may not be what I am today, seek the truth of Your religion, and find it after my heart has been polluted with love other than Yours. Forgive Ya Robb's servant..

Always guide the servant's steps in getting closer to you..

You know yes Robb. After this the servant will make a big decision for the servant's heart, if Firgie is indeed good for the servant. Make it easy for us Yes Robb, open his heart to dare to justify the servant. But the opposite if Firgie hesitates. Ikhlaskan..

Just close the heart of the servant of Rob of any man, who has no good intentions for the servant.. And reopen this heart to the person who truly loves you. The one who fears YOUR punishment and the one who will bring your servant to Your true love to Jannah.. Taking Love on Love..

Make the Love that appears later in the life of the servant is the Love that grows because of the love for YOU..

Aami..

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I'm putting penaku..

I closed my yellow diary..

First scratch..

My love letter to Robbku..

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