Demians

CHAPTER 24 - Incredible Cravings

I just kept quiet all the way home, I ignored Luna who was trying to talk to me while driving my car.

The Flashback

Bian didn't stop kissing me. I who was lulled in his touch could only close my eyes enjoying Bian's free hand touching me. When Bian kissed my neck, I could only groan favourably. Maybe it was pregnant like her, where I felt the lust within me increasing. My consciousness returned when Bian tried to insert his hand into the dress I was still wearing.

“Bian stop...” when Bian tries to touch my stomach. I didn't want Bian to be suspicious of my stomach condition that looked firmer because of my pregnancy.

Slowly Bian helped to tidy me up again. I repeatedly heard the apology from him who was sorry for his actions that were out of control.

Cup…

“stop says sorry. I gapapa kok” said I comforted him by kissing his lips briefly. Bian instantly silently looked at my actions.

“I miss you” shrieked by looking at me deeply. I wanted to scream to say that I miss him too, but I shouldn't be weak because of it. I got out of bed and rushed packing.

“eliminate the taste of kangen Bi. I've let you go. I hope after this we do not meet back” I said slowly but firmly to him while packing my things.

“why?? Is it because of that incident? I want to know why you let me go Demetra!!” I was shocked and reflexively held onto my stomach when I heard Bian's clasping. I hope he doesn't realize my attitude.

“I was confused when you decided on me unilaterally on the phone. When we meet again, you act as if you miss me. You hugged me all of a sudden, you ate my ration of food, and now?? You're back to being cold with me. I'm confused as to your attitude Demiii!” he was frustrated while shuffling his coarse hair.

I walked in front of Bian and hugged him, “forgive me my attitude that confused you Bi. I promise after this I will not behave like this with you. Like I said before, you deserve better than me. Forget that feeling Bi, we can continue our relationship to a more serious level. We are friends like this. I can't heal that wound anyway. We are both hurt by the incident” obviously me who makes his eyes emit disappointment and sadness.

I do not want to burden you with the fruit of our love, let me bear it all, I continued in my heart.

I took the key to the room in Bian's pants pocket as he focused on looking at me. Without saying anything more, I rushed out of the room leaving Bian who was again injured because of my words.

I'm sorry Bi.I gamau you also take part in bearing this all. Let me bear it, I said in my heart while gently rubbing my stomach. I am determined to live a new life with my children without Bian's shadow.

End Flashback

“daritadi mbak mbamunin papa kids ya?” asked Luna who made me realize from my daydream.

“I am confused with Mbak Demi.orang is clearly Mas Bian's love of death as mbak, but mbak even take it off. Ma'am Demi gamau being selfish what for children? Kalopun Mas Bian has another girl, yes the girl should know herself dong if Mas Bian is the same love Mbak Demi. There is proof of it” is clear at length while pointing at my stomach.

“if he was already close to the girl first yes mbak must give up...mbak also feels guilty about the girl if she reaches mbak and Bian has been in touch so far” I replied slowly, “udah. He was just in the past and thought it was an accident. After all, if they have been born and asked his father, he will introduce them to Bian well. But that's later, not now”.

Luna who heard my explanation was just a head bobble, “ whatever Demi deh…what is clear is that Mbak Demi does not complain that later she will have her own difficulties with a pregnancy that cravings related to Mas Bian”, he said, which I do not respond further. I can only pray and hope not to crave things that make things difficult for me later.

You strong yes.mama hope you do not protest with the decision of the mother who avoids your papa, I said in my heart while rubbing my stomach.

*****

It turns out that my decision to avoid Bian got a protest from our future baby. After returning from the Peak, my morning sickness became more and more and I felt like I wanted to be close to Bian. I could only look at the picture I downloaded from his social media in lieu of Bian's presence. Miraculously, when I kissed Bian's picture before going to bed, my nausea was slightly reduced in the morning. Two vs one, of course I'll lose.

Luna and Tisha who were concerned about my condition wanted to contact Bian. I who knew it immediately let out my anger at them. Finally they undo his intentions and only help relieve my nausea. Since I was pregnant, my emotions have become unstable. I who harbored my longing for Bian was too deep to vent it with anger and vague urgency. I am still stubborn and feel the prestige to just communicate with Bian through voice and writing. Luna, Tisha, Jihan, Ines, Devan, and Alfi who eventually learned of my pregnancy gave up on persuading me to make peace with Bian.

When I had my second checkup at 12 weeks, Doctor Gina told me to control my emotions and try to make peace with me. My consultation with Doctor Gina made me realize that my womb was at stake. After being examined, it turned out that my content was quite weak due to lack of nutritional intake and stress factors from me. My heart aches when I see the movement of my twin fetuses that look weak when done ultrasound.

“Bu Demi, try doing meditation independently or doing light activities to relax the mind of the mother. I know the mother is in a difficult time because of the current condition, but try to think about the prospective child in the mother's stomach. I apologize if I am sassy to comment on the matter of Ms. Demi, but God has already entrusted them because this has become the destiny of the mother. Maybe with them, it can improve the relationship of Miss Demi with the biological father of the mother fetus. I as a doctor can only provide moral support and help according to my ability. I hope next month when we meet again, the condition of the mother and fetus has improved. Here I add a prescription from the previous one to strengthen the content of Bu Demi” explained Doctor Gina while writing an additional prescription.

After getting in the car, I cried in the arms of Tisha who accompanied me to check the contents. I blame myself for not being able to take care of my body properly.

“hiks mbak afraid can not be a good mother for them deck.” isakku in the arms of Tisha. I took off my arms and rubbed my stomach that started to bulge, “forgive my dear mother..mama is so selfish not to think of you guys.hiks” Tisha clasped my hand that was rubbing my stomach.

“mbak from now on focus the same them yes.do not make the problem mbak as a burden that is too heavy. Adek, Luna, and mbak friends will always support and give their best to mbak” and children said Tisha who advised me by cupping her hands on my cheeks.

*****

Right now I, Ines, Devan, and Alfi are gathering in the cake shop's den. Jihan couldn't come because she only visited me a week ago. Ines and Devan don't take Gabby and leave her to Ines' mom. After two weeks of relaxing my mind, I finally felt better and stronger in enjoying my pregnancy. My gestational age entering the 14th week slowly made my body weight increase and my distended stomach became more visible. Fortunately I've not experienced nausea, but I still feel the cravings, especially those related to Bian.

“lo tell him what to do when he sends it to Jakarta?” I asked Alfie. I was afraid that Alfi would ask Bian to come to Jakarta to fulfill my request.

“gue said I want to *C*Ku Chocolate directly from the factory, and because he knows I know the owner, he asked to be accompanied directly by the owner“ explained Alfi who made me look at his guard.

Ines and Devan laughed at Alfi's words because the person whom Alfi meant by brother was ME. For a few days now I want My Chocolate directly from the factory. Actually, I was a little bit of a curse that began to make no sense, but imagining a chocolate that was just finished packaged and not yet done distribution made me swallow saliva because imagine the chocolate taste is still really fresh.

When Alfi tried to fulfill my wish by bringing the chocolate I wanted, I immediately threw the chocolate in his face. I know Alfi bought it from a distributor of KokelatKu in Jakarta. After receiving my tantrum, Alfi directly contacted Bian to realize my cravings that “luarget”. He was upset about being the target of my rampage.

“fix Bian makes his own son will be reeleran after birth” chirps Devan who makes me throw a pen at him because annoyed. I ruffled my hair because I felt frustrated with my threatened cravings not being achieved.

“arghh try lo chat him, say to Jakarta 2 days only.ntar ticket let me take care. I've seen My Chocolate shadows all over this room” my frustrated sigh. I was starting to get desperate about the current situation. Alfi sent a message to Bian that was immediately replied with a call. Ines requested that the call sound be hardened.

“assalamualaikum Al..duh how yes, I am also here again this very hectic. If I tell my assistant who nganterin gapapa? Later I will talk by phone to your box it's fitting my assistant give the goods” explained Bian directly when the call is connected.

“duh how ya Bi..soalanya sodaraku also ask you to wipe his stomach as well. He ngefans you as the owner of his favorite chocolate” I opened my eyes to hear the words of Alfi who was negotiating with Bian while rolling his eyes at me. Ines and Devan giggled at Alfi's words.

“kalo the day after? I have to reschedule my agenda first here. But I'll gabisa nginep later, because this is impromptu outside my agenda. Later you ask your husband cravings can still be held until the day after not.gitu” bargain Bian which makes me think if Bian is really busy there. I was annoyed with Bian being insensitive if that was my wish. Maybe his parents' instincts have not appeared because they do not know the presence of the prospective baby. Okay, I have to give up this time to fulfill my wish.

“oke I'll ask my brother first. Thanks ya Bi..maaf you already ngerepotin kamu” said Alfi finally, “sasil aja Al...” reply Bian who chuckled with the request of brother Alfi aka I.

Shit..aware you Bi if you know this is your child's request, I guarantee you will not relax and chuckle like that, I murmured in my heart.

“gue there aja deh..ntar night I leave” said after the call Alfi closed his call.

Alfi flabbergasted to hear my decision, “gila lo Dem...lo gabisa nahan ngidam lo until the day after what?? This is for a chocolate bar..”.

“gabisa..CokelatKu has made my mind and vision into error. My mouth feels just can nerima KokelatKu doang” my frustrated sigh. “lo gabakal ngerti Al...wait aja later if you have a wife who again craves strangely. I'll be the first to laugh at my cynical lo” affliction to Alfi.

Ines ended my debate with Alfi, “yalah if you want to go to Kediri, lo diemenin Jihan ya.kalo there surely he can nemenin lo. I kept in touch with Jihan first” Ines' advice then he contacted Jihan to ask her to accompany me in Kediri, where Bian is currently.

“Jihan to nemenin lo Dem. It just so happened that he was doing a job there, so Jihan is still in Kediri. Lo mending pesen ticket now so that tomorrow can be picked up Jihan” I obey Ines' speech and immediately buy a train ticket that arrives in Kediri tomorrow morning. Jihan called me right away after I booked my ticket and asked for the time of my arrival there.

Ines, Devan, and Alfi immediately parted from the cake shop to give me time to get ready. The Luna and Tisha that I told you about this impromptu plan initially didn't let me, considering that I was leaving on my own. But since my determination was already unanimous for the realization of this wish of mine, I was able to convince them. Tisha even had time to catch up with me from Solo considering that she was currently returning home, but I forbade her because I said that there was Jihan accompanying me.

Mama and papa who finally found out about my pregnancy story can only give advice so that I always be careful on the road and keep in touch during the trip. They found out about my condition when they visited me at the apartment two weeks ago secretly. Mama was worried about my condition not coming home for the last few months, finally desperate to invite papa to visit me. At first you had emotions and forced me to hold me accountable, but I convinced you that I had no problem raising my children alone. Mama and papa finally accepted my decision and were ready to help financially for the needs of their future grandchildren.

Luna finally helped prepare my departure and prepared snacks for my snacks during the trip. Luna was also the one who drove me to the station and accompanied me until I got into the train.

“Lun..makasih yes during this time already want mbak repotin. You must bother to take care of the cake shop alone because you often stay? Ma'am promised after giving birth, mbak will refocus with cake shop” Luna smiled at my words.

“mbak gausah think that heavy-heavy yes.jit is Luna who thank you as mbak for wanting to accept and believe in Luna. Ms. Demi indirectly helps Luna meet the daily needs of Luna by taking care of this cake shop. Luna can also continue college because of the work that Mbak Demi gave” I was touched to hear the explanation of Luna who I had considered a sister because she was the same age as Tisha.

“Mbak Demi stay HP yes..many are waiting for news from Mbak Demi later. If you have not forgotten to tell others” I nodded my head in response.

We ended up parting ways at the ticket checkpoint and I got straight into the train.

For the sake of you mama willing to go to your papa place. Hopefully there later papa will not find our existence, baby, I said in my heart while rubbing my distended stomach.

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