Demians

CHAPTER 20 - The Round Determination

I woke up when I heard the sound of things being cleaned up. I saw someone putting my stuff in a suitcase. When the man turned around, it turned out that he was Bian.

Bian smiled gently at me when he saw me was awake, “abis maghrib we go home ya” he said gently while rubbing my hair. I shuddered in horror when I saw Bian's gentle demeanor. I didn't expect that behind her gentle and flat attitude, Bian could look terrible when beating someone. I can't even believe he nearly killed someone.

Wait, what did he say? I go home with him? No. I don't want to stay close to him for long. Suddenly the shadow of our hot scene and the shadow of Bian smashing at Mas Bagas again spun in my head. I shook my head trying to dispel that shadow in my mind.

“Ines same Devan where?” I asked to divert the conversation.

I thought Bian would open the door to go out and call Ines and Devan, and he locked it and opened my blanket.

“do you want to do?” I was panicking to see Bian take off the pants I was wearing. I tried to hold his hand so as not to touch myself again but lost with his strength.

I closed my eyes when my core area was again visible to him. Suddenly I felt something cold clinging to my core area. It turned out that Bian applied the ointment all over my core area.

“maafin me who is floundering to make you like this” he said sadly while applying ointment. I looked at Bian who was focused on treating my core area with his guilty look.

I just kept quiet not responding to her words. That feeling of tightness was again present in me. As much as I could I held my tears from coming out.

“abis please call Ines and Devan” I said flat after Bian back tidying up my clothes.

Ines and Devan enter the room, followed by Bian, Alfi, and Jihan.

“Dev...My car key is where?” ask me after Devan and Ines sit next to the bed. Just like Bian, I shuddered in horror when I saw Devan. It's hard for me to believe Ines's story before. Behind his friendly looks, it turns out Devan also has a terrible side.

“eh..ada in Bian right?” he hesitated while looking at Bian.

“lo grab the key, after that let's get ready to go home. I told Ines. You know that, right?” Devan just scratched his nape looking at me who was staring intently at him.

“u-already anyway...cuman..” the answer is hanging, “kuman what??” tanyaku sharp.

“kuman you can only come home with me. Not with the others” said Bian flat which made me stare intently at him.

“you have no right to force me to go home with you. I want Devan to drive my car” me and Bian finally look at each other sharply.

“I have rights.because you are mine. I will not let you off after what happened” said Bian casually who immediately ignited my emotions.

“aku is not an item that you can claim at will” reply me with a tone that began to rise. Ines who saw me and Bian defend each other's egos tried to calm us down.

“udah Bian, Demi..pacify yourself.” said Ines as he rubbed my arm and looked at me and Bian alternately.

“mmm gini Dem..sorry yes if this is for you offended, but we had a discussion that you are more safe if you go home with Bian. Lo know yourself how you are now.then if there is anything on the road, if you are the same Bian can be directly handled as Bian gitu” said Alfi slowly who tried not to touch me.

“what because I have slept with Bian eating Bian so entitled to me and you so sorry if adjacent to me? Wow really friends once you guys” my cynic, “one thing you need to know..gue did not ask Bian to help me. I still remember that you two told Bian to do me, right? Thanks Al, Dev” continued me while pointing Devan and Alfi alternately.

“not what we mean Dem...” said Alfi who tried to clear up this misunderstanding. I cut off Alfie's words.

“gapapa kok.lagian already happened too. I'm just disappointed that you guys are the same as me. I feel alien to you. Even now you like the discussion behind me and decide unilaterally without asking for my approval” I'm disappointed, “oke later I return with Bian if it's your decision. Follow me” break up I finally and then get up from bed to go to the bathroom. I don't know why I've felt more sensitive since that incident.

“gue can be alone really, thanks” reject me smooth when Ines and Jihan try to help me. I saw sad looks from them but I ignored them.

I tried to walk slowly, to the bathroom. Fortunately, the pain began to diminish. I went back to the ritual bath to ease my emotions.

In accordance with the initial agreement, we began to prepare after the Maghrib prayer. Bian forbade me to put things in the trunk so I just sat down while observing the others. It is still clearly a sad look of Bu Rima who hopes to negotiate back with me related to the criminal actions of Mas Bagas. I just smiled sadly in reply because I also hope that Bu Rima understands my condition.

After getting in the car, I started to break down the seats and turn on the music. I will indeed silence Bian during the trip. Bian also seemed to be in no mood to open a conversation with me.

After performing his prayers at the Tegal City mosque, my car parted with Alfi's car because Bian stopped by McD for a drive-thru. I'm not in the mood to eat just order one cheeseburger. Bian had wanted to add to my order, but I refused.

Starting to enter the toll, I immediately finished the cheeseburger so I could sleep afterwards. When entering the area of West Java, I who was sleeping suddenly woke up because I felt the turmoil in my stomach. I told Bian to stop by the side of the road and immediately spit out the cheeseburger I had eaten. Bian painstakingly massaged my nape and cleared my mouth after vomiting.

“better?” bian asked who looked calm but I could still see the look on his worried face. I just nodded my head to answer.

After getting back in the car, Bian immediately took the p3k box in the dashboard drawer and took out the wind oil inside. My hair that I pulled out of after vomiting made it easier for Bian to apply wind oil on my neck and neck.

“nih used the mask so no nausea again” said Bian who thrust a mask at me taken from the p3k box.

“iya thank you” I took the mask in his hand and immediately put it on, “ I sleep first yes, later you wake me up if you have reached Jakarta” without waiting for the answer I immediately closed my eyes.

I woke up and looked around me, I felt like I was no stranger to this place. I realized that I was in the room in the cake shop right now. I felt something hit my stomach. Gesture the body to the side and look directly at the face of Bian who fell asleep peacefully. For a long time I looked at his face which still looked handsome even though he was sleeping. I heard a soft snore from him. He must be very tired, I murmured inwardly.

My hands started to move touching his face. The skin is mature but looks very smooth and clean, lashes are pliable, nose is sharp, lips are standard (not thick or thin) pink because Bian is not a smoker. I smiled weakly considering the events of this morning. I still do not expect if today is a historic day for me where I give my honor to the person who managed to destroy my feelings for 4 years.

My tears suddenly fell. I feel sad and devastated that we did it because we were forced to at the wrong time. It is not yet time for me to give my crown to someone who is not my husband. Regretted? Sure oes. Moreover, I had to let it go because of the crazy ambition of someone I had never imagined before. Suddenly I remembered a woman named Sarah who became one of the triggers of all the problems that occurred. What if he finds out what I've done with Bian behind him? Is he going to hit me and label me as an actor for taking Bian away from him? I don't want to be like that.

“I love you Bian..will always love you” lirihku slowly then kiss her soft lips. Fortunately Bian slept too soundly so he did not wake up to what was happening right now.

I slowly moved her hand over my stomach, then got up and walked towards the bathroom in the room.

“eh...Bian know the address of the cake shop from where? I haven't told you the specific location” mutteredku who monologues himself.

After I changed my clothes and did some cleaning, I immediately took my HP and opened it. I have to ask someone.

“halo mbak...what's the phone midnight gini?” greet someone there with a raucous voice.

“Lun, you know Bian's cake shop address yes?” ask me to the point.

“hmmm” murmured and then there was a yawning sound from there.

“you really bucket really Lun.gimana if later he often come here try..” I am upset with the actions of my assistant this one.

“hhhh gini ya mbak..mstill mending me ngasitau address cake shop. He was going to ask for the address of Demi's apartment. Which one to choose? What apartment cake shop?” asked Luna after she was fully conscious.

“awas aja you if ngasitau address of the apartment. Gaada who can know unless you and Tisha” threaten me, “trus...means you were here dong? Are the keys the same as you?” manya curious.

“iyalah..oiya tomorrow mbak must be a story in detail yes mbak about what happened between mbak and Mas Bian..i smell something that is not right this” said Luna with a search.

“hmmm...” sahutku lazy and directly close our call. I went straight out of the bathroom after I finished calling Luna.

“For?” call Bian who woke up unknowingly, “you where?” continued.

“ssshhh..I’m here” said I who started rubbing his head to calm him.

“don't stay me Dem...i gamau lose you again” muttered then sounded soft snoring from Bian who returned to sleep.

I was silent to Bian's words. Has Bian suffered as much as I have all this time? Why would he say such a thing? I shook my head slowly. Maybe he was just hallucinating. I went back to lying next to her and hugged her to make the most of the good times before I took it off. I fell asleep immediately when I smelled the very distinctive aroma of Bian.

*****

I woke up when I heard a call notification sound from HP. I saw the clock showing the number 5 on the HP screen.

“halo...” raucous sapaku for just waking up.

“you just woke up huh?” ask someone there. I was no stranger to his voice. I saw the caller ID on the HP screen, it turns out that the one who called was Bian.

“Bian?” I realized immediately, “kok I gor you already go?” I asked who saw the bed next to me that was empty.

“sorry yes I did not wake you.So you are very good sleep. I got on the plane in the morning because, eating it at 3 this time I was picked up by a friend to go to the airport” he explained.

“oh...thank you yes nganterin I arrived safely at the store.safe flight yaa” I said softly.

“iyaa. You are also careful yaa..don't work first if it still hurts” Bian's message to me, “later I call you again if it's already landing ya” he continued.

“mmm Bi...” call me hesitate, “iya??” the answer.

“better we have trouble relating again yes..” I said slowly and carefully. Bian just kept quiet not responding to my words.

“I want us to introspect each other about what happened to our relationship. Maybe we are too rushed and not ready if we have to go further. More than this incident, I need time alone to recover all my wounds. I hope you understand yes.you are good Bi, I love and love you, but from all this I think we better walk each other. You desire to get someone better than me. Once again sorry..” without hearing the answer, I immediately initiated a unilateral call and again blocked Bian's number. I cried as much as I mourned my destruction today.

*****

Luna woke me up to deliver breakfast. I fell back asleep after the dawn prayer. He didn't ask me anything about my current condition which definitely looks very sad. Patiently Luna bribed me and waited for me to tell a story.

“bakkabak ya Lun..first time courtship turned out to only last less than 3 days. Not comparable to the waiting mbak so far” said I who opened the conversation.

“tadi Mas Bian called me and asked me about the news. I who do not know about mbak and Mas Bian confused gabisa reply. Trus finally he message to me to keep mbak and he said he would respect the decision mbak” explained Luna who was confused because she did not know anything, “mbak, but Luna is like a fool who does not understand anything.Mbak Demi wants to tell everything right?” I just kept quiet, didn't answer Luna's question.

After breakfast, I began to tell from the beginning of my departure with Bian to the heartbreaking news, Luna who heard him could not hold back her tears.

“maafin I ya mbak, have forced Mbak Demi to make a story. I am really tired if it turns out that Ms. Demi had to experience such painful things” said Luna then hugged me and we cried together.

“mbak...I can ask for one thing?” asked Luna after taking off our embrace.

“mbak must promise yes if this is the last tear that can be released for this event. I'm sure Mbak Demi after this can definitely be a tough woman” I who have stopped crying nodding my head to hear Luna's request. I also promised in my heart that after this I would have to open a new page to live a better life than now.

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