Demians

PROLOGUES

Sorry if there are any disrespectful words in this story. I hope the reader is wise in reading this story, thank you.

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Instantly my eyes opened and a white ceiling greeted me who woke up in sweat when the temperature in the room was quite cold. I was silent adjusting to my existence, trying to remember where I was. I looked around the room, a room with pastel blue walls with all-white furniture showing that I was currently in my bedroom.

My brain was busy thinking about a dream just now that made me unable to sleep well. What does that dream mean? Why did he suddenly come back who made my hard-won memory come back to me? W-is it my time for these 3 years to erase herself in my heart and mind?

He is the one who makes my mind and heart full of him. Five years ago we met for the first time. Love grew in my heart after a year of knowing her. A love that stifled me because she disappeared into the earth after our graduation and made me feel a deep sadness for a year. If asked when the worst times in life, I would answer that 22 years is a time when I am really down, stuck in the bottom of the abyss for a year. Maybe people will laugh at me too much for failing to move on. It's natural for me to be like this if she's my first love.

Five years ago I met him for the first time. I don't have that feeling for him yet because my first impression** initially thought he was a flat, stiff, hard person to communicate with. He was indeed telling the truth if he would behave like that with others. Somehow as I got to know her more deeply, she would slowly show her true attitude towards me. I felt that he would behave like that only in front of me. My other friends feel that way too. Eventually my friends started teasing me with her.

At first I thought it was a joke, but gradually I felt another feeling. I who haven't experienced falling in love finally felt it for the first time. The love that I ended up only able to hold in my heart for fear that she would stay away from me when I found out. We did end up being close for a year. It was during that year that my love grew bigger and I could only hold it in my heart. I thought that at graduation I would express my feelings and not expect anything back from him because I thought I would forget about him after we graduated.

But apparently, he disappeared first when I had not realized my plan. I who was not prepared for his departure failed to move on for a year. I was completely crushed at that moment because my feelings became hanging without any certainty. As hard as I can forget about it but the more I try, the more it will stick in my memory.

I decided to reimagine my life that had been messed up for a year because of him. Slowly I got back to living motivation to achieve my dreams. My mind had been distracted for three years until he reappeared even though only in my dreams. Finally the question came back to haunt me after a long time gone.

My daydreams ran out when I heard the sound of a message notification on my HP from someone. Lazily, I took the HP I put on the nightstand beside the bed. I snorted as I read the message which made me want to not wake up and prepare myself.

Miss Demiku…

I otw Jakarta nih.kangen.

Pick me up in Tebet, I have 2 more stations.

I await your presence huha & 'em

-Tisha

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