Demians

CHAPTER 16 - Misunderstanding

“hoaaamm..want breakfast what?” ines asked while yawning at me and Jihan.

I, Jihan, and Ines are in the kitchen to prepare breakfast. When Jihan and I were about to take ablution, we passed with Alfi, Bian, and Mas Bagas who were about to go to the mosque to perform dawn prayers. Before leaving, Mas Bagas suddenly told him that this morning he had to go to the city. At first we asked if Mas Bagas went to the city to pick up Bu Rima, but it turned out that Mas Bagas left because of other business. Mas Bagas said that Bu Rima would be back by Sunday afternoon.

At first Mas Bagas said he wanted breakfast outside, but Jihan and I forbade him and said that Bagas was allowed to leave after breakfast. Finally Jihan and I decided to prepare breakfast after the dawn prayer and Ines had to end her dream because we were forced to wake up.

“after again they will turn back the abisnya the study is finished, so do not wait long mending make a sandwich…yesterday I had time to buy a little bit of bread sih” said while looking for the existence of the bread, “we make two layers to fit the same portion of men, <TAG1>, ntar abisnya breakfast the same clean-house I make cakes for snacks before lunch if the boys are hungry again” continued me.

“free deh. Oiya Dem, later make Mas Bagas made two servings yes.create him in jalan” suggested Jihan.

“can, but later you who love ya..fear that I love and caught Bian, ntar kayak last night again.ribet” Jihan and Ines laugh a little at my answer. Indeed they already knew the story between me and Bian last night.

“iya deh yes..different emang if already there is the owner” jibhan tuk while smiling meaningfully to me. I just rolled my eyeballs.

Finally we started preparing the ingredients to make sandwiches and tea as our breakfast menu this morning. The sandwich menu this time contains cornet on the bottom layer and cow's eye eggs on the top layer. Ines bakes bread to make crunchy and tea, Jihan cooks beef eggs and heats cornets, while I prepare vegetables and cheese as a complement and compose sandwiches. I gave lettuce along with cucumber slices, tomatoes, also a sprinkling of grated cheese and did not forget to pour mayonnaise and sauce in each layer.

“woahhh sandwich is fat.certainly full we” said Ines who sparkled to see the sandwich that I have already.

We finished making breakfast to coincide with the return of Alfi, Bian, and Mas Bagas from the mosque. After changing clothes, Mas Bagas went straight to the middle room where we did breakfast followed by Alfi, Bian, and Devan who seemed still not fully aware.

Ines takes Devan's sandwich and puts it on Devan's lips. Devan who had not opened his eyes frowned feeling a foreign object stuck to his lips. Devan's tongue started licking his own lips because of the sauce from the sandwich that was stuck to his lips. I shook my head at Ines and Devan's behavior. At the sight of Bian, I immediately took his sandwich ration and moved it to a small plate.

“ini breakfastnya” said softly which Bian immediately received while smiling and saying thank you.

“you're playing like Ines and Demi, my baby Jihan??” the envious Alfi chirps saw the romance of Ines and Devan as well as me and Bian.

“hard spoiled, got hands right? If you want to be taken tuhh ask the same Mas Bagas sana” said Jihan ketus.

Hearing his name being mentioned, Mas Bagas immediately took a sandwich for Alfi. Alfi accepted it with a frown so we laughed at Alfi's expression.

“oiya Mas Bagas.ini we made two sandwiches for Mas Bagas yes.later the other one made provisions in jalan” said Jihan while putting a sandwich belonging to Mas Bagas the other into the lunch box.

“oh yes Ma'am Jihan..tank you already bothered to be prepared” said Mas Bagas when receiving the lunchbox from Jihan. Jihan just nodded with a smile.

“where are you going mas?” ask Devan who does not know the news.

“ada affairs to the city. At least come home after dinner. Later I will tell Demi if she comes home late” replied Mas Bagas with a smile looking at me. I feel Bian tensed beside me see the attitude of Mas Bagas, “you still save my number right?” tanya Mas Bagas relaxed, ignoring the gaze of Bian who began to be unfriendly.

“oh...eh..i-iya is still mas...later report back with an awkward smile.

Long time after I returned to Bogor, Mas Bagas managed to find my instagram account and sent a message through DM to ask for my number. I who initially refused finally gave my number after Mas Bagas said that he also sent DM messages to my other friends to ask for his HP number. When I asked in the spruce group, no one was contacted by Mas Bagas through DM to be asked for his HP number. It turned out that it was just an alibi from Mas Bagas who then terrorized me for still not accepting if I had rejected his feelings. Luckily, Bagas stopped contacting me a year later after I didn't respond well.

Bian went straight into the room without saying anything after finishing his breakfast. Mas Bagas who remained relaxed after making Bian jealous also immediately rushed towards his room to get ready. After the departure of Bian and Mas Bagas, the atmosphere became awkward.

“gue try to talk to Bian ya Dem” said Alfi after finishing his breakfast and went straight to the room following Bian.

“patience yes Dem...Bian again the same bucin-bucin lo so he has not been able to control his jealousy” I smiled weakly while nodding my head when Devan tried to comfort me.

After gently patting my shoulder, Devan also followed inside the room to help Alfi talk to Bian. Me, Jihan, and Ines immediately cleaned up the rest of our breakfast after the departure of the boys and began sharing the task of cleaning the house of Bu Rima.

“Dem...you seriously gamau helped make the balls?” jihan asked who popped his head up at the kitchen window.

“I can myself kok Ji” answered me lethargic, “oiya I was wanting to be alone first Ji. Usually if I make a cake my mood will be able to improve” Jihan who understands my condition immediately left me.

I was glad that Bian really loved me as evidenced by his jealousy when Mas Bagas openly showed his feelings for me, but I was also annoyed to see Bian's excessive attitude showing his jealousy. I fear that in the future Bian will have a possessive attitude towards me that affects my interactions with others in my daily life. I actually wanted to speak from heart to heart so that Bian could control his emotions and feelings, but Bian still remained on his selfishness. It was only the first day we had this relationship but the seeds of trouble began to flourish.

My feelings improved after I managed to make a sponge. Just making a simple steamed sponge can treat my grief. I began to move the sponge to the plate and immediately brought it into the house. I saw Alfi, Devan, Jihan, and Ines sleeping in the living room. They woke up immediately when they smelled the smell of the steamed sponge I was carrying.

“asikk..finally can nyicipin cake directly from the chef” said Alfi who immediately took one sponge and ate it.

“euummm” muttered Alfi while chewing the sponge, “kayaknya if you buy in the store must spend this much money.soalya must mehong price. Nice guy like gini” comments Alfi after swallowing his first sponge.

“iya weh..when else try to eat expensive cakes free” continued Devan who also commented.

“alhamdulillah..please me if you like. Oiya Bian is still in the room?” I asked when I saw the door to Bian's room was still closed.

“still Dem...if you want to tell a sponge tap aj” Devan replied while chewing.

I took three balls that I covered with tissue, then I walked towards Bian's room.

“Bian” call me while knocking on the door, “ini I made a sponge...I entered yes??” my continue.

Just as I was about to open the door of the room, there was the sound of the door being locked from inside. My mouth was wide open in shock to see Bian's treatment of me at this moment. Alfi, Devan, Ines, and Jihan who also heard him were surprised by Bian's behavior. I immediately put the sponge I brought to the original place roughly, then immediately ran out of the house. I ignored Ines and Jihan who shouted to me.

I ran towards the tree house in the pine forest garden and immediately cried as much. Why do I doubt our relationship? Is it between me and Bian or are we not ready to show our feelings at the moment? I have been waiting for this moment for a long time, the moment where I got the answer to what I had hoped for all this time. But when I get what I expect, why do I doubt everything? Are Bian and I not meant to be a couple?

Slowly I began to control myself to be calmer. Suddenly there was the sound of someone walking up the stairs of the tree house. I immediately wiped away the remaining tears on my cheeks and rubbed my rough face.

“if you see you guys at this time, so inget early I become the same Devan used to” I glanced sideways when Ines sat beside me.

“Bian is like Devan, equally possessive of what he has claimed to be his and they will not hesitate to do something when they find out his is harassed by others. The difference is that Devan can still express and control his emotions. He will be frank about what he feels to his loved ones, while Bian will harbor those feelings that end up hurting himself as well as his loved ones.

“time first lo early soan same Devan how? Not that you guys were directly LDR not long after KKN because Devan dapet recommendation from his lecturer to do research in Japan for the script?” I asked as I looked at Ines beside me.

“We dated the same as you, maybe even worse because of the position at that time we were LDR, only able to communicate and solve everything via phone or video call. The core of all the problems that occur is trust. Trust is the most important foundation in building a relationship. Like a house, trust is like a foundation. If the foundation alone looks fragile at the beginning, the house will definitely not be able to last long.

“sorry if I say kayak gini, but I see your relationship tends to rush. I know you have known for a long time since KKN and after KKN also you often meet until finally separated after graduation. I assume you guys there already know each other's personalities. But after graduation you separated for 4 years. There you really lost contact, no communication at all and after meeting you directly so. Don't you think of anything strange?” I was silent to Ines' words.

“ya anyway you used to be familiar, but have you ever discussed or touched on your feelings?” I just put on a confused face to hear the question, “if you see the look on your face. In the end you finally just harbored the feelings of each of you and it greatly affects yourself for the last 4 years” he continued.

“gue did not disagree if you immediately dated Bian. Lo itself also know that I used to be the same Devan after several times of worship together, not long also approach. If I can give you advice, try to approach again with Bian after the breakup. As I said at the beginning, Bian and Devan have different personalities even though they are equally possessive. Try lo pahamin how the advantages and disadvantages and make him understand yourself now after 4 years you are not with him. I'm sure there must have been a slight change in Bian and you after college. If there is a deficiency that can be toxic in your relationship, try to find a solution in covering up the deficiency. It will certainly drain the emotions at first, but gradually you can control it and eventually the trust will be formed and strengthened by itself” I think of the advice given by Ines.

“thanks Nes, you've answered the doubts in me. Maybe me and Bian have to refresh our closeness that had faded after parting to be more ready again in a serious relationship” said I began to smile again. Ines hugged me as I improved.

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