Demians

CHAPTER 12 - Mas Bagas

“bu gapapa let us just sort it out all” said Jihan trying to take the pile of dirty dishes that Bu Rima had brought.

“eh gapapa mbak, you guys just chat your agenda today to say what. It was also mbak-mbak already on the cook, replace the mother who finished” prevent Bu Rima then walk out of the house to the stall with our used breakfast equipment.

Jihan sat back down to join us who started talking about the agenda today. Mas Bagas proposed that we take a walk to the pine forest park behind the house and continue to the waterfall at the end of the village, while the sore went to the urn for a soak. We immediately agreed to Mas Bagas' proposal because yesterday had been a day walking around the village (without me and Bian of course). Finally we all immediately prepared ourselves for a walk to the pine forest park.

“this must be Jihan who last took her bath..” guess me when we compiled a list of bath sequences.

“yak congratulations you are right” said Devan answered my guess while clapping.

I laughed at Jihan who just smiled shyly. When KKN, Jihan is the slowest when it comes to bathroom matters. Jihan used to make Bian rampage because he could not bear the stomach pain until finally he had to go to the mosque because Jihan was too long in the bathroom. Bian who is famous for being the most silent and indifferent made us afraid because of his rampage so much that Jihan had to follow Bian all day to get his forgiveness.

The shower queue sequence starts from Alfi, Bian, Devan, Ines, me, and finally Jihan. The bathroom in the stall was deliberately not used because it will be used by Bu Rima and Mas Bagas.

After everything was ready, we who were accompanied by Mas Bagas walked towards the pine forest garden that was behind Bu Rima's house. Arriving at the destination, I saw the layout of the park still looks the same as 5 years ago. It's just that tree houses, swings, saungs, and park benches that were once plain, are now in colorful paint, as well as stalls that are underneath.

I walked towards the tree house when the others were engrossed in their respective activities. The tree house here used to be my favorite place to be alone. Seeing the village view from above made me feel calm and peaceful. When I got to the top, I immediately sat on the edge of the board, left my legs hanging, and began to close my eyes enjoying the gusts of wind that hit my face and wagged the long hair I was breaking.

“turns out Mbak Demi hasn't changed huh..still like to sit here alone” said someone who came suddenly and immediately sat next to me.

I opened my eyes and slightly shifted away from someone who suddenly sat too close to me. I was a little annoyed by the presence of Mas Bagas who deliberately followed me to the tree house.

“hehe yes mas” I replied trying to smile politely.

“you're still awkward with me because our last chat is here huh?” tanya Mas Bagas called me with the appellations “kamu” and “aku” to call himself like that time.

The Flashback

The day before my return to Bogor, I took the time to take a walk in the pine forest garden behind Bu Rima's house. I deliberately didn't invite the others because I wanted to do me time. As I sat in one of the tree houses in the garden, suddenly Mas Bagas came up to me and sat down beside me.

“eh Mas Bagas..kok earlier I did not see any mas ya?” I was a little disturbed by his presence.

“iya earlier I was hanging out at warung under” he replied while pointing at the stall in question. I just nodded my head looking at it, “kok not the same as others?” tanyakanya.

“again want alone mas.lagian also earlier on another break after home kades sir for part” replied me.

Mas Bagas just nodded his head while looking at the view from the tree house, “how was the impression of Mbak Demi during KKN here?” he asked, turning his head to look at me.

“seru...many new things that I have never found before, trus I will gapernah live in the village so feel excited that it becomes a village community. Especially yeah?? The point is very effective during my stay here…many memories that I will not forget until anytime let alone memories with friends KKN who previously did not know during college even now become very familiar like I have known long” I said while smiling to myself imagining my activities with others during KKN.

“if I have any effect not?” mas Bagas' question made me smile awkwardly as he saw Mas Bagas suddenly looking at me with a serious look.

I laughed to eliminate the awkwardness that suddenly approached us. “Might Mas Bagas have helped a lot in connecting us with the community so that the entire program was successfully implemented. Well, we feel lucky to live in the house of Bu Rima and Mas Bagas who incidentally is the head of cadet coral in this village, so our KKN activities can take place well, smoothly, and smoothly, and of course it produces positive things for all parties” explained me who tried to be wise in front of him.

“yah..we already consider Mas Bagas and Bu Rima as my answer family” who still use the word “kami” and not “say” as the object of the question Mas Bagas.

Suddenly Mas Bagas changed his sitting position to face me, I who began to feel uncomfortable with my position finally tried to shift away from him.

“you are insensitive Demi. I fell in love with you. I hope you can later marry me and become my wife” suddenly Mas Bagas call me with the designation “kamu” and “aku” to call himself.

I closed my eyes for a moment and took a deep breath. Not that I was insensitive to his feelings, I actually already knew that Mas Bagas had more feelings for me because I observed his attitude that lately was more attentive to me than others. Mas Bagas did not show it so blatantly that Jihan, Alfi, Bian, and Devan did not know this. I finally changed my sitting position so we looked at each other.

“maaf Mas Bagas.but I think something like this need not be discussed further. I appreciate the feeling of someone who likes me, but again sorry. My priority right now is to finish college and realize the dream that I have been planning so far. In addition, I only consider Mas Bagas as a friend, no more ”, I explained, trying to give understanding to Mas Bagas.

“I know...but if we meet again, do you want to consider my feelings? I will keep waiting for you until you are ready” said Mas Bagas who looked at me with a look of hope.

“Mas Bagas a good person, hard worker, successful as a young farmer, and a role model for young people in this village. I am sure there are many women who are willing to queue up to be a gold couple. I hope you don't wait for me. Poor Bu Rima had hoped to immediately have a son-in-law and pet a grandson from Mas Bagas. Do not wait for me who is not sure when it is ready, because I myself have no thoughts towards it. I was afraid that if Mas Bagas kept waiting, I still could not return that feeling. Hopefully if later we meet again, Mas Bagas already has someone who really loves and also loves Mas Bagas. I am sure the feeling of love to me must be only temporary” I immediately stood up leaving Mas Bagas who was bowed lethargic hearing my words.

End Flashback

“hehehe how ya mas..” my word while rubbing my neck, he said, “maybe because the last chat topic is a bit sensitive so I feel a little uncomfortable if I just sit alone with Mas Bagas” I grimace a little when I say honestly about my feelings. Bagas just smiled at my statement

“do you remember not saying your last words before leaving me?” I frowned trying to remember what I said.

“if we meet again, you hope I already have a companion” I immediately smile to hear it, “turns out I have not been able to find a companion that”

“apa Mas Bagas still..” wanted me to ask how Mas Bagas feels to me at this time, but I was confused how to ask him.

“hahaha gausah is scared..” Mas Bagas laughed at my worried expression, “if you can be honest anyway, actually the feeling is still there. Moreover, the time to see you back after so long, you look much better than before, mature, and more mature. But I'm sure you still can't reciprocate my feelings and have no thoughts of getting married anytime soon. I also heard from others at this time you are enjoying your success being a cake” store owner I smiled shyly knowing Mas Bagas can understand my feelings.

“yaahh...i indeed have not been able to reciprocate the feelings of Mas Bagas and probably never will. In addition, there are still some things that I have to finish and prepare before thinking about a serious relationship, one of which is mental readiness. I still enjoy my life at this time mas” said I without looking at Mas Bagas.

“I know you will still reject me if I ask you to be my partner, but you don't refuse if I ask you to be my friend?” I laughed at Mas Bagas.

“from the past also Mas Bagas I have considered friends and family times.” I replied while looking at him amused. Bagas laughed because of my words.

“yaa means friends to tell each other that. You see, I am 30 years old and you are 25, you are still talking formally so” said Mas Bagas while pursing his lips.

“oke-oke..now I'm not formal anymore, I said” who began to change the style of conversation.

Me and Mas Bagas finally told each other about our lives. Sometimes we laugh together when we talk about funny things, so I start to feel comfortable talking to him. Although Mas Bagas still has feelings for me, I don't feel awkward talking to him alone. The mature carrying of Mas Bagas made me think of Mas Bagas like an older brother.

I heard Jihan and Ines screaming calling me and Mas Bagas from under the tree house to come down and take pictures together. Me and Mas Bagas then rushed down after I answered Jihan and Ines' call. Mas Bagas did not let go of his grip on my hand as we went down the tree house. From a distance I saw Bian looking at me and Mas Bagas with a sharp look.

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