Certified Old Virgin

Decisions.

After finishing with the administration and others, my sisters and I also brought the bodies of my mother to Jakarta. Lulu said that when she died, she wanted to be buried in her native land in Jakarta. He said he wanted to be side by side with relatives who had gone home earlier.

When we got there, my brothers and sisters greeted us. Their children and husbands also looked very longing.

Seeing how harmonious my sister's family for myself understand why Mother always undermines for this child to get married. Yes, because marriage is so beautiful. Some strengthen when fragile and some give hugs when they need support.

"Dis."

I looked to the side and found Edo approaching. He came with a tray of dishes and a glass of water. After being close, I could see that what he brought was rice and side dishes and vegetables.

"Eat first" he said as he sat by the side of the bed near my feet.

"Later on. Still full," I said as if sitting cross-legged. It's nice to be in a closet, but still not polite.

"But you only ate this morning, it's noon now. Eat first, yeah."

I looked at Edo's face. Looks a little tired of him. Even so still able to love me a little smile. Looks sincere.

The vow. I don't think the person who always sengean in my eyes turned out to be reliable. Since my mother died, she has not left at all. Even come with me to Jakarta and help out here.

"Eat, yes," he said again.

I nodded, but as I was about to grab a spoon, my hand was held. I looked at him.

"I'm the bribe."

"I can do it myself."

"But I want to. Could yeah. Rarely can you bribe."

I froze for a moment to remember that we were husband and wife.

Like a husband and wife, I should serve her. It's the opposite. Even more strange, we have never had a dream since the kabul was held.

"Open your mouth, aa …."

I followed while keeping a look on his face. I chewed this food even though the tongue could not enjoy it. When I lose my mother my mind is always laughing, the edges must be crying. Don't eat, go to the bathroom just feel lazy.

"Do," called me after swallowing the rice she was thrusting.

"Why?" He stared a long time ago.

"Thank you for coming here" I said.

Put my head he kisses slowly. Instantly this body stiffens. This is the first time he has done it.

"Sorry, I've wanted to do it for a long time. No problem, right?" tanyanya while scratching the nape.

I nodded silently. It was strange, but he was my husband. This body is halal he touched.

"And please don't hesitate. You are my wife and as a husband I am obliged to do this. My mom is also my mom."

Suddenly tears fell. Eyes and cheeks get hot. I miss my Mom. The vow.

My body was embraced by Edo. He defended me slowly. When I was treated like this, I became sadder. I miss my mother more.

"Already have. Don't cry on. Not okay. Pity Mom if we continue to cry," explained Edo. He rubbed my head.

"Already, yes, don't cry on," he continued.

Actually I know. It is not good to cry for someone who has died so long ago. But it still hurts. It feels like just yesterday Mom nagged. Everything is still in the ears.

Now that guy's gone. I haven't heard her for three days and I miss that.

"Maz, Do. Mums. I miss Mom," I said and hugged her tightly.

"Yes, I know, we're praying for Mom."

I was still in his arms. This sadness cannot be stopped. Tears are growing more and more.

I felt a caress on my back and it was Edo who did it. 3that's why I was suddenly comfortable.

"Yes already. Eat again. You're strong."

Edo parsed the embrace and then wiped off the trail of tears in my eyes with his hands.

I nodded, then returned to bribe the food. I'll be strong. I must be strong. After all, everyone in the world must have died. Without exception. It cannot be delayed or avoided.

However, it was only half gone that suddenly the door of our room was knocked from the outside.

"Sister Girl!" call Lulu. That's sound.

Edo stood up, then placed the plate onto my lap.

"You're here, let me open the door" he said.

I shut up and gave him a nod.

"Why, Lu?" ask Edo.

"That's, bang, that's .. Outside there's Mas Irka."

Irka's here?

I got out of the bed, then put the plate on the nightstand and approached the two of them.

"Outside there's Irka?" ask me to make sure.

"Yes, he came with both his parents."

I looked at Edo and saw his face slightly hardened. Maybe I don't like it when I have irka here.

"Have him wait outside, Lu," I replied to Lulu.

"Okay, brother, I'm staying."

Look at Edo's face and see him smile. I know the meaning of that smile.

"Do, you said you liked me from a long time ago right?" I asked while watching his face.

He assented with a slow nod.

"Then you believe me, right? I've chosen you, which means I'm ready to let him go. So please give me some time to finish with Irka. Don't jealous. Don't be angry and don't worry. Although our marriage was sudden but I was sure when I chose you. You believe me, right?"

Edo stared long ago, there was doubt in his eyes.

But I can't do this, I've chosen Edo so I have to end it all the same Irka. Although it was before this our relationship was over when I knew the reason he disappeared at that time.

It's just that I have to end it all so that no one else gets hurt. I chose Edo and I hope Irka can accept this decision. I'll explain it.

I went out and saw Irka sitting next to her parents. I gave them a little smile.

"Dis, we and our family joined in defending the condolences. Sorry Aunt Om can only come now, we do not know if your mother died," explained Aunt Reka.

I saw Irka and she gave a slight smile, a smile that I somehow interpreted her.

"I also did not expect that Mom would leave so soon, sorry just came now," said Irka.

Yeah, I remember that. Before Mom died, Irka did say that there were activities at school. He had to take the students on tour to Bali. In addition, when my mother died, I did not tell her at all.

"It's okay, Om, Tan. I understand and I also want to say thanks because om and aunt belain come here," I reply.

"Don't hesitate," replied Auntie Design.

I took a deep breath and watched them one by one. These eyes boil down to Irka. I see his face is still handsome even though he looks tired there.

I took out the ring I once loved.

"Dis." Irka stared hard. Maybe I didn't know the ring was gone. On my ring finger is Edo's ring.

"I'm sorry, Ka, but I can't be with you, I …."

"Girl, didn't I tell you I was with Renata …."

"This has nothing to do with Renata," I broke up quickly.

"Dis. We can start again. I've ended it all. I've …."

"Sorry, Ka, but I'm married, I chose Edo. I married her before Mom died."