Certified Old Virgin

Decisions.

“Mak! Why tell a married girl mulu. Tired knows not!” I was angry because Mom kept talking about getting married. In any case I will still consider many things not only about me and my future husband getting married later.

I pouted and immediately put the dishes in the sink. Just wanted out, Mom immediately replied, “you are told by parents why they argue mulu anyway, Dis. Mom just wants the best for you! You married it for you not for Mom. Gettin dong!”

I turned. At first glance see the face of Mother who looks upset because of my speech earlier. But, since the devil is plaguing me, so what can I do. “Mac. Once, my mother knew me. You don't have to tell me this first. I'm dizzy and tired. You know the Mak. Capek!” my voice rose up along with Mother who was surprised to see my behavior like an evil person.

“Girl, you?”

I did not press and chose to go to the middle room. From there I can still see the face of my mother who lowered her head because of my earlier snaps. Seriously for whatever I've never been this angry before. It's just that this time Mom was too depressed, so I had no other choice.

I look in front of the television. The picture box object is actually showing soap operas that make me sick because the edit that makes eye pain. I'll shut up for a second. And so aware that I shouldn't behave insolently to my mother I feel guilty too.

‘Aduh, I did what the hell. Even angry like this. So complicated is his business.’

I stole a look at my mother. It seems that my mother is still in the position she was before. Duck.

I'm so sad. Confused also want nyamperin mom or not. Not how it is, but I am also embarrassed because I was angry earlier. Not funny if suddenly there directly sungkem.

Suddenly my mind went to all my mother said. Mom said I had to go back to Irka. But, am I really supposed to be with him? What if I can't?

‘Where ya? I became a bego gini. Earlier, insistent not want to reverse with Irka. But I don't want to be with him. But, Mommy ..’

My head really wants to explode. There are a lot of things I think about just because of Mom and Irka's problem. The arrival of that jerk fucked up my life. It sucks!

I who already do not know should somehow choose to return to the room. My steps are lethargic and not excited. This morning has drained my energy, and this afternoon it was me and the stormy mother. Actually why the hell? Thought.

I decided to go to Balik—calm the mind to be more fresh. Unfortunately just leaned on the edge. My head was knocked on by a paper ball. I'm looking towards the source of the direction. My eyes were observant looking at Edo who was smiling as he waved his hand.

‘He did the hell?!” I was angry myself.

I aimed my chin to ask the man's intentions. Edo instead gestured to pick up the thrown paper ball. Despite my heavy heart, I still do it. I took the scroll paper in the corner of the balcony. My eyes carefully watched the sentence written there.

‘Come down! I brought you something.’ So said. I was confused and then knitted my eyebrows. From that moment on, I did not see Edo.

I exhaled a long breath. “Edo want to do something anyway? Yes-there!” gertutuku but still down and memorize Edo who was waiting in front of the house.

I asked directly. “Why all use stones, scissors, paper everything!” my cerocos made Edo chuckle.

“Abis I saw you so badmood earlier. Fuck the hell out of that.”

“Rese bang!”

Edo lifted the scraping bag in his hand. “I brought soda. Drink yuk!” bring him.

I stared without interest, strangely I kept nodding. Eventually Edo and I walked side by side to the bridge near the house. “Here a day yes, it looks comfortable,” said Edo.

“Town deh.” I was lazy to think so whatever is important can be used for sitting.

“A really habit of girls says whatever,” said Edo who then pulled me to sit on the bridge. “Sit here first, tired of standing still.”

“Bodoamat.” I swear when asked why I look so good, I don't know either. But, I think my mood is really bad today.

“Don't judge-judes times! Beautiful you will say later,” said Edo who immediately hit his arm.

“Do not make me want nabok dong!”

Edo laughed crisply. “You're really excited about being colonized.”

Looks like Edo is trying to understand me, he gave the soda can to me one letter said, “beautiful people if angry remain beautiful. Weird huh?”

I turned my head and picked up the soda can in Edo's hand. The instant I gulped it left Edo flabbergasted. “I again males know!”

“It looks like you every day males.”

“Do not be clarified.”

“Biarin.” Edo sipped his drink. “Eh, Dis. You want to see magic?”

“Do not dreadlocks.”

“Aaan anyway?! Real people. Want no?” Edo was waiting for my answer.

I really had to say, ”ya already, what?”

“See, nih!” Edo then shows a magic trick that is actually so bad. Even so I still laughed and amused even a little. Unfortunately, Edo's magic trick only distracts me a little. The rest, I was back.

“Dis, you want not to meet first?” ask Edo suddenly.

“Inget. That meeting is like a jenglot, right? Stiff and fierce.”

“You are!”

I stared at Edo for a moment. “Ya. New know?”

Edo shook his head. “Again.”

“Ya udah.”

Edo and I had a little conversation, though my mind kept drifting. Unexpectedly, mother's speech was again carefree. “Do...” lirihku.

“Why?”

“I think I'll try again with Irka deh.” I know that I sound crazy, but I don't want to see my mother constantly sad.

“You want the same guy?”

“Iya. Honestly, there is actually something else that makes me want to try again with him.”

“What? Mom's problem huh?” edo tang asked impressed.

“Then.” I still don't dare to tell Edo that it was my mother who made me make that rich decision. The rest is indeed I who have the intention to start with Irka again. If there is no obstacle.

Edo finished the soda can and leaned his body with both hands. “I'm sure it's in mom right?”

“Emak says I mending with Irka.”

“Tutin aja want mom. Maybe he wants the best for you,” said Edo encouraging me.

“I also pray like that,” said I who then spent the soda can and put it next to Edo.

“The best for you,” reply Edo who gave support, but strangely I see him moody.