But not Me

Hurt vs. Loving

Two weeks is like a time bomb for the marriage of Bagas and Dara, both Bagas and Dara were both pounding and no one could guess what would happen two weeks later to coincide with the end of their time together according to the agreement they had agreed on together, even deep down, none of them ever wanted the separation to happen, moreover, there is a child who is still very small and desperately needs the figure of both mother and father.

"Mila, let's hurry, we have to hurry, doctor Rita is waiting for us!" exciting Bagas.

"Doctor Rita? But my check-up schedule is still one week away!" kamila said confused because according to the schedule, next week she will just check her pregnancy again.

"Overnight Doctor Rita called me, he said for the next few days he would be overseas, so check it out" Bagas said.

"You call my obstetrician often? For what, a crush?" wonder Kamila, half accusing.

"Ishh, of course to consult about your pregnancy, ngawur you, let's hurry!" take Bagas again impatient, he even accidentally did not go to the office that day to take Kamila check to the hospital.

"Bagas, when you sleep in my room again, every night you sleep in Dara's room, I also want to sleep with you," rumuk Kamila while leaning her head against the arm of Bagas who was cool driving his vehicle and seriously looking at the streets.

"But I also accompany you to sleep every night, pity Dara if you have to stay up late at night when Kai cries at night, all day he is tired of taking care of Kai alone," said Bagas casually.

"So you don't like me? Some of the wrong ones themselves are willing to take care of their own children not using a nanny, the ends of your mallem are repotted!"

"But I'm equal to you more every day, they only get the rest of my time after being with you all day if I don't go to the office, sometimes when I'm in the office I go straight home if you want me to be with you,"

Kamila was silent, because what Bagas said was almost all true, maybe this was only because of his greed that did not want to share Bagas close to his son and wife, maybe, and hope that she becomes the only woman fill the days of Bagas as before.

"Alright, I'll understand, but I want us to refer to it again, now my status is unclear, not your wife but your child's pregnancy,"

"Yes!" answer Short Bagas.

"Official marriage, no siri, I do not want my child will have difficulty taking care of letters for deed and others," continued Kamila again increasingly.

"Yes, I'll do my best for my son, that's for sure, whatever[whatever I do for my son!" answer Bagas with eyes pushy either think what or who.

"When?" kamila.

"Fastly, surely soon, patience!"

Kamila's mood was now very happy and flowery, her steps as she passed through the hallway of the pu hospital felt very light, her hands loosely holding the hand of Bagas who continued to accompany a series of examinations that were quite tiring.

"Thank God, our baby is healthy, you hear, it was a very strong heartbeat, but my hand still hurts from the blood earlier, after all use there is a blood test event, all, I know I'm afraid of needles" Kamila said all the way home after the hospital check-up.

"Doctors know better, we just need to follow what is recommended, for the good of you and the fetus in your stomach," said Bagas casually despite looking very tired, tired, all night he did not sleep because his son was fussy, and he told Dara to rest because his wife looked very tired and sleepy.

"I want to shop first before going home, I want to buy new clothes because my body has begun to widen," he said, even though his body still looks the same his stomach is also not too bulging, but his body still looks the same, his family is still only going to walk for two months.

"Yes," nodded Bagas who seemed to have no other answer to all of Kamila's requests other than yes, okay, well.

"Did you live in the stone age, don't know there's such a thing as a cell phone to tell me these important things, huh?" upset Bagas who immediately ran to the upper room to see the state of Dara.

Actually he still wants to spill anger and resentment on the two assistants, just thinking about the situation of Dara who said Anwar was sick made him want to immediately rush to see the state of his wife.

"Well, honey, what-your bodies are so hot!" Bagas's question at the beginning of his arrival in the room came to a halt that was when he placed the back of his hand on Dara's forehead lying on his bed with a pale face.

"I'm fine, just dizzy, maybe a cold," Dara covered her face with a pillow so as not to see the panicked face of Bagas who was currently worried about her condition.

"You're hot, you have a fever, I'm calling the doctor, or you're going to the hospital?" tanya Bagas shifted the pillow that Dara deliberately closed to her face.

But the virgin just shook her head, "I've taken medicine, and it's healing" she refused.

"But-"

"Nothing but, if you intend to help me, you better hold Kai alone, because I don't have the energy to take care of it today,"

Bagas glanced at the sleeping Emperor in his crib and was waited upon by a housekeeper next to him,

"You can go and continue with your other work" said Bagas, telling the woman's assistant to leave.

"Rest me, I'll be here and take care of you" said Bagas as his hand reached for Dara's calf and gave him a slow massage to relax his wife.

But moments later Bagas stopped his activity massaging the wife's legs when he vaguely heard the sobs of the wife from behind the pillow that covered her face.

"Why, does my massage make you sicker?" tanya Bagas who when removing the pillow from his wife's face, Dara's eyes already look moist, even the pillow was wet because of her tears.

Dara just shook her head slowly.

"What's sick? Which side?"

But Dara instead patted her own chest, without a word.

"He's sick?" ask Bagas again.

"Hem, my chest hurts because I am confused by your attitude, do you realize that you are loving, loving and hurting me at the same time? Not consistent, if you want to hurt you aka rich first in the beginning of our marriage, so I also do not feel heavy when later separated from you, too, are you deliberately doing good like this so that I fall asleep and feel dependent on you? Please don't torture me in this sweet way!"

Dara's tears back up the river through the corner of her eyes on the right side and her left fell on the mattress.

"I'm sorry that I haven't been able to make you happy without injury, I really don't know any other way than this way that I've been doing it, and I'm sure you know that if I am as hurt as you are right now, please give me time to fight for us, for God's sake there is no intention of me to hurt you in the least, but if on the way it turns out you have to be hurt, I'm really sorry, even though my mistakes may be difficult to forgive, but I love you, really, it's nothing you need to doubt, I swear on any name." Surai Bagas with his busy hand wiped away the tears on Dara's cheek that were like they couldn't stop dripping.

"So, I'm confused, I don't know which attitude you really want to show me, you're like being two different people at the same time, sometimes not caring about me, ignoring me for the sake of your ex-wife, sometimes you are so kind, sweet and affectionate with me as you are today, please just do not make me confused again, please have mercy on me, I can not.!" said dara sesugikan.