But not Me

Overthinking

Dara put her phone on a small table near her king-size bed, she had just finished receiving a call from Bagas, the man informs her and asks her permission to stay a little longer in the hospital as Kamila continues to sulk in befriended by her, her husband promised to return home as soon as possible before she ended their conversation and hung up.

Previously, the prestige of Bagas was mediocre, Dara felt he had to understand and give them time, especially Kamila was in need of Bagas in such times, Dara felt that he had to understand and give them time, really she knows and understands what it is like to be a pregnant woman who really needs the support of a partner.

But when the day was getting night but Bagas had not yet returned home, although Dara who tried to stay calm from earlier and hide the anxiety because it was actually waiting for Bagas' return, began to feel angry, and, it was clear in his mind that Bagas was currently treating Kamila sweetly and attentively as Bagas' attitude was shown to him while he was being treated in the hospital at the time, Dara even thinks that Bagas' old love for Kamila is now springing back, because whatever the original love of Bagas is Kamila, it is, she felt she was just an imitation of Kamila's real face that had previously been imprinted in her husband's heart.

"Am I jealous?" Mumbled Dara asked herself, "Ah, no-no, where can I be jealous, I come to ruin their relationship, I can't be selfish," Dara brushed off her own thoughts.

"Honey, Kai's crying, why just watch it?" reprimanding Bagas who was suddenly already in the room, she felt strange with Dara's attitude of letting their baby cry while Dara was only dumbstruck with a blank look.

"Well, are you okay?" bagas continued to feel his wife's forehead, but did not feel feverish.

"I-I'm fine, mas. When are you coming home?" nervous Dara while directly holding her baby to give her milk.

"I came home from an hour ago, it's just that I took a shower and cleaned up downstairs, I don't want to come in here with germs from the hospital," bagas replied as he approached and looked at his son who was breastfeeding, somewhat in question, actually saw his son who was breastfeeding or watching the ASI factory that was being tapped by his son and was so tempting.

Baby Kai was mocking his father who could no longer enjoy what he was enjoying.

"Mas!" Call Dara, now replace Bagas who is nervous because he is daydreaming things that should not be daydreamed.

"Yes, I'm looking at our baby, not seeing him all day I feel like I miss it," said Bagas who now found the right reason why he looked in that direction without blinking.

"Only our baby?" kat-kat suddenly came out of Dara's lips, even though after that she felt sorry and alluded to herself for feeling very cheap and flirtatious to say such a question sentence.

"The mother of the Emperor was also, very upset in fact, wanted me to hug but was afraid of being rejected," said Bagas who felt the attitude of virgin rather other than usual, if usually his wife was impressed flat even sometimes cold, this time he was already able to lure himself to more boldly express his wishes.

The white Dara's cheeks instantly blushed, the woman felt the heat around her face just because of the simple rumble and dime of Bagas, 'fix it looks like I'm starting to hit Bagas' pellets' muttered Dara again even though she only said it in her heart.

"Why haven't you slept, hem? Waiting for me to come home?" Ask Bagas while sitting on the sofa where Dara is sitting and loving her son.

"Emh, no, I've been sleeping since, just woke up because of Kai's crying," she lied, but Bagas's guess was correct, he couldn't close his eyes because he was waiting for Bagas to come home.

"Emh, anu was still loading I admit, his life has not been collected all, just woke up really, so still confused." Cengir Dara looking for excuses.

"It's really pretty that smile, I'm sorry, if all this time I could never make you smile, and only the universe makes you nagis," Bagas looked at the shade of his wife's face, and his wife, the light brown bead in Dara's eyes seemed to shine brighter as the woman smiled.

"So if you don't smile isn't pretty?" dara's lips pursed.

"Beautiful, always beautiful, never not beautiful." sambar Bagas.

"Beauty, like an ex-boyfriend, if you don't look like any ex-girlfriend!" Dumel Dara who although slim but guaranteed Bagas certainly can still hear it.

"Darling, please don't start again, I'm tired, sleepy, we better sleep, baby Kai is also asleep again, tomorrow morning I have to go to the hospital again, I have an appointment with Kamila's obstetrician." said Bagas, ending their conversation that seemed to be going into chaos, so before it happened, it's good Bagas ended his sweet chat session earlier so that it was endless bitter.

Somehow there was a bit of disappointment in Dara when she heard that tomorrow morning her husband was going back to the hospital, even Bagas said he would meet the obstetrician Kamila, maybe right, guessed it, the togetherness of Bagas and Kamila all day makes their relationship improve again, then what is the fate of him if Bagas returned to the original owner instead of kw like himself?

"Is there a serious problem with the content of Kamila?" tanya Dara was stale for a moment before she lay down on the bed and prepared to sleep.

"No, he only needs bed rest because the content is weak, so I want to consult with his obstetrician tomorrow morning about the weak content" said Bagas.

"Emmmmh," that was the last word that came out of Dara's lips, after which she fell silent and closed her eyes, but believe me, she said, he was not asleep but was struggling and arguing with thoughts that he concluded himself, even Dara to think about where he and the baby would go if Bagas re-refers to Kamila, Dara said, he doesn't want to be a shadow between their relationships.

"Darling, are you asleep?" tanya Bagas turned his head towards his left side, as usual they were still sleeping far apart with bolsters as a barrier in the middle of their bed, as usual, Dara still can not be physical contact that is too intimate in addition to just limited handrails or strokes on her, besides Bagas did not dare to do more, but did not dare to do more, he also did not want to impose his desire on his wife so that his intrinses even feel tormented, although sometimes he wanted to hug or kiss his wife.

Seeing no reaction from Dara to his question just now, Bagas concluded that his wife had fallen asleep, by gathering courage, Bagas finally shifted a little closer to his wife's body, then pecked his wife's forehead in "I love you," he whispered, then returned to the original place and rearranged the barrier roll he had just passed.

Dara who actually has not fallen asleep just pretended to close his eyes was actually very surprised by the warm kiss Bagas, in addition to the whispers of love that the handsome man spoke, was actually very surprised by the warm kiss Bagas, indeed, at this moment his body brimmed, and his blood rippled violently.

It was very desirable for Dara to reply to Bagas' whisper with her warm embrace, so that she knew that at this time she also began to feel what her name was in love with her husband who had previously had swore that she would never fall in love with the man who had given her a son whose face copy pastes his father.

Really Dara wanted to tell Bagas that he was now ready to open his heart to him, but given the closeness back between Bagas and Kamila, it seems like Dara should be able to hold back more, do not let him who began to fall in love immediately feel what is called a broken heart, because Bagas chose to return with Kamila, let the feeling that he kept it alone in his heart, he did not want to be impressed to prevent the relationship between Bagas and Kamila who will improve again.